Guys, many of you know that I'm trying to achieve Yin Yang Gong/Zhen Qi - a merging of the masculine and feminine energies in my body and with it, the ability to perform 100 different miracles. I always thought it was a completely energetic process that happened internally but looking at my life, it's become more and more obvious that it's a physical, mental, spiritual and emotional process. I guess I should have known that, but you never truly understand something unless you've been there. I had a chance encounter with my feminine side today. Literally. Here's the journal entry that I wrote down: I keep thinking about the fact that she had no mouth and to be honest that kind of bothered me. I know it was just a dream but I really do wonder what it means. Was the vision trying to tell me I've been silencing my feminine side? I very strongly identify as male, and I hate behaving in any way that could even loosely be construed as effeminate. That being said, I always felt like I'm fairly open to women and felt like I have a good idea of what their lives are like. But seriously..what the hell do I know about women? I'm not trying to use that as a cop out in order to not explore my inner nature, I mean I really don't fundamentally know ANYTHING about what it means to be a woman. Is it really possible for me as a man to truly understand, contain and embody the complete feminine essence within me as much as I feel the masculine essence? Is it possible to do that without losing any of my masculinity in the process? Would I even want to? I'll keep meditating.