I am a hard loser

[Alexion]

I have to adjust to the people I am living with. Only 22 work days and 8 days off every month. Getting up early and working till the 4 pm. Soon I will be living in a 2 room apartment doing deals. I will try to fit in more. That grandiosity and ego are getting out of control. Maybe I will play some games to focus on something else...

games are going to fuck up your dopamine even more
literally do nothing

after a few hours, you'll explode
try it tomorrow
just do nothing, stay still

you'll soon start to go crazy and want to get shit done

 

[OccultKingdoms]

You do need to start chaning your mentality first. Why the fuck should you believe someone else when they say you wont succeed. is that their decision? I know your circumstances are shittier than most of these people realize but change what you can, first.

They're fucking wrong, but you see, loneliness and too big goals hurt. And some of those who said bad stuff about me are banned from the forum.

games are going to fuck up your dopamine even more
literally do nothing

after a few hours, you'll explode
try it tomorrow
just do nothing, stay still

you'll soon start to go crazy and want to get shit done

Alright. That's interesting. I will go to the forest cause it's nice here. Unless it's raining.

 

[OccultKingdoms]

Step 1) Check your testosterone levels
Step 2 ) If it's too low - get on TRT
If it's normal - Get on TRT

What's worse, loosing your balls or being miserable? Choose wisely..

Hahaha. I don't know how you came up with this but this sounds dangerous, but maybe it'd something good. I have never checked that but I assume it's fine cause everything with my little d is fine, but maybe that's a wrong assumption.

 

[mindeswx]

Hahaha. I don't know how you came up with this but this sounds dangerous, but maybe it'd something good. I have never checked that but I assume it's fine cause everything with my little d is fine, but maybe that's a wrong assumption.

You might have a wrong assumption about test, it's not only about your ding dong, it's what makes man a man, the masculinity, the urge to do something, to conquer , and of course urge to have sex.

It's kind of funny when you think about it, you know that feeling when you see a woman you reaaaaly like and you're thinking to yourself "well fuck me, I'd set a newborn on fire or kick an old lady just to burry my shlong in that pu**y" and really all we, men do in life is for that one prize.
Want to get rich? - To get that teenage pu**y
Want to get shredded? - To get that ppppuss
Want to become successful artist? - To get that hollywood pu**sy
Want to build a big ass house with a pool and all that? - To invite those hoees
Want to have kids? - So you could be bangin that wife puss*

You get the idea..
Take T - become masculine - and the URGE to get that pussy will force you to DO shit.

 

[OccultKingdoms]

You might have a wrong assumption about test, it's not only about your ding dong, it's what makes man a man, the masculinity, the urge to do something, to conquer , and of course urge to have sex.

It's kind of funny when you think about it, you know that feeling when you see a woman you reaaaaly like and you're thinking to yourself "well fuck me, I'd set a newborn on fire or kick an old lady just to burry my shlong in that pu**y" and really all we, men do in life is for that one prize.
Want to get rich? - To get that teenage pu**y
Want to get shredded? - To get that ppppuss
Want to become successful artist? - To get that hollywood pu**sy
Want to build a big ass house with a pool and all that? - To invite those hoees
Want to have kids? - So you could be bangin that wife puss*

You get the idea..
Take T - become masculine - and the URGE to get that pussy will force you to DO shit.

The thing is how many side effects will I get? You see, already signs of low t - FEAR - something real men shouldn't be concerned with. Maybe my t level doesn't allow me to do t cause it's so low and I am a pssy.

 

[indianmojojojo]

Go to a NA/ AA meeting in your area. It really helps.

Am clean for over 9 plus years. I was in the same spot as you many many years ago.

https://m.na.org/
All the best

 

[OccultKingdoms]

Go to a NA/ AA meeting in your area. It really helps.

Am clean for over 9 plus years. I was in the same spot as you many many years ago.

All the best

I want to talk to someone like me in real life and maybe fuck them too.

