You see, this is the problem, my lads - I met up with my ex gf earlier today and.... I had a blast. It was a wonderful time. We walked around the city, found a restaurant, reminisced (lol), flirting, a bit of cuddling, joked around, etc... The chemistry was very, very, very high and this is kinda fucked up because of the whole family situation. I think that's mostly because we ended due to the relationship being long distance, not because of anything actually wrong with us. I just need some time to think. I will NOT, NOT facillitate cheating, but the truth is my friend, I still feel something for her. And I know she feels the same way lol. I ain't gonna do shit. This really sucks but I guess I just have to say goodbye :'( and not contact her again otherwise I'm putting myself in a position to get seriously fucked up.