I'm so lost

Hey. I'm a highschooler (17m but legally I'm 16, because my parents committed fraud on my fucking birth certificate and smart card so I doile retire later) from a 3rd world country

I've been suffering from severe mental health issues and used to use drugs, until my parents beat the shit out of me and I nearly died several times trying to suicide. Now I'm in a dilemma, because I want to move out but can't because there are not many youth programs/opportunities available. I absolutely cannot bear 3 more years till I move out for college, they haven't even let me go out for 6 months and I didn't have many friends anyways. So this is do or die for me

I've been trying to find clients but been unsuccessful... I'm proficient in PHP (CLI/Laravel), JS/TS, HTML, Tailwind and React.js/Express and Next.js. I've looked on Fiverr, don't really have money to apply on Upwork, and looked on discord and other forums but to no avail.

Now, another issue: I don't have a way to actually receive the money. I could use Bitcoin (but Fiverr does not support it :/) to at least receive the money, but I cannot easily convert it to cash. I will have to ask a friend to withdraw it to cash somehow, give him a decent share of the money :/, and then somehow secretly ask him to order the money (assuming I don't get scammed :///), and THEN somehow hide the money from my parents (my mom checks my entire room daily and I have no locks).

I might just end it, shit seems hopeless. I can't get a physical job (parents again) and 2 years until I can legally get a bank account (so at 19m; i put it on everything and God I'm legally 17).

Beep.

Sorry for your situation
You can take a look at this thread: https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/f...or-hiring-or-working-as-a-freelancer.1658599/

There are more freelancing platforms with less competition that you can apply for besides Fiverr and Upwork
About receiving the money, you'd probably really need to partner with someone

This is a hard situation, it's hard to find a profitable business without any investments that accepts to pay via crypto

Seekehr said:

I've been trying to find clients but been unsuccessful... I'm proficient in PHP (CLI/Laravel), JS/TS, HTML, Tailwind and React.js/Express and Next.js. I've looked on Fiverr, don't really have money to apply on Upwork, and looked on discord and other forums but to no avail.

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If your tech skills are strong, so the challenge might be in your approach.
Have you considered cold emailing startups to pitch your services?

We will have to get your mind in check dude, BHW dragged me away from it all in 2020 but my head wasn't with it

If I actually put the foot down and said life starts here, I'd be another 5 years ahead

With that in mind, move at your own pace - there's countless times I've nearly snapped since getting my shit together... That's from getting to big for my boots, not taking advice and then life sits you back down...

You've got a deadly set of skills with the coding and programming... There's nothing stopping you from learning how to set up something that earns in a way you can store

Give me a shout if a chat is needed, we'd have to get the gloves and gumshields out but you're alright

RichMedusa said:

Sorry for your situation
You can take a look at this thread: https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/f...or-hiring-or-working-as-a-freelancer.1658599/

There are more freelancing platforms with less competition that you can apply for besides Fiverr and Upwork
About receiving the money, you'd probably really need to partner with someone

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Thank you brother, ill check that out. I'm currently 'partnering' with my weed plug (but not rly earning rn anyways, he just said he'd help) but assuming I get scammed, I can't really do anything to him can I? so idk how to find a partner

UrbanSnake said:

This is a hard situation, it's hard to find a profitable business without any investments that accepts to pay via crypto

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Lil update: I somehow found someone looking for work and edited a video for them and now I have a whole 4 bucks in BTC . Paid 1$/h but it's not that bad, at least it's something. I don't think I could invest in anything with that much but thought id ask lol

tompots said:

If your tech skills are strong, so the challenge might be in your approach.
Have you considered cold emailing startups to pitch your services?

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How can I do this in Pakistan? I've looked into this before and people recommend calling random businesses to see if they want a website. I called a few local clinics and 2-3 hotels, and I was given a stern 'No, fuck off'. So idk if I'm focusing on the right target demographic

CPANathan said:

We will have to get your mind in check dude, BHW dragged me away from it all in 2020 but my head wasn't with it

If I actually put the foot down and said life starts here, I'd be another 5 years ahead

With that in mind, move at your own pace - there's countless times I've nearly snapped since getting my shit together... That's from getting to big for my boots, not taking advice and then life sits you back down...

You've got a deadly set of skills with the coding and programming... There's nothing stopping you from learning how to set up something that earns in a way you can store

Give me a shout if a chat is needed, we'd have to get the gloves and gumshields out but you're alright

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You're right bro, I gotta lock in. It's a bit hard to manage with studies but I'm trying, not like I can bring myself to study without wanting to throw up anyways. Another friend told me to start a start-up aswell but, if I set up a store, wouldn't that just be dropshipping which is very competitive nowadays and requires a ton in investments for advertising? How could I do that? I'm willing to invest time as a replacement for money but idk if money is replaceable at this point lol

All the best!

Seekehr said:

You're right bro, I gotta lock in. It's a bit hard to manage with studies but I'm trying, not like I can bring myself to study without wanting to throw up anyways. Another friend told me to start a start-up aswell but, if I set up a store, wouldn't that just be dropshipping which is very competitive nowadays and requires a ton in investments for advertising? How could I do that? I'm willing to invest time as a replacement for money but idk if money is replaceable at this point lol

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I've definitely got something downloaded somewhere that you can super glue together with either PHP, Laravel, or that

Have you heard of Laravel Wave?

CPANathan said:

I've definitely got something downloaded somewhere that you can super glue together with either PHP, Laravel, or that

Have you heard of Laravel Wave?

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Yessir, I have

Seekehr said:

Yessir, I have

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Then look at EtchWP and combine them, then try tell me "I can't do whatever I want to do now bro"

These days we are spoonfed everything, just gotta act on it

CPANathan said:

Then look at EtchWP and combine them, then try tell me "I can't do whatever I want to do now bro"

These days we are spoonfed everything, just gotta act on it

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i'm going to get on that right now bro i appreciate u. ill make an update post about it in a week then

Seekehr said:

i'm going to get on that right now bro i appreciate u. ill make an update post about it in a week then

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I swear EtchWP is going to make you blow the beans dude, do keep me updated I'll be excited to hear back

I've actually been using Etch to spot routes with code I haven't copped before(I neglected jS and went from Laravel to WP rather than just suck up PHP)

Don't share too many details like exact DOB. Just be careful. As for situation, I do feel what you are going through. But keep trying, maybe you will find something like most of us do.

Good idea, I'll remove that. And thanks bro

Seekehr said:

Good idea, I'll remove that. And thanks bro

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Don't share too many details like exact DOB. Just be careful. As for situation, I do feel what you are going through. But keep trying, maybe you will find something like most of us do.

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and it just gets that much easier when you find something like CL said, once you have something to drop those heavy hours of the day into, it's just the other heavy hours that you can sleep and eat through

you go girl

CPANathan said:

and it just gets that much easier when you find something like CL said, once you have something to drop those heavy hours of the day into, it's just the other heavy hours that you can sleep and eat through

you go girl

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That's true, distractions help a ton. I hope it ends up being worth it man, I'm still depressed but this stuff gave me a lil hope. I hope I don't look back on these msgs and feel worse