 

[Dopious]

The thing is how many side effects will I get? You see, already signs of low t - FEAR - something real men shouldn't be concerned with. Maybe my t level doesn't allow me to do t cause it's so low and I am a pssy.

You definitely do not need more testosterone "uncontrolled anger caused by frustration and me screaming" this is going to get worse.

 

[indianmojojojo]

I want to talk to someone like me in real life and maybe fuck them too.

Yes go to a meeting but dont fuck/have relationship with NA/ AA members that's a downward spiral.

So the ego/grandiosity are side effects of using drugs.

But it's not a big deal when you work on your addiction.

The first step is to admit there is a problem and am sure you are already half way there

Keep hanging. It will work out

 

[OccultKingdoms]

Yes go to a meeting but dont fuck/have relationship with NA/ AA members that's a downward spiral.

So the ego/grandiosity are side effects of using drugs.

But it's not a big deal when you work on your addiction.

The first step is to admit there is a problem and am sure you are already half way there

Keep hanging. It will work out

Maybe they are. But maybe money is the strongest of all drugs. And those things money can get you. I was free 8 months from alcohol and all party drugs. I kicked out caffeine 4 months ago and didn't drink a drop of coca cola since then. Though a lot has improved, anger issues are really strong. I get annoyed with every sound I don't want and everything I think couldn't be here.

 

[indianmojojojo]

Maybe they are. But maybe money is the strongest of all drugs. And those things money can get you. I was free 8 months from alcohol and all party drugs. I kicked out caffeine 4 months ago and didn't drink a drop of coca cola since then. Though a lot has improved, anger issues are really strong. I get annoyed with every sound I don't want and everything I think couldn't be here.

Yes these are side effects/after effects of addiction. I cleaned up 9 years ago, haven't touched Caffiene/cola/cigarettes in 7/8 years

It only gets better after you stop. I know it's not easy. Just go to a meeting sit, listen, share. Write a journal everyday.

It's all one day at a time now.

I used to be very resenting, impulsive, egoistic. But slowly started to let go

 

[mindeswx]

The thing is how many side effects will I get? You see, already signs of low t - FEAR - something real men shouldn't be concerned with. Maybe my t level doesn't allow me to do t cause it's so low and I am a pssy.

Testosterone therapy has various risks, including: Worsening sleep apnea — a potentially serious sleep disorder in which breathing repeatedly stops and starts. Causing acne or other skin reactions. Stimulating noncancerous growth of the prostate (benign prostatic hyperplasia) and growth of existing prostate cancer.
tl;dr your balls will most definitely get small (because that's what makes the test in your body naturally, so they just head out if you start trt)
A LOT , and I mean A LOT of bodybuilders do it because it's one of the very few core things, some people are working out literally for years and the muscles are just not growing because they have low T, I know it's fucked up to even think about it.


That's how life is though, you get pussy or are the pussy ( no offence )
In all seriousness though, you can always get tested for it, it should cost like 10-20$, so you'd know your situation for sure.

You can also start eating more red meat and lifting weights to get it up naturally, and it will really not hurt you in any way!
Pretty damn sure you aren't going to start doing any of those, so let me tell you what helped me to start living healthier and exercising, maybe you'd take away something from that.

I'm a total introvert, I don't like my pictures taken, got like 3 pictures on my facebook and some bastard took my random photo in a public event and uploaded it to facebook. That's one thing when you take a picture yourself or your gf does it, but when someone catches you completely off guard with your belly sticking out and your spaghetti arms that shit is a really good reality check, that's how other people actually see you.
So my challenge to you is upload a photo of yourself to your facebook, as I'm 99% sure you're also an introvert bastard who has like 1 selfie and a picture with his mother.

