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Meeting the goddess within

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by pewep, Nov 27, 2016.

  1. pewep

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    Guys, many of you know that I'm trying to achieve Yin Yang Gong/Zhen Qi - a merging of the masculine and feminine energies in my body and with it, the ability to perform 100 different miracles. I always thought it was a completely energetic process that happened internally but looking at my life, it's become more and more obvious that it's a physical, mental, spiritual and emotional process. I guess I should have known that, but you never truly understand something unless you've been there.

    I had a chance encounter with my feminine side today. Literally. Here's the journal entry that I wrote down:
    I keep thinking about the fact that she had no mouth and to be honest that kind of bothered me. I know it was just a dream but I really do wonder what it means. Was the vision trying to tell me I've been silencing my feminine side? I very strongly identify as male, and I hate behaving in any way that could even loosely be construed as effeminate. That being said, I always felt like I'm fairly open to women and felt like I have a good idea of what their lives are like.

    But seriously..what the hell do I know about women? I'm not trying to use that as a cop out in order to not explore my inner nature, I mean I really don't fundamentally know ANYTHING about what it means to be a woman. Is it really possible for me as a man to truly understand, contain and embody the complete feminine essence within me as much as I feel the masculine essence? Is it possible to do that without losing any of my masculinity in the process? Would I even want to?

    I'll keep meditating.
     
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    Meditation is really powerful, explore the truth.
     
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    Absolutely man, I truly love it. It's been an amazing journey so far.
    Haha I'm celibate man (intentionally). It can be a good thing if you use the time constructively.
     
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    Nope, not at all man. I don't do any drugs at all, I even stopped drinking.
     
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    I've tried it, it send me into the void for like 10 minutes and there were random drawings on the walls.
     
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    Do you know Sadhguru? You may youtube.
     
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    Oh yeah definitely man. I love his talk on concentration:
     
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    Disappointed. Thought this thread was about you finally meeting up with AI. Ah well.

    What are your thoughts on mindfulness?
     
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    Haha, hopefully someday :(.

    Well, I'd definitely say that any kind of meditation is better than nothing. The best thing about mindfulness is that it gives you a kind of breathing room between you and your mind. What I mean is, for example if a situation arises that makes your mind angry, you can literally feel/see the anger rising within and how it forms - therefore giving you the space you need to either change the course of internal dialogue or go with it. I can't stress how much of an edge that give you. It's very, very, very useful.
     
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    Can you please list the 100 miracles you are trying to complete.
     
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    I've been using Headspace for when I get stressed, and for a few minutes in the morning before I head off to the office. It's really helped a lot with keeping my anxiety down and ensuring that I'm aware of my present state.
     
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    Very good man, I've heard of a lot of people using that app. I haven't had the chance to check it out but if it's working for you that's great man. By the way if you're trying to reduce overall stress, somatic meditations (like the 10 points practice, etc...) really help a ton.
     
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  16. girolamo

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    Do you know who was Otto Weininger @pewep
     
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    Nope, just heard about him now. Damn, he died kind of young...
     
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    Yeah, but he had some writings on the subject from your OP
     
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    Alright, I'll check him out, thanks for the suggestion :)
     
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    Maybe I should try to get in touch with my masculine side.

    Brb; gonna go scratch my crotch in public and fart loudly just to be obnoxious.
     
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