Mateal Zuck
Junior Member
- Oct 28, 2019
- 118
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I'll try to keep this short and simple as much as I can.
Problem:
I live in a 3rd world country and the major problem I face is the financial issue. People who live in the 3rd tier country know how big of an amount $1000 is so I can't really spend much on IM but I'm not expecting big returns as well.
Background Detail:
I don't usually speak openly about my mental health out but since it's a forum where I'm just anonymous to you people, I'll just say, it's been tough for 2 years and I really wanna get out of this bubble. I took a gap year for university just so I can focus on my career choice. I got myself an online job doing Digital + Social Media Marketing + a strategy maker (and additional graphic designing and video editing if needed) locally and I'm getting $150 around a month. Sounds like a lot of work for $150 but that's only because I'm flexible and it's a local organization.
Why I'm not choosing to work for International Organization?
I actually used to do a bit of freelancing for a few organizations 2 years back when I had no mental stress until recently, I decided to create a portfolio website and start running ads locally or buy JR.VIP here on Blackhatworld. Now, the thing is, I'm not getting enough $$ to keep the promotion and website running every month and If I risk it all (i know it's all about taking a risk and getting a reward) I have fear of losing it all again with everything going around my head.
Now I'm stuck. I can't take any more breaks because I've been doing that for a long time and I don't know If I should push myself up in IM. I'm trying to stay as positive as I can. I'm proud that I'm capable enough to call myself a dedicated, passionate, and hard-working person. Let me know what you guys think. Apologies for my English as It's not really my native language.
Problem:
I live in a 3rd world country and the major problem I face is the financial issue. People who live in the 3rd tier country know how big of an amount $1000 is so I can't really spend much on IM but I'm not expecting big returns as well.
Background Detail:
I don't usually speak openly about my mental health out but since it's a forum where I'm just anonymous to you people, I'll just say, it's been tough for 2 years and I really wanna get out of this bubble. I took a gap year for university just so I can focus on my career choice. I got myself an online job doing Digital + Social Media Marketing + a strategy maker (and additional graphic designing and video editing if needed) locally and I'm getting $150 around a month. Sounds like a lot of work for $150 but that's only because I'm flexible and it's a local organization.
Why I'm not choosing to work for International Organization?
I actually used to do a bit of freelancing for a few organizations 2 years back when I had no mental stress until recently, I decided to create a portfolio website and start running ads locally or buy JR.VIP here on Blackhatworld. Now, the thing is, I'm not getting enough $$ to keep the promotion and website running every month and If I risk it all (i know it's all about taking a risk and getting a reward) I have fear of losing it all again with everything going around my head.
Now I'm stuck. I can't take any more breaks because I've been doing that for a long time and I don't know If I should push myself up in IM. I'm trying to stay as positive as I can. I'm proud that I'm capable enough to call myself a dedicated, passionate, and hard-working person. Let me know what you guys think. Apologies for my English as It's not really my native language.