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It feels like a switcher

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by gman777, Jul 1, 2017.

  1. gman777

    gman777 Jr. VIP Jr. VIP

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    So I really don't know to explain this well in words, but I feel like I have at least 2 modes, that give me a different perception of reality.

    I haven't felt like this since in April I believe, when I started my retarded rampage. From there, I took a different path, at least on BHW. So basically I have 2 modes: an entertainment one, and work one.

    In the first one I'm always looking for pleasure from stuff like porn, instagram/facebook photos, seeing jokes and shit like that, I have trouble focusing for extended amount of time.

    In the second I feel in a very productive mood. My mind is crippled from the things mentioned above, I think about developing myself, and I feel like I actually enjoy in this state on doing stuff, and I have no problem focusing for a considerable amount of time.

    In the first one I've got no problem talking with my parents(when they don't piss me off of course), in the second I feel very asocial(not that I mind), and I don't like when somebody's talking even slightly higher than