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Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by tokstesla, Jan 4, 2017.

  1. tokstesla

    tokstesla Power Member

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    Things have gone from bad to worse for me lately...tried my hands on a lot of things,all to no avail. Lost a Father figure to illness,majorly because i had no money to get him to a better clinic. Have been harbouring thoughts of taking my own life only to realise that doing that will worsen my family's condition.
    I know a lot of folks here will be like "what the heck is he saying" or "why the hell is he spewing his personal life on this forum",the reason is that this forum have been my family/friend for a good four years (before i finally decided to join last year),made my first IM money with the help of some friends here.that's why i feel comfortable penning down my thoughts here.
    I think it's time i unlearn all i have known,learn new methods and relearn the old one's too.
    I have gotta live for my family.
     
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  2. Rosca

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    I'm sorry for your father's loss man.

    And I don't think anyone is going to bash you for saying what's going on in your life. Life is tough and its a pain in the ass a good 8/10 of the time. I don't really know what I can say to assure you, but life is going to be okay man.

    You go out there, hustle and make money to make the best life you can for your family man.

    If you need to talk more on this let me know man!
     
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    I totally understand your situation. My mother is in a clinic right now, tough times. She will make it though, she is one heck of a strong woman.

    However, keep pursuing what you love. Instead of focusing on 1000 different things, put all your energy in one thing. Passion kills competition. All the best, and if you want to talk you can always PM me.

    ST
     
  4. tokstesla

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    Thanks mate.
     
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    Write down everything good and everything bad in your life. Put them in order then try and start chipping away at the lists - put all your effort into the best things to further develop them and try to remove some of the bad things.

    It sounds like you are in a bad place so just try to ride out the storm stay still or move forward if you can and have faith that you will get through the bad times.

    Don't even think about taking your life - just imagine yourself in 5 years and everything in your life is good. That's where you are gonna be if you can whether the storm.
     
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    What have you tried so far and failed at? Then list what your looking to learn and I'm sure plenty of people will respond with techniques for whatever your interested in learning.
     
  7. tokstesla

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    Thanks. I wish your mom makes a quick recovery.
     
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    Thanks dave
     
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  9. tokstesla

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    I will try..Thanks
     
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    Its always been about trying and trying and trying until you find that perfect niche that your good at. Make no mistake, you will find it and prevail.
     
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    Dont give up until you make your old man proud!! That's something to fight for, and trust me, they see even after they're gone!
     
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    Hey man stay strong.

    Life is a blessing. No matter how hard the situation, you can always find a silver lining and somehow nature finds a way to reward you with better days ahead.

    Never think of taking your own life. Think positive, stay strong for your family and one day a family will stay strong for you to. It's how we all get through this life.

    Also depression is a clinical condition. There's treatment. Someone I know gave me depression drug once and I tested it, it really improves your mind. So go see a doctor.
    Don't drink alcohol while you feel down, stay healthy, do exercize and seek a doc if you think you need some corrective medicine. Never take pills alone. Only go see a doc if you think you're clinically depressed (don't wanna live, don't wanna go out, etc). Otherwise exercize and being well will do. Good luck mate.

    ADDED: When you think of taking your life, that's depression talking, not your real brain. Your real brain wants to live, always. Depression can fool you. Take the meds if you need them, there's nothing wrong in correcting the weird chemistry of the brain.
     
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    First, I'm very sorry for your loss.

    Second, I 100% agree with @bartosimpsonio. That is not you. That is depression. I know bc I have it. I've had it for almost 10 years now. I'm not gonna lie and say I haven't been where you are now, bc the majority of my life feels like a tar pit. But I can't give up. To give up is to quit, to admit defeat. And I am not a quitter.

    Mom's here for you kiddo. You ever want to vent, PM me. I'm not gonna judge you or anything of the sort. I want you to keep living. I don't ever want anyone to feel like the only way out is taking their own life. That is never the answer.

    Unless you're Hitler.
     
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    Hey,

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    dude, dont be depressive.

    If you wanna know about my problems you can PM me.

    Read Leeths post 5 years on BHW.

    "He still smiles sometimes in the morning when he wakes up."

    ------------------------------------

    There are too many problems probably cause you dont have enaugh money :D Just make money.

    People die, we will one day too. If it was something unusual, im sorry.

    I think having a few €XX,XXX a day sites would make all that depression go away. :D

    Thats my motivation. i run around and smile, although i should kill myself if id be objective. :D Fu** that, do stuff.

    wish u all the best.

    and dont post depression posts (i mean make a cooler title :D), the first thing i saw on BHW main page was "Depression" -

    At the same time, its funny, cause depression is the actual cause why people come to BHW at the firstplace.


    get inspired !
     
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    will try mate.. Thanks
     
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    Thanks Uncle Bart.
     
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    Your son is no hitler. Thanks mom.
     
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    Am sorry mate,hope the title didn't try to suck you in. Thanks
     
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