Holy ****, man. I'm starting to be afraid of opening your threads. I wish you a speedy recovery. As a former smoker, I will say that quitting is very doable. Just find your "why". Health seems just as good a reason as any. For me, I noticed how when I was in the military, I could buy packs for $2. Years later, I was paying $6.50 for a pack. The price was my "why", and now I've been almost 8 years without a cig. Now, I don't even think about them. You can do it. No need for e-cigs, either. Cold turkey.