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I saw what u did there, I guess you're just a narcisst with some childhood traumas.
You 'sound' in your late teen years, If you're over 20, please seek help asap, for you and your surroundings.
25 years old. I can do wrong with no remorse. But I'm not doing that as reward to risk is too high. Done that few times. Now I'm close to incarceration.

I had a thread about leaving country due to THEM (government, idiots, fools) being the root cause of my problems. They closed it cause it turned political.

https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/are-those-baby-donation-pages-scam.1582682/#post-17475208
They really try hard to get me into custody haha. But they don't understand playing with that type of people is playing with fire...
 
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I did multiple of these tests over the years, all of them said I am a psychopath in some % or aspects, but I dont believe it really.
 
I did multiple of these tests over the years, all of them said I am a psychopath in some % or aspects, but I dont believe it really.
here more reliable tests https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-the-minnesota-multiphasic-personality-inventory-2795582

but you need to consult with 3rd party as this must be interpreted by professional

psychopathy is wrong term, look up "cluster b personality disorders" - they all have narcissism core and then they become sociopaths, borderline personalities or are born psychopaths

it's called "dark triad"

It's a double edged sword. Some psychopatic traits increase your chances of success in capitalism in a meaningful way.

Think of hackers or salesmen for example...

But if impulsivity goes out of control, you'll end up in custody possibly slaying someone.

Now the point is that you only want some of these traits in business but not develop disorder. So don't repeat what they do or I had done. Just take the "wise part". I think "how to" for it is in some Kevin Dutton's book.
 
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Throughout my life I have set extreme challnges a normal human being would go insane off just thinking of.

Select ones:

- 3 years of sitting alone in the room, restricting myself from sunlight, painstakingly coding random stuff thinking I'll become a millionaire (fantasy),
- 1 year of complete isolation off people with no friends, that includes hiding from landlord,
- 1 year of isolation with working class, older, religious people that I had prior traumas with,
- one year of daily weightlifting trainings with no supervision (in progress, about to destroy my bones!),
- becoming a $4 million net worth person without external help,
- building a house as a 15 year old (failure, spent all the money on food and isolation),
- not going to school and criticizing every single sentence, done painstakingly to never again visit school and never pass an exam (makes me feel exceptional to destroy their minds by my https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YR5ApYxkU-U),
- escaping country and law enforcement - new one,
- going in t-shirt only in around 0 celsius or higher degrees temperature - getting random comments every second day on the streets!,
- not trying to get laid to make people wonder what's up with this dude (HAHA, GOOD ONE),
- trying to survive off online income for as long as I could, done 10 years - challenge over,
- not shave or visit barber for years, impersonating woman - I started to like this one to be honest but with shaving every 3 days!,
- creating 100 commercial programs of many niches - failure, it's close to impossible to do so many industries,
- hanging out only with https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Low-life for 6 years - over, waste of resources and they weren't USEFUL enough,
- not using smartphones for years in smartphone era.

Even if it costs me tons of suffering, I AM THE EXCEPTION TO THE RULE.

If I go to prison, I'll show CLASS there. I doubt it's as easy as these above, BUT THAT WILL BE the battle test. Possibly I'll die.

First thing you do in prison cell is you attack the closest inmate. YOU JUMP ON THAT INMATE SCREAMING OUT LOUD some curse words.

It doesn't matter if you lose the first battle. It matters whether you survive each day.

Now once you quit the prison and the sentence is over (IT MIGHT NEVER BE OVER IF YOU BEHAVE BAD :D), you use your new skills and character on the outside. Assuming you still have teeth, bones and hands. But that's the battle. Not everyone can survive in the jungle.
 
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Throughout my life I have set extreme challnges a normal human being would go insane off just thinking of.

Select ones:

- 3 years of sitting alone in the room, restricting myself from sunlight, painstakingly coding random stuff thinking I'll become a millionaire (fantasy),
- 1 year of complete isolation off people with no friends, that includes hiding from landlord,
- 1 year of isolation with working class, older, religious people that I had prior traumas with,
- one year of daily weightlifting trainings with no supervision (in progress, about to destroy my bones!),
- becoming a $4 million net worth person without external help,
- building a house as a 15 year old (failure, spent all the money on food and isolation),
- not going to school and criticizing every single sentence, done painstakingly to never again visit school and never pass an exam (makes me feel exceptional to destroy their minds by my neglect of this bs),
- escaping country and law enforcement - new one,
- going in t-shirt only in around 0 celsius or higher degrees temperature - getting random comments every second day on the streets!,
- not trying to get laid to make people wonder what's up with this dude (HAHA, GOOD ONE),
- trying to survive off online income for as long as I could, done 10 years - challenge over,
- not shave or visit barber for years, impersonating woman - I started to like this one to be honest but with shaving every 3 days!,
- creating 100 commercial programs of many niches - failure, it's close to impossible to do so many industries,
- hanging out only with low lives for 6 years - over, waste of resources and they weren't USEFUL enough,
- not using smartphones for years in smartphone era.

Even if it costs me tons of suffering, I AM THE EXCEPTION TO THE RULE.

If I go to prison, I'll show CLASS there. I doubt it's as easy as these above, BUT THAT WILL BE the battle test. Possibly I'll die.

First thing you do in prison cell is you attack the closest inmate. YOU JUMP ON THAT INMATE SCREAMING OUT LOUD some curse words.

It doesn't matter if you lose the first battle. It matters whether you survive each day.

