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From my earliest days, my heart burned with a lust for unfettered freedom and ecstasy. There was no place for me for restrictions or social conventions. I just wanted to experience all that life could offer, regardless of cost or consequences with a mind as sharp as a razor, without a spark of foggy perception.

My life is like an unbridled dance on the shadow side of reality. Filled with ecstatic experiences, striving for perfection, from crazy night parties, to huge sums of money, to wild journeys through my own body in search of pleasure. There were and are no limits to my desires or inhibitions to my desire to explore.

My manipulation skills serve me to achieve even more freedom. People have become tools for me to satisfy my lusts, and each betrayal or lie causing anger become just more steps on the road to eliminating unwanted individuals and creating a personal paradise where I can control everything, including sounds, temperature and tastes independent of majority opinion.

Although plunged into the murky ocean of my desires, I sometimes saw vague rays of light that promised peace and understanding. But I rejected these signals, ready to lose myself even further in the mad dance of my own desires. There are no boundaries or barriers for me, I'm just a seeker of perpetual pleasure and freedom.

Let him tremble who dares to look into the face of ...
 
Take a test to find out if you are like me: https://openpsychometrics.org/tests/LSRP.php

My results:

Scores range from 1 (low) to 5 (high).

Your score from primary psychopathy has been calculated as 3.8. Primary psychopathy is the affective aspects of psychopathy; a lack of empathy for other people and tolerance for antisocial orientations.
 
You sound like one of my friends who works in IT, really happy guy but since a couple of months idk what happened to him. When I spoke with him I genuenly couldn't figure it out if he went bat shit crazy or he is on some kind of drugs. He was babeling on about strange things, hopping from one subject to another, although he was coherent he really made my spider senses tingeling.

Called his cousin a couple of hours later, and it seems like the poor dude just snapped.
 
You sound like one of my friends who works in IT, really happy guy but since a couple of months idk what happened to him. When I spoke with him I genuenly couldn't figure it out if he went bat shit crazy or he is on some kind of drugs. He was babeling on about strange things, hopping from one subject to another, although he was coherent he really made my spider senses tingeling.

Called his cousin a couple of hours later, and it seems like the poor dude just snapped.
Snapped means what? I found snapchat.

I think you need to go and see and speak to someone. You don’t seem a happy person at all.
Your post are getting stranger and darker each day. Don’t get into anything too dark.
Life is for living. It’s better than the alternative.

It's a little bit twisted, but happens every now and then. One cranky situation creates another. It's a vicious cycle.

I'm looking for a way to break through.
 
Well my friend went batshit crazy, one second he was talking about suing a country for human rights violations, the other second he is talking about multi billion business idea, then begging for money. He walks up to complete strangers and just starts talking and begging.

My advice to him and to you is to get off the internet
 
Well my friend went batshit crazy, one second he was talking about suing a country for human rights violations, the other second he is talking about multi billion business idea, then begging for money. He walks up to complete strangers and just starts talking and begging.

My advice to him and to you is to get off the internet
I observe the same patterns since years.

I like it. I wish to stay like this forever.
 
I want to start a charity for myself. I need help. State doesn't want to help me.
 
I'm wondering if I could get bipolar diagnosis. That would double my chances for getting disability papers. I'd love it.

Free moneh. BLACK HAT :rolleyes:

+ADHD
+Depression
+3 deep personality disorders
+I'll find more
 
My score lol...

Your score from primary psychopathy has been calculated as 4.8.
Primary psychopathy is the affective aspects of psychopathy; a lack of empathy for other people and tolerance for antisocial orientations.

Your score from secondary psychopathy has been calculated as 2.6.
Secondary psychopathy is the antisocial aspects of psychopathy; rule breaking and a lack of effort towards socially rewarded behavior.
 
Well my friend went batshit crazy, one second he was talking about suing a country for human rights violations, the other second he is talking about multi billion business idea, then begging for money. He walks up to complete strangers and just starts talking and begging.

My advice to him and to you is to get off the internet

Your buddy might have schizophrenia.

Get him some help, ASAP.
 
Maybe you're schizophrenic idk, But I can see your huge ego from here. I suggest seeking therapy. the online test is bullshit only a certified therapist can know what personality disrorder you ACTUALLY have, not what you think or what you want to have.
You seem pretty sharp to understand that, but as far as I can tell you don't seem wise enough to let go your ego.
 
Maybe you're schizophrenic idk, But I can see your huge ego from here. I suggest seeking therapy. the online test is bullshit only a certified therapist can know what personality disrorder you ACTUALLY have, not what you think or what you want to have.
You seem pretty sharp to understand that, but as far as I can tell you don't seem wise enough to let go your ego.
I can't do a thumbprint of acid. I fear I'd lose my shit. So it's true.

I have 4 offline tests done. All the same results.

I don't know what ego is btw. Many people don't know what it is. Nobody can really define it.

It's "you" but it's like saying "let go of yourself". Wtf does that even mean. I feel like people are just trying to say "shut up" but politely that way.

I am authentic. Not playing by some social gaming rules where I'll pose an innocent character. I have INSANE PAPERS.

If you remove ego, you stop filtering and essentialy you stop existing as all becomes meaningless. It's pointless to let go of ego.
 
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I used to take psychotic meds for almost 2 yeas, it was the shittiest years of my life (17-19), and I was mentally forced to take the meds by my parents, I still believe that they're the ones who should take the meds (another subject), Now I'm 3 years free of them, didn't take a single pill in 3 years and I feel the happiest man on earth, even tho my friends get confused when they see me happy when living in this shitty environment.
 
Therapist better than meds. I'd bang a therapist tbh. These doctors look good... They know how to make it better.

That's very attractive to fix so many problems of someone...

Meds are cool for depression. I prefer them to weed and alcohol.

I'll ask a therapist for a phone number. Maybe she'll become my auntie or sister.
 
Therapist better than meds. I'd bang a therapist tbh. These doctors look good... They know how to make it better.

That's very attractive to fix so many problems of someone...

Meds are cool for depression. I prefer them to weed and alcohol.

I'll ask a therapist for a phone number. Maybe she'll become my auntie or sister.
I saw what u did there, I guess you're just a narcisst with some childhood traumas.
You 'sound' in your late teen years, If you're over 20, please seek help asap, for you and your surroundings.
 
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