YESSSS, Progress

[pewep]

I am growing stronger . I'm just going to post what I wrote down in my journal:

September 14th 2015

I am going out of my body every single day without fail, sometimes to distant realms, but mostly floating around in my room. I have seen several ascended masters now, one who insisted I should begin practicing Vipassana to increase my psychic powers. The entities around me occasionally want me to play but like yesterday, I simply wasn't interested and was in thought.

Today during meditation after the white skeleton I was doing energy packing. I felt a growing pressure growing in my LDT then I felt the "ball" it's like the size of a tiny dime in diameter maybe a little smaller and it was pulsing, etc... Last time it did that I felt a lot of pleasure but instead this time I felt a lot of "electricity" in it. I'm not sure how to describe it but it was a very strong current then it gradually died down after around 20 or so seconds. Then it happened again, this time the electricity went all the way down into my tail bone. It happened a third time but very weakly.

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like crying, the electricity is a sure sign right off the books I am approaching the end of lvl 2. I'm feeling so motivated.

Please God tell me that it is worth it. Please God tell me that all these days, weeks, months, years of suffering, practicing 7 hours a day, denying myself, celibacy are going to be worth it.

Magick is such a struggle for me, it is so much pain, these little moments to me make it worth it. I absolutely love it and I'm 100% dedicated.
Just wanted to say that, I hope everyone is doing well .

Side note:

I finally was able to consistently slide a bubble gum wrapper around my desk. I have a hard time focusing on an object and getting consistent results, most of my telekinetic events are geisting - uncontrollable like doors, windows, etc.. slamming or things moving around my shelves. It's gotten a little weird lately like last night it was like someone was walking across my room at night lmao, a little scary but anyway - that's all part of the deal.

 

[1337Indian]

Fun fact: pewep spelt backwards is pewep

 

[acidol2]

Hmm. Makes me wanna start smoking DMT.
Anyhow, glad you're making progress pewep.

 

[1337Indian]

I felt the "ball" it's like the size of a tiny dime in diameter maybe a little smaller and it was pulsing, etc... Last time it did that I felt a lot of pleasure but instead this time I felt a lot of "electricity" in it.


Spirit bomb?

 

[pewep]

I felt the "ball" it's like the size of a tiny dime in diameter maybe a little smaller and it was pulsing, etc... Last time it did that I felt a lot of pleasure but instead this time I felt a lot of "electricity" in it.

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Spirit bomb?

It's funny you would say that, in daoist literature, combining the yin and yang is known as an immortal fetus/spirit baby. It looks like this when it's done:

That's just the normal shape it takes fyi. I know it looks like the taijitu. Side note: I've learned how to feel the difference between yin chi and yang chi in my lower dan tian. Yang is easy to sense and the first - it's a pressure or something like an eel in your spine. Yin is much harder. I used to think I was lacking sensitivity but actually what's happening when I looked close is that it's a kind of emptiness. I know from the books that you can never "feel" yin chi directly that the only way to experience it is how it reacts to yang. So basically I saw that the emptiness was not really that empty - it was kind of pushing everything in my lower abdomen away in a reverse pressure of its own. Sorry this sounds like vague nonsense but you really have to store energy for yourself to know.

 

[tony_d]

If you tell us what area you're in pewep, we can help you by making arrangements for a mental health professional to investigate your sanity.
I'm quite sure it will lead to involuntary detention for you.

We'll put together a little fund for your brain to get checked out.

I'll start the fund with $100.

Just PM me your location, and I'll do the rest.

Anyone that wants to contribute, just post here in the thread with your amount pledged.

 

[1337Indian]

It's funny you would say that, in daoist literature, combining the yin and yang is known as an immortal fetus/spirit baby. It looks like this when it's done:

That's just the normal shape it takes fyi. I know it looks like the taijitu. Side note: I've learned how to feel the difference between yin chi and yang chi in my lower dan tian. Yang is easy to sense and the first - it's a pressure or something like an eel in your spine. Yin is much harder. I used to think I was lacking sensitivity but actually what's happening when I looked close is that it's a kind of emptiness. I know from the books that you can never "feel" yin chi directly that the only way to experience it is how it reacts to yang. So basically I saw that the emptiness was not really that empty - it was kind of pushing everything in my lower abdomen away in a reverse pressure of its own. Sorry this sounds like vague nonsense but you really have to store energy for yourself to know.