Do a reality check. It is MOST DEFINITELY not too late to begin changing, as cliche as it might sound.
Fuck, when I'll be 30 I will be so thankful to myself that I started working on my health. I'm sure there are many guys that would also say that 30,40 or 50! is not too late to begin

 

[OccultKingdoms]

Yes these are side effects/after effects of addiction. I cleaned up 9 years ago, haven't touched Caffiene/cola/cigarettes in 7/8 years

It only gets better after you stop. I know it's not easy. Just go to a meeting sit, listen, share. Write a journal everyday.

It's all one day at a time now.

I used to be very resenting, impulsive, egoistic. But slowly started to let go

I'm wondering why that happens. I was not addicted like crazy, just partying often for about 5 years. However, it took toll on my mental health and made me do things I wouldn't normally do, meeting with weirdos and changing my social circles to drug users only. Now I'm out of the worst part and no more meeting with drug users, but still feeling like not out of those circles. It was like codependency where we were a pack of people doing crap together. Shit influenced all areas of my life if I look at this. I'm really resentful about the time wasted and idiots who got me into trouble. So it's more like indirect influence and what you do with drug experiences rather than just taking them. You can drop some pill every once and then, but if your sobriety changes due to that, it's when the problem starts.

 

[indianmojojojo]

I'm wondering why that happens. I was not addicted like crazy, just partying often for about 5 years. However, it took toll on my mental health and made me do things I wouldn't normally do, meeting with weirdos and changing my social circles to drug users only. Now I'm out of the worst part and no more meeting with drug users, but still feeling like not out of those circles. It was like codependency where we were a pack of people doing crap together. Shit influenced all areas of my life if I look at this.

There is nothing called crazy addiction or simple addiction. It's all just addiction.

The pattern is the same for everyone the intensity maybe different.

Also it's normal initally to not being able to socialize with Normal crowd.

Just remember old places, using friends all go back to the same addiction again(maybe deeper)

NA/AA meetings have a success rate of 99%

Just hear sharing of other members and you will understand you are not alone.

 

[OccultKingdoms]

Testosterone therapy has various risks, including: Worsening sleep apnea — a potentially serious sleep disorder in which breathing repeatedly stops and starts. Causing acne or other skin reactions. Stimulating noncancerous growth of the prostate (benign prostatic hyperplasia) and growth of existing prostate cancer.
tl;dr your balls will most definitely get small (because that's what makes the test in your body naturally, so they just head out if you start trt)
A LOT , and I mean A LOT of bodybuilders do it because it's one of the very few core things, some people are working out literally for years and the muscles are just not growing because they have low T, I know it's fucked up to even think about it.


That's how life is though, you get pussy or are the pussy ( no offence )
In all seriousness though, you can always get tested for it, it should cost like 10-20$, so you'd know your situation for sure.

You can also start eating more red meat and lifting weights to get it up naturally, and it will really not hurt you in any way!
Pretty damn sure you aren't going to start doing any of those, so let me tell you what helped me to start living healthier and exercising, maybe you'd take away something from that.

I'm a total introvert, I don't like my pictures taken, got like 3 pictures on my facebook and some bastard took my random photo in a public event and uploaded it to facebook. That's one thing when you take a picture yourself or your gf does it, but when someone catches you completely off guard with your belly sticking out and your spaghetti arms that shit is a really good reality check, that's how other people actually see you.
So my challenge to you is upload a photo of yourself to your facebook, as I'm 99% sure you're also an introvert bastard who has like 1 selfie and a picture with his mother.

Do a reality check. It is MOST DEFINITELY not too late to begin changing, as cliche as it might sound.
Fuck, when I'll be 30 I will be so thankful to myself that I started working on my health. I'm sure there are many guys that would also say that 30,40 or 50! is not too late to begin
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I will try lifting weights. I tried it in the past but shit made me feel weaker. Maybe that was because I was pushing it really hard without any experience. Doing 200 pushups a day was something that kicked me back to reality. Though I kicked the habit out of my routine cause I got obsessed about having to make millions. No pussys (ever) n no friends since a year, so got to compensate with hard money making mindset. It's really annoying cause I turn every place into a workplace. Lack of balance is so big here I believe I broke it as much as I could. This is the problem that occurs when you only know drug users and don't want drugs anymore.

