JFire9
Banned - Multiple accounts to game the forum.
- Aug 26, 2020
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Hi,
I have a confession to make.
In all these years, I have use various usernames on bhw because I was banned for breaking forum rules.
Some of the usernames I remember using were: blackdan, seoex, GuruMaster, Good42, redkiller, JFire9 (current) and maybe more which I can't remember.
I didn't scam anyone here, and all my other usernames I use to either help people or ask for answers/advice.
But the main problem is with username blackdan to which was banned in 2009 and which made me ill the way I'm right now. I have schizophrenia after I made some sinful/idiotic/egoistic posts on bhw using the username blackdan. Some of it was removed. I even had near death experience to which I escape in 2009 which is also the reason for my suffering and problems.
I will share some of the threads I posted on bhw below:
https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/10-for-the-person-who-posts-the-best-joke.132151/page-4 (search for Sanitarium post where he quoted my words, original post was removed. This post at that time I believe was wisdom for me, but the place and the way I posted is absolutely wrong. I am full of ego and I'm a hypocrites.)
https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/ever-felt-the-pain.83571/ (Idiotic and disgusting post by me.)
I need to confess myself, I hope mod won't remove this post as I will use it to show to my doctors and who ever it may concern in the future.
Thanks and sorry for disturbing your forum in the past.
I no longer do IM and no longer frequent bhw like I use to, I use to be very addicted to bhw, every morning I would come, that was years ago.
Now a days I'm living a simple life at home and planning to sell pizza sandwich with my mom for a living.
In 2009, on bhw, I also said that those who follow me will go above and those who don't follow me will live inside us. I want to say sorry to God for these words. I didn't mean to say it, I don't know why I said it. These posts were removed within seconds after it was posted by me with username blackdan.
In 2009, as I said I had near death experience, and I tried to escape it, and many days later that followed, it was what I believe is called schizophrenic episode, I was in delusions, I wouldn't go back home, I imagine I'm this and that and this is happening and that is happening. I feel I have harm many people. I thought world war 3 is coming and I felt it was because of me and I gotten uncontrolled.
Nowadays, I have a serious mental problem, I think negative alot, I think of shit and sex and dirt with everyone and even with god and I want the illness to be resolve, I don't want to sin no more, but every day, I'm still doing this sin and I can't control it.
Thanks for reading my confession letter.
I wish you success and happiness in your life.
I hope mod won't delete this, I want to keep it to show to many people in real life like my doctors.
I have a confession to make.
In all these years, I have use various usernames on bhw because I was banned for breaking forum rules.
Some of the usernames I remember using were: blackdan, seoex, GuruMaster, Good42, redkiller, JFire9 (current) and maybe more which I can't remember.
I didn't scam anyone here, and all my other usernames I use to either help people or ask for answers/advice.
But the main problem is with username blackdan to which was banned in 2009 and which made me ill the way I'm right now. I have schizophrenia after I made some sinful/idiotic/egoistic posts on bhw using the username blackdan. Some of it was removed. I even had near death experience to which I escape in 2009 which is also the reason for my suffering and problems.
I will share some of the threads I posted on bhw below:
https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/10-for-the-person-who-posts-the-best-joke.132151/page-4 (search for Sanitarium post where he quoted my words, original post was removed. This post at that time I believe was wisdom for me, but the place and the way I posted is absolutely wrong. I am full of ego and I'm a hypocrites.)
https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/ever-felt-the-pain.83571/ (Idiotic and disgusting post by me.)
I need to confess myself, I hope mod won't remove this post as I will use it to show to my doctors and who ever it may concern in the future.
Thanks and sorry for disturbing your forum in the past.
I no longer do IM and no longer frequent bhw like I use to, I use to be very addicted to bhw, every morning I would come, that was years ago.
Now a days I'm living a simple life at home and planning to sell pizza sandwich with my mom for a living.
In 2009, on bhw, I also said that those who follow me will go above and those who don't follow me will live inside us. I want to say sorry to God for these words. I didn't mean to say it, I don't know why I said it. These posts were removed within seconds after it was posted by me with username blackdan.
In 2009, as I said I had near death experience, and I tried to escape it, and many days later that followed, it was what I believe is called schizophrenic episode, I was in delusions, I wouldn't go back home, I imagine I'm this and that and this is happening and that is happening. I feel I have harm many people. I thought world war 3 is coming and I felt it was because of me and I gotten uncontrolled.
Nowadays, I have a serious mental problem, I think negative alot, I think of shit and sex and dirt with everyone and even with god and I want the illness to be resolve, I don't want to sin no more, but every day, I'm still doing this sin and I can't control it.
Thanks for reading my confession letter.
I wish you success and happiness in your life.
I hope mod won't delete this, I want to keep it to show to many people in real life like my doctors.
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