Follow the Yellowbrook Road!
It is more of a instability.You sound depressed man.
If you are, just so you know it is an illness.
Take help.
Nah man not that easy. I don't want morning to happen soon..Take some times off and try to think again. A few days with a blank head should be fine.
It's OK to buy a tent or a trailer if you can afford it and just go to the forest and escape everyone.
Forget everything and reset your mind. Bill collectors calling your phone? Smash the phone.
Whatever. We are only here for a short time. No need to destroy our minds and our souls over money.
Dude, there is nothing in the forest. Go to asia for a month to travel. Dont tell me you dont have money, plenty of ways to travel on a budget.
Try to see new things, enjoy a new world and then re-evaluate your choices.
Mind you, I’m living in Asia and I want to go to live in mountains too. Just need enough money to retired.