 

[Luco]

Your main problem it's money, chasing money is the biggest addiction ever, you need that mindset, "money come, money go", otherwise not even 1BN will help you.

I lost and buried my entire family till the age of 26, started to get back literally from 3 feet under, my goal was simple, get back on my feets. Moved in 4 years in 3 cities, started living in cheapest place but just to have silnce, eat, work, sleep, fixed program.

Sumarizing, present day, I'm married, having a super son 3 years old, bought 2 houses, and building the 3rd one with pool and all shit combined, I was not lucky, I worked hard, one single direction just up no matter what, and yeah I'm not a millionaire nor I want to be.

Fuck the money, set other goals, money will come!

 

[OccultKingdoms]

Your main problem it's money, chasing money is the biggest addiction ever, you need that mindset, "money come, money go", otherwise not even 1BN will help you.

I lost and buried my entire family till the age of 26, started to get back literally from 3 feet under, my goal was simple, get back on my feets. Moved in 4 years in 3 cities, started living in cheapest place but just to have silnce, eat, work, sleep, fixed program.

Sumarizing, present day, I'm married, having a super son 3 years old, bought 2 houses, and building the 3rd one with pool and all shit combined, I was not lucky, I worked hard, one single direction just up no matter what, and yeah I'm not a millionaire nor I want to be.

Fuck the money, set other goals, money will come!

Is there something more in life than money? Oh, I forgot it. I have some sex on my mind, but I need 5m usd to get it. I want an apartment, but I need 200k usd to get it. I want some comfort next decade, but I need 100k for that. And then I think, what if I spent all my time doing business? And I spend all my time doing many businesses burning all my mental power and happiness. I try to enjoy my evenings, but I feel guilty for not working harder... and I have no mental power to kill the guilt.

You see how high I set the woman. I need 5m to even approach one. This is something really basic in terms of human beings and I put it at the other end of the spectrum, so I'm able to put all my effort cause I'm never satisfied. And so the most basic things become as hard to achieve as the difficult ones.

I don't need money. I need love and comfort. I don't know why I did that. All this stuff doesn't require big money. I have some grandiosity problem. I need to show people how grand I am by having the most expensive things and until then I won't be okay cause I'm not as grand as I believe I should be.

 

[MGaLL]

1. empty your battery with any workout, cardio is fine
2. sleep at least 6 hours at once
3. be all drug free except coffee
4. have a walk few times per week
5. get a pet, dog cat birds, fish, take care of them with love
6. you know your limits, stack cash, try to make 100k in savings
7. stay sober, don't fuck nothing and nobody
8. drink some bought mineral water, and some free source local water too
9. drive bike, stop hangout, be alone all the time, use earphones
10. learn about God

live like this for an year and you will probably commit a suicide
jokes aside, accepting half of these habits would do great
do moves your brain place on hold

when you make 100k buy a property you can rent monthly

 

[Nikxon]

I can relate as I am in the same shoes as you are OP and the only thing that you should be focused is on ignoring everyone that's coming in your way or your business I live with my parents and its a lot of sht I have to go through upon waking up until I can afford my own place I am bearing as much as I can and I know how tough things get if you are broke instead of thinking millions of thoughts taking in the worthless opinion just focus on building that first source of income get a job if things are out of your hand remember to take control of what you can and ignore the things you can't control that's where your power lies and no one is a loser we all win when we put effort be a small win or a big one I know you can do it and you will become rich

 

[BlackShield]

If you have time apart from your job, just have part-time work where the people cheer up you.

Every person here even myself has some issue in their life.

Talk to others with a simple smile even if they are strangers. Be free up your mind with your happy memories.

Be motivated yourself. Soon your life will change at one point.

Calm your mind by doing some meditations. Hope you write a thread regarding the positiveness of your life.