Nothing will change for you, no prayer will help you completely.
Your job or education do not define you. Who told you that you want your education?
Go back and remember how you used to think about something, or what you thought it was right to be done.
Today, you would say that's not me. Same goes for everything. You are clearly unhappy with your life completely.
Reject it, and build new life from scratch. Figure out what you want now, and start walking there. Need ballz.
Everything we do, even typing, makes us better in complete. Whatever you do, stupid or smart, makes you faster, stronger, smarter.