Things have gone from bad to worse for me lately...tried my hands on a lot of things,all to no avail. Lost a Father figure to illness,majorly because i had no money to get him to a better clinic. Have been harbouring thoughts of taking my own life only to realise that doing that will worsen my family's condition. I know a lot of folks here will be like "what the heck is he saying" or "why the hell is he spewing his personal life on this forum",the reason is that this forum have been my family/friend for a good four years (before i finally decided to join last year),made my first IM money with the help of some friends here.that's why i feel comfortable penning down my thoughts here. I think it's time i unlearn all i have known,learn new methods and relearn the old one's too. I have gotta live for my family.