Thanks for your explanation. But I could hardly understand anything. But I meditate every single day. I don't go into the technical aspects of it...chakras etc
I just clear my mind, focus on my breath, and then later think about new ideas.
Meditation works wonders. It's also scientifically proven. I advice all BHW members to start meditation.
reddit.com/r/meditation is a good place to start.

 

[Zwielicht]

Fun fact: pewep spelt backwards is pewep

Pewep's name is a palindrome.

 

[pxoxrxn]

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like crying, the electricity is a sure sign right off the books I am approaching the end of lvl 2. I'm feeling so motivated.

You're a level 126 troll.

 

[BreaknBrix]

Since pewep broke his birthday resolution to act normal, I'm gonna start a fun game!

Everytime pewep makes a crazy post I'm gonna cite random parts from Elliot Rodgers spree kill manifesto, "My Twisted World". Then overtime we can start drawing parallels between Elliot & Pewep.

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Excerpt I -

My faith was soon broken, as I bought a few Megamillions Lottery tickets and visualized myself being the winner. I usually visualized it by meditating on the rooftop of my mother's apartment right at the time of the drawing. A part of me knew it was impossible to will the universe to make me the winner just by wishing for it on a rooftop, but I was so desperate that I wanted to believe I could. I wanted to believe I had the POWER to do it. After failing to win when the jackpot reset because someone else won, I lost all faith in that book, and I almost ripped it apart in frustration. I desperately pondered if there was some other way I could make millions of dollars at my age, but I came up with nothing. I realized that my miserable, lonely virgin life was going to continue, and my onlyhope was to give Santa Barbara a try.

For the next week or so, I spent time meditating in my room, trying to come up with ways to get rich. I could either invent something, start a great business idea, or go back to my original idea I had of writing an epic fantasy story that could be made into a movie. That reminded me of the reason why I gave up on that idea in the first place... the amount of time it would take to achieve success from such a prospect. I was so desperate and I needed to do something right there and then. It was a matter of life and death. If I couldn't make it, then I had nothing to live for. After a lot of deep thinking, I couldn't come up with anything. Was I doomed to fail at everything?

http://abclocal.go.com/three/kabc/kabc/My-Twisted-World.pdf

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This is gonna be real interesting. May also help save a few lives.

-BB

 

[pewep]

Thanks for your explanation. But I could hardly understand anything. But I meditate every single day. I don't go into the technical aspects of it...chakras etc
I just clear my mind, focus on my breath, and then later think about new ideas.
Meditation works wonders. It's also scientifically proven. I advice all BHW members to start meditation.
reddit.com/r/meditation is a good place to start.

It's good you meditate man, that stuff works wonders . Keep at it my friend and I hope many surprises (good ones) come your way.

 

[sam.hunt0710]

Can we have update in some of your previous started threads , where you stated that you will be earning a good amount from all of these .
Do you got success?
How much money you are making per day ?
How many spirits are in your command now ?
Can you post your daily earning screenshots ?

 

[pewep]

Since pewep broke his birthday resolution to act normal, I'm gonna start a fun game!

Everytime pewep makes a crazy post I'm gonna cite random parts from Elliot Rodgers spree kill manifesto, "My Twisted World". Then overtime we can start drawing parallels between Elliot & Pewep.

-------------

Excerpt I -

My faith was soon broken, as I bought a few Megamillions Lottery tickets and visualized myself being the winner. I usually visualized it by meditating on the rooftop of my mother's apartment right at the time of the drawing. A part of me knew it was impossible to will the universe to make me the winner just by wishing for it on a rooftop, but I was so desperate that I wanted to believe I could. I wanted to believe I had the POWER to do it. After failing to win when the jackpot reset because someone else won, I lost all faith in that book, and I almost ripped it apart in frustration. I desperately pondered if there was some other way I could make millions of dollars at my age, but I came up with nothing. I realized that my miserable, lonely virgin life was going to continue, and my onlyhope was to give Santa Barbara a try.

For the next week or so, I spent time meditating in my room, trying to come up with ways to get rich. I could either invent something, start a great business idea, or go back to my original idea I had of writing an epic fantasy story that could be made into a movie. That reminded me of the reason why I gave up on that idea in the first place... the amount of time it would take to achieve success from such a prospect. I was so desperate and I needed to do something right there and then. It was a matter of life and death. If I couldn't make it, then I had nothing to live for. After a lot of deep thinking, I couldn't come up with anything. Was I doomed to fail at everything?

http://abclocal.go.com/three/kabc/kabc/My-Twisted-World.pdf

-------------

This is gonna be real interesting. May also help save a few lives.

-BB

Just curious man, why are you so obsessed with me? I offered to show you my powers in private, you chickened out. I showed you videos, you thought they were bs (of course lmao), I showed you documents, you dismissed them without a single glance. I feel like you don't really have a crutch to lean on. What instead you are interested in is me. In some twisted way I am a kind of mirror for you to gaze in, sort of like a reflection of all the demons you have faced. The fact that I was once your friend and you never knew about my hidden abilities because I didn't think you needed to know scares that there are people like me who are around you. You want control but you will never have it, that's just not how the world works.

I'm not the monster you think I am, I'm just that edge that makes you realize you're asleep and you FUCKING hate that idea.

 

[BreaknBrix]

Just curious man, why are you so obsessed with me? I offered to show you my powers in private, you chickened out. I showed you videos, you thought they were bs (of course lmao), I showed you documents, you dismissed them without a single glance. I feel like you don't really have a crutch to lean on. What instead you are interested in is me. In some twisted way I am a kind of mirror for you to gaze in, sort of like a reflection of all the demons you have faced. The fact that I was once your friend and you never knew about my hidden abilities because I didn't think you needed to know scares that there are people like me who are around you. You want control but you will never have it, that's just not how the world works.

I'm not the monster you think I am, I'm just that edge that makes you realize you're asleep and you FUCKING hate that idea.

I am not part of the human race. Humanity has rejected me. The females of the human species have never wanted to mate with me, so how could I possibly consider myself part of humanity? Humanity has never accepted me among them, and now I know why. I am more than human. I am superior to the mall. I am Elliot Rodger... Magnificent, glorious, supreme, eminent... Divine! I am the closest thing there is to a living god. Humanity is a disgusting, depraved, and evil species. It is my purpose to punish them all. Iwill purify the world of everything that is wrong with it. On the Day of Retribution, I will truly be a powerful god, punishing everyone I deem to be impure and depraved.

http://abclocal.go.com/three/kabc/kabc/My-Twisted-World.pdf

 

[pewep]

^^
THIS my friends is the state of the modern day closed minded "skeptic". And I use the word skeptic VERY liberally because #1 - 9 times out of 10 they have no formal scientific training (unlike most psychics) and #2 they are as fanatical as any zealot. Your arguments are baseless. Your sentiments are invalid and disproven. In time, Randi and his cabal will be be unknown in history as civilization progresses and understands the deeper mechanisms in the universe. I don't say that lightly. I really do consider myself to be a scientist and I try my best not to fool myself in any way. I have a ton of videos recording myself that I go over and to be honest with you guys, sometimes the thought crosses my mind what if I'm just bullshitting myself. And then I look back in my journal and videos and realize that it's not a game, it's not a trick and it's not a hoax. I am the living, breathing, walking, talking, shitting proof of the supernatural. I am magick reincarnated; for better or for worse.

 

[iBrazilian]

Pewep, I'm gonna start meditating soon, can you suggest me on where I should get started? I already know all about the chakras and all, but I'd like some pointers if possible.

Thanks!

 

[pewep]

Pewep, I'm gonna start meditating soon, can you suggest me on where I should get started? I already know all about the chakras and all, but I'd like some pointers if possible.

Thanks!

Hey man, I strongly, strongly, STRONGLY recommend checking out the free meditations on dharmaocean. If you want supernatural powers fast though, white skeleton meditation combined with breath meditation (pranayama) will do that, in fact even Lord Buddha said that's all you need to get abilities.

 

[koolkake]

Your father is not proud of what has become of you.

 

[pewep]

Your father is not proud of what has become of you.

Actually he is, probably because I am about to graduate with a 3.5 gpa in mathematics and computer science and I'm able to support myself. Like most skeptics, he hates that I have psi abilities - actually he told me he'd kick me out of the house if he saw me doing it ever again. But we've come to terms since I moved out 2 years ago .

 

[moonshine7000]

Pewep just don't the blow up the planet with your spirit bomb.