I started as a social drinker on university and ended up ultra heavy drunkard with rehab the last year. I poured at least $50k down my throat. Soon it´s 1 year I am clean. I damaged my IM business completely, almost lost my corporate job, my wife almost left me. I was a few millimeters from the edge. I literally needed 6 months to get to at least some (very sensitive) balance with my family and people around me. Now I am just slowly returning to where I was 8 - 10 years ago. Don´t fuck with substances. They will not help you in anything. Save your money on something else.