Now once you quit the prison and the sentence is over (IT MIGHT NEVER BE OVER IF YOU BEHAVE BAD :D), you use your new skills and character on the outside. Assuming you still have teeth, bones and hands. But that's the battle. Not everyone can survive in the jungle.
Are you okay broskie ? <3
 
They released me from community service again and told me not to come back. The breathalyzer didn't show that I was blowing into the breathalyzer. I tried 8 times. I have a cold and hoarse.

They didn't want to listen to me or give me another breathalyzer, so I don't know if they did something with the breathalyzer specifically to have an excuse to expel me. Earlier, the receptionist said that "I'm screwed" because I didn't come in last week.

A week ago I couldn't come because I was focused on destroying things around me due to my uncontrolled behavior. I was unable to make it due to my mental health. I didn't go to the doctor to get sick leave, either, because I was so nervous that I saw everyone I met along the way as a potential victim, including the doctor.

I was too aggressive to work around people. I screamed and screamed a lot because the pain was unbearable. Shortly afterwards I was beaten and as a result I had 8 visible bruises on my head. The police and an ambulance were at the scene after the brother had beaten me. The police did not record anything, which further confirms my fears that the justice system works according to the officers' preferences.
 
Hmmm, have you considered lowering tren dosage ?
I read "the dosage" cause my eyes are a little bit shakey and unfocused... Nervousness...

Now I read that correctly as the KING TREN.

Ah, no. I don't have enough experiencce to do that.

I'll check my testosterone as I never did that.

Someone recommended me to use magnesium again.

Probably will help 5%. But there is a stack of supplements, around 5 or 6. Maybe it will help 11% combined.
 
Why magnesium ?
Supports calmness, cognition, helps with energy crashes. That's what I've found.

It's very scarce in foods like chicken or broccoli...

Only in nuts and oats, but who eats nuts in kilograms. Nobody.

Oats suck quickly.

That's magnesium citrate + glycinate to boost power. I think threonate magnesium makes you sleepy.

You can also find magnesium in magnesium mineral water but that's really expensive and doesn't get high enough dosage.
 
I would suggest taking Rhodiola and Ashwagandha.
Rhodiola works for me, Ashwagandha is overhyped but still works.
 
I tested myself and my number was 3.1
what should I do now?
Not much. It's normal for black hat people...

I would suggest taking Rhodiola and Ashwagandha.
Rhodiola works for me, Ashwagandha is overhyped but still works.
These can kill cortisol and make waking up hard as hell. I wouldn't play with this double edged sword. Maybe with expert's supervision.
 
Not much. It's normal for black hat people...


These can kill cortisol and make waking up hard as hell. I wouldn't play with this double edged sword. Maybe with expert's supervision.
I am an expert and I supervise myself.

Also your boners are bigger and harder with Rhodiola, so thats good.
 
25 years old. I can do wrong with no remorse. But I'm not doing that as reward to risk is too high. Done that few times. Now I'm close to incarceration.

I'm confused we just have a conversation where you make a great point about networking and we agree reputation is very important. Anyways I wish you the best raaaksi.
 
I'm confused we just have a conversation where you make a great point about networking and we agree reputation is very important.
That was just smoke and mirrors. I'm not here to really do any business. Although some people want to because even as someone like me you can provide value. :suspicious:

Some people here had a very high status, and they turned out to be nothing more than just undercover criminals.

If you take things superficially like "he stole smth, so he's bad" or "he does share only good info about himself, so he's good", you're just gonna be angry at people all the time as everyone has own morals and practices them when possible on every occassion.
 
- 3 years of sitting alone in the room, restricting myself from sunlight, painstakingly coding random stuff thinking I'll become a millionaire (fantasy),
- 1 year of complete isolation off people with no friends, that includes hiding from landlord,
- 1 year of isolation with working class, older, religious people that I had prior traumas with,
- one year of daily weightlifting trainings with no supervision (in progress, about to destroy my bones!),
- becoming a $4 million net worth person without external help,
- building a house as a 15 year old (failure, spent all the money on food and isolation),
- not going to school and criticizing every single sentence, done painstakingly to never again visit school and never pass an exam (makes me feel exceptional to destroy their minds by my neglect of this bs),
- escaping country and law enforcement - new one,
- going in t-shirt only in around 0 celsius or higher degrees temperature - getting random comments every second day on the streets!,
- not trying to get laid to make people wonder what's up with this dude (HAHA, GOOD ONE),
- trying to survive off online income for as long as I could, done 10 years - challenge over,
- not shave or visit barber for years, impersonating woman - I started to like this one to be honest but with shaving every 3 days!,
- creating 100 commercial programs of many niches - failure, it's close to impossible to do so many industries,
- hanging out only with low lives for 6 years - over, waste of resources and they weren't USEFUL enough,
- not using smartphones for years in smartphone era.
These seem like typical challenges nowadays for a young introvert without a solid support circle and maybe a bit of trauma. You'll be just fine. Oh, and about the idea of attacking the closest inmate, damn that's hilarious, you been watching too many movies, you prolly won't even do time like ever.
 
These seem like typical challenges nowadays for a young introvert without a solid support circle and maybe a bit of trauma. You'll be just fine. Oh, and about the idea of attacking the closest inmate, damn that's hilarious, you been watching too many movies, you prolly won't even do time like ever.
I read that on Quora with inmates btw. And on Reddit too. Interesting what they say there and how little it reflects reality.

These are odd places.
 
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