Wow, sorry to hear that man. But I applaud your courage to share something so personal with all of us here. What it seems like was that you were extremely distracted. Today try autoblog, next week adsense, another week try adwords, then try CPA, and so forth. I think if that was your approach, everything you did was just halfbaked. People spent years into mastering PPC and you think one ebook, their purpose is to make money not significant education, few forums are going to set you free without significant $ investment on your part?
To make ANY kind of money, from ANY kind work, you need laser focus attention and effort into that ONE, just ONE thing you are doing.
I guess what onenumerology is trying to tell you is that internet marketing is just like salesmanship. You need experience in that first.
And I guess you living with your parent made you TOO comfortable. You think you tried, but if you join the workforce, the offline ones, you know you are not even close to the kinda effort others are pushing each and everyday just to get to work.
My advice, get out of your comfort zone, get some real life experience, really brainstorm on what you are really good at and pick one area and keep going in that direction and never to look back. Two words: Man Up