A despaired tired young man

Monamona said:

Suffered enough of this materialism world for not being at the top of the ivory tower. At this time of my life, my soul could not stop asking myself that do i really want to be at this side of the world where as a slave like life, been expolited till the end of my day cus thats all my capability is? been ditched at the bottom of this capitalism reality like a rat man? Looking at people with skills, assets, connections haunting around me, a fury impulse grinding EVERY SINGLE cell within me. I want a way out. A way up, to be more specific. It sure sounds navie to talk about if the world is fair or not, but to me, I just can not ignore the despair knowing I am lower than them. I am an administrative personel in a tech company, for my incompetence in this age of information, this is as good as it can gets. A senior internet security specialist recommended me about being a SEOer, after a few days self research, I hardly learnt a thing expect for one thing, that black hat could be a way up. I have nothing to lose nor that I care to lose, I wish that i can find the dream here. The world is beautiful, but only when you are on the other side of it.

*reminder: All mentioned contents above are pure my own subjective perspectives, in which has no political intensions in any aspects to this forum.

Lastly, Hello everyone, meeting you here is my privileged honour.

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Monamona said:

Suffered enough of this materialism world for not being at the top of the ivory tower. At this time of my life, my soul could not stop asking myself that do i really want to be at this side of the world where as a slave like life, been expolited till the end of my day cus thats all my capability is? been ditched at the bottom of this capitalism reality like a rat man? Looking at people with skills, assets, connections haunting around me, a fury impulse grinding EVERY SINGLE cell within me. I want a way out. A way up, to be more specific. It sure sounds navie to talk about if the world is fair or not, but to me, I just can not ignore the despair knowing I am lower than them. I am an administrative personel in a tech company, for my incompetence in this age of information, this is as good as it can gets. A senior internet security specialist recommended me about being a SEOer, after a few days self research, I hardly learnt a thing expect for one thing, that black hat could be a way up. I have nothing to lose nor that I care to lose, I wish that i can find the dream here. The world is beautiful, but only when you are on the other side of it.

*reminder: All mentioned contents above are pure my own subjective perspectives, in which has no political intensions in any aspects to this forum.

Lastly, Hello everyone, meeting you here is my privileged honour.

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sageshark said:

After reading your post the first thing that came to my mind is that - this guy needs to work harder to learn new things and new skills.

Mate, you are finding people around you with higher skills and assets but do you realize that they have earned it themselves with hard work and discipline? So if you want to be like them you have to invest time, efforts, energy and stay focused on improving yourself.

You have come to the right place - BlackHatWorld! Here you will get very good advice and guidance from industry veterans. So just relax and take some time to read the forum rules, important threads and start growing everyday.

All the best and Welcome to BHW!

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Monamona said:

Suffered enough of this materialism world for not being at the top of the ivory tower. At this time of my life, my soul could not stop asking myself that do i really want to be at this side of the world where as a slave like life, been expolited till the end of my day cus thats all my capability is? been ditched at the bottom of this capitalism reality like a rat man? Looking at people with skills, assets, connections haunting around me, a fury impulse grinding EVERY SINGLE cell within me. I want a way out. A way up, to be more specific. It sure sounds navie to talk about if the world is fair or not, but to me, I just can not ignore the despair knowing I am lower than them. I am an administrative personel in a tech company, for my incompetence in this age of information, this is as good as it can gets. A senior internet security specialist recommended me about being a SEOer, after a few days self research, I hardly learnt a thing expect for one thing, that black hat could be a way up. I have nothing to lose nor that I care to lose, I wish that i can find the dream here. The world is beautiful, but only when you are on the other side of it.

*reminder: All mentioned contents above are pure my own subjective perspectives, in which has no political intensions in any aspects to this forum.

Lastly, Hello everyone, meeting you here is my privileged honour.

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