Just been away for a while... Vent/Grief


Sep 30, 2014
What can I say, I just feel broken and completely defeated and worthless. A few years ago I jumped into a business for some dumb reason I thought I could handle(Wholesale beauty supply b2b sales). In the end I had to close down shop and ended up $60k in debt with a wife and kids who are now stuck in a crappy situation and living arrangement because of my utter failure at life. In the past few months I took up learning how to code in the hopes I could get into a lucrative career somewhere in the near future, but like all good things it takes time, blood, sweat and tears.

Everyday just feels like hell as I spin my mind on how to get out of my financial desolation, then today I had happened to check my spam folder and saw this forum, a forum I haven't been on in years..

So I figured maybe its a sign, maybe there is a light here for my insanely dark tunnel.. I am here again hopeful but still lost and overwhelmed and amazed with the sheer volume of information here.

Right now I'm just venting... because it just feels good and in some way I hope that will move some things for me in this life.

Thanks for reading :(
It's good to know you're not alone in a dark place. My mom is battling cancer and I'm finding things pretty tough. You have your health, don't take it for granted. Take care of yourself, read, take action - this site is a wonderful resource. It's not too late. Peace.
Thanks guys your replies really did help, its been a rough few years.. But I really want to get on track now.
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