First off, there have been a lot of relationship threads here lately... and the sheer number of them are getting annoying, honestly. I do post to them with the most heartfelt advice I can muster. I can't believe I am making one of my own now. I just don't know where else to turn. I guess I am a bit of a hypocrite. I won't go into too many details but my boyfriend broke up with me and I don't know what to do. He thinks I am secretly seeing my best friend (who is a guy... and a million miles away). I'm obviously NOT, but I admit we do say flirty things to each other. My boyfriend has always known this, as I disclosed that early on. Before you all say it... I know it's a bad fucking idea. I shouldn't have even continued talking to my best friend, but I did... and I was always open about it with my boyfriend. I thought being open about everything was enough. I admit I said some things jokingly to my friend which crossed the line. At the time I didn't think anything of it, but now I regret it more than I can say. I've always had male friends, not female, so my interactions with men have always been a bit odd. I never hid anything on purpose... but my boyfriend seems to think I "verbally" cheated on him. I know why he would think that, but in all honesty, the things I said to my best friend were just in fun. I am such a fool. I ruined the trust... I broke his heart... I don't know what to do. Guys, please help me. What can I do? I am so lost without him. He's making me make a choice on who to be with... him or my best friend but I am not with my best friend so I can't answer that! I keep telling him that and he just won't believe me. Even if he does take me back, the trust is gone and no matter what I do, he'll always think I cheated. I feel so gutted.