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indianmojojojo said:
ps: if you are still reluctant, listen to this NA member sharing his experience
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He screams like I do at 1:10. It's just "KURWAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!". In the middle of the city. A bus driver stopped last time cause of that... asking "what's up sir, should we call police". My mother and friends heard these too. They all freak out. They can't say I'm on my way to anything when they hear these.
 
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Man I can't really focus on programming and development of my venture on weekend as I have non-stop revalation of this type as in the OP. It's crazy!

I have written down 100 pages of this type of stuff.

I think it's impossible to get out of this type of problem without documenting it heavily.

So it works. Next step is probably finding people who lack what I do and connecting with them.

It's a problem with relationships with parents, yourself, environment, money, work, house, home, office, computer, technology. EVERYTHING!

Future is unpredictable meanwhile my mind is always sure about what's gonna happen. It never happens as predicted. Unless it comes to something as simple as making money. Making money is the most predictable thing I can think of. It's routine type of stuff. which is good.

Work is unpredictable too. Next day you fired... so you focus on making money as a goal instead of maintaining, worrying about job / work. There's always some way to make money, even if you don't have any job.

Now work doesn't mean money. You can work for free. Which isn't good for someone who doesn't have much money.

Problem with code is that it's exciting but I can't stick my shlong there...

I'll create a better way to code one day. Not AI. Something else...
 
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reaaski said:
Hmmm, I would invite a therapist or psychiatrist to a dinner and so on.

And I would explain to them what I dislike about their approach. Then toilet together and fun.
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You're funny I get it.
 
I'm getting high on negativity too much.

Today was positive. Even though I spent all my time at home I hated.
 
SilverClouds said:
That's not what I'm saying. Right now you sound like crazy, dangerous, potentially criminal. No woman wants to end up dead on a date.
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All true. I will do steroids soon. I will find replacement for every single social thing that is taken for granted. It would be best to create my own society probably.

I want to sleep 3 hours and look like the freakiest freak on the block.
 
My name is Terry Davis. I had been in the OS engineering for a very long time. Most exciting thing about schizophrenia to me is that even though I'm dead, I am still in minds of other people who are equally insane.
 
umbreno said:
What steroids are you planning on taking?
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Testosterone and something to counteract side effects. Trenbolone if it gets bad enough in my life and I'm bored enough. For now everything goes in that direction!!!

Ideally I would like to pump iron 6 times a day and isolate every single muscle totaling 18 protein shakes during a day and 5 hours of training.
 
reaaski said:
Testosterone and something to counteract side effects. Trenbolone if it gets bad enough in my life and I'm bored enough. For now everything goes in that direction!!!

Ideally I would like to pump iron 6 times a day and isolate every single muscle totaling 18 protein shakes during a day and 5 hours of training.
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Tren on a first cycle is a bad idea. Especially bad if you’ve got mental health problems.

Unlike some other steroids, Tren can cross the blood-brain barrier and is known to be neurotoxic even in lower doses. Even pro athletes shy away from it due it’s extensieve negative side effects.

Just thought i’d give you a heads up! I don’t take steroids but used to dabble in UGL dealing and have seen perfectly sane guys get kicked down a peg or two mentally especially due to tren.
 
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Your score from primary psychopathy has been calculated as 2.8. Primary psychopathy is the affective aspects of psychopathy; a lack of empathy for other people and tolerance for antisocial orientations.

Your score from secondary psychopathy has been calculated as 3.7. Secondary psychopathy is the antisocial aspects of psychopathy; rule breaking and a lack of effort towards socially rewarded behavior.
 
umbreno said:
Tren on a first cycle is a bad idea. Especially bad if you’ve got mental health problems.

Unlike some other steroids, Tren can cross the blood-brain barrier and is known to be neurotoxic even in lower doses. Even pro athletes shy away from it due it’s extensieve negative side effects.

Just thought i’d give you a heads up! I don’t take steroids but used to dabble in UGL dealing and have seen perfectly sane guys get kicked down a peg or two mentally especially due to tren.
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I know it's very very very very bad.

I said it on purpose.

But I can take test and pretend it's tren.

I take caffeine and pretend it's cocaine.

An unusual way to consider things.

I'm not concerned about neurotoxicity. The term neurotoxic isn't very precise. I don't really know what that means

Every drug is neurotoxic in one way or another but what does that really mean...
 
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