Feeling super frustrated about celibacy and controlling my thoughts

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  1. pewep

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    Guys, I am about at my wits end with celibacy, etc... Background: I'm a 26 year old male, healthy. I absolutely love and adore women, honestly everything about them enchants me.

    The main reason I want to be celibate, obviously, is because it seriously enhances my abilities and it gives me great strength and energy. Everything from the gym (thanks to the added testosterone - up to 100% increase after 7 days, I just reached my max bench of 200), general confidence, etc... reaches an all time high. Anyway I got to a point where I was so.fucking.horny. that it literally ripped me out of my body and I had a spontaneous astral projection. That was... interesting, I'd rather not go into the details because it's beyond the scope of bhw. After that I basically blew it.

    What a fucking messy disappointment and waste of seed :(. I feel so weak willed. I need to reach at least 13 consecutive years of no sex, no masturbation, no porn AT ALL, no contact, NOTHING but I find it so hard to climb this mountain. What's it going to take for me to reach my goals? I want to make something of my life and actually grow spiritually, physically and mentally but it's so hard. I'm so frustrated about struggling against a biological machine that is hard wired to fight me by all means necessary, every single second. It is a humbling experience for sure to realize how weak I am. I've tried not objectifying women at all (not staring at their asses, tits, etc... as they walk up and down in provocative clothes), trying to stay pure, everything. Maybe one day I will find the strength to prevail.

    I'm back to square one. Here we go again :/. Wish me luck gents.
     
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    Hope this helps.....

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    That's not being helpful. At all.
     
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  4. Geared

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    Give sex a go - it'll reduce your stress, make you more productive and you won't spend half as much time worry about controlling your thoughts. Plus you won't die in a stress induced coma by 30. :)
     
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    But I don't want to have sex :(. I want BIG chi like a holy man :D.
     
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    Jesus... keep posting more gifs.
    Better yet, just send me your folder with the collection.
     
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  8. Geared

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    Fair enough mate. I'm probably going to hell already, so I might as well continue with my ways.
     
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    OP, your post declaring that you have 'trouble with your thoughts' is the most honest thing I've seen around here in months.
     
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    I mean trouble controlling how I feel about women. I see a beautiful woman walking down the street and my eyes hit every curve like a drunk driver on the freeway. I just want to stop objectifying her and seeing her as a walking steak and instead just see her as a human being with thoughts, dreams and ambitions like me. I want to move beyond the flesh and see people for who they really, truly are instead of putting my own ideas on them.
     
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    I see.

    But why?
     
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    Careful Pewep, you might get an online therapy bill in the mail :p
     
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    You must be pretty damn hungry if you're seeing people as walking steaks.
     
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    Is it Priya Rai?
     
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    Why?

    Lol. I want BIG supernatural powers like my master. He's been celibate for a while but he can levitate a fucking bed across the room NO problem. He actually regularly levitates. The things he can do I honestly don't even want to say because it's almost to the point where it would be an issue to the general public. BUT, basically I want to be like him and this is the only way.
     
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    Forgive me for thinking that you perhaps had a logical reason.
     
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    I want to be a Holy Man. A brahmin. A seer. An oracle. A shaman. A healer. A witch. A sorcerer. Hsien as strong as Da Mo. Any further questions?
     
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    The water between the islands of Wanting To Be and Being is enough to flood the entire universe.
     
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