Guys, I am about at my wits end with celibacy, etc... Background: I'm a 26 year old male, healthy. I absolutely love and adore women, honestly everything about them enchants me. The main reason I want to be celibate, obviously, is because it seriously enhances my abilities and it gives me great strength and energy. Everything from the gym (thanks to the added testosterone - up to 100% increase after 7 days, I just reached my max bench of 200), general confidence, etc... reaches an all time high. Anyway I got to a point where I was so.fucking.horny. that it literally ripped me out of my body and I had a spontaneous astral projection. That was... interesting, I'd rather not go into the details because it's beyond the scope of bhw. After that I basically blew it. What a fucking messy disappointment and waste of seed . I feel so weak willed. I need to reach at least 13 consecutive years of no sex, no masturbation, no porn AT ALL, no contact, NOTHING but I find it so hard to climb this mountain. What's it going to take for me to reach my goals? I want to make something of my life and actually grow spiritually, physically and mentally but it's so hard. I'm so frustrated about struggling against a biological machine that is hard wired to fight me by all means necessary, every single second. It is a humbling experience for sure to realize how weak I am. I've tried not objectifying women at all (not staring at their asses, tits, etc... as they walk up and down in provocative clothes), trying to stay pure, everything. Maybe one day I will find the strength to prevail. I'm back to square one. Here we go again :/. Wish me luck gents.