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Life is about finding yourself.
Life is about finding yourself.
But i already know where i am, right here. Well i know what you mean. I have 1 friend at the moment who i visit sometimes most often drinking there. I wonder how they even let me come over after the stuff i have said to them while drunk lol. Even though he rarely ask me over or to do anything , mostly when hes drunk. I think ill sell my cars and stuff i don't ever use and move to another city start training and producing music, living semi-simple. It will be easy with IM. I think for too long i have compensated the anxiety with buying useless stuff rather than concentrating things i really like, which though are hard to do alone.
I agree with all of your post except the ending. I very much enjoy living in a small one bedroom apartment alone. It works better for me. I was married and did lose my wife due to the internet because I am addicted, but it was a mutual decision in the end. I have major social anxiety issues and I don't like dealing with the outside world on a regular basis.
I am very happy with my life right now. I am not rich, I basically have no friends and nobody to talk to on a regular basis. But I am happy. I love women more than anything in the world, so eventually I would like to find some women to date, but I don't think I will ever be able to settle down with 1 woman. It just isn't what I am made for. 5 years from now I want to be in India, 6 months later in China, 1 year later Japan etc. I need to be alone to be truly free.
A 1 bedroom apartment can seem like a luxury castle to someone off the streets.
Living alone sounds depressing to some people, but sounds like freedom to others.
Life is about xrumer, pentium 3 and vodka.
I want to thank all of you for your opinions in the this thread.
Today is the day that I needed to read this, I have issues everyone has issues .
" I am a control Freak"
Pick any subject and I will try to control it, or convince you to accept my opinion of it as yours.
I recognize this, and realize the more that I try to control things the less control I have.
So I am on a mission to relax and let life take me where it wants to.
I know one thing, me trying to control everything has gotten me no where.
I was not always like this.
I think It started when I began working from home.
I live in a rural setting with just a few neighbors, and crappy ones at that.
So I have a lot of thinking time, which has led to stress and anxiety.
I am going to vegas for my first time, and believe me until today I have been going thru every aspect of this trip planning and thinking about every detail. Trying to control the outcome.
It is driving my wife crazy and is causing major stress. Taking the fun out of the trip before we even start.
So I will try and relax and let what happens ... Happen.
Thanks again for all the wisdom in this thread.![]()