I am growing stronger . I'm just going to post what I wrote down in my journal: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like crying, the electricity is a sure sign right off the books I am approaching the end of lvl 2. I'm feeling so motivated. Please God tell me that it is worth it. Please God tell me that all these days, weeks, months, years of suffering, practicing 7 hours a day, denying myself, celibacy are going to be worth it. Magick is such a struggle for me, it is so much pain, these little moments to me make it worth it. I absolutely love it and I'm 100% dedicated. Just wanted to say that, I hope everyone is doing well . Side note: I finally was able to consistently slide a bubble gum wrapper around my desk. I have a hard time focusing on an object and getting consistent results, most of my telekinetic events are geisting - uncontrollable like doors, windows, etc.. slamming or things moving around my shelves. It's gotten a little weird lately like last night it was like someone was walking across my room at night lmao, a little scary but anyway - that's all part of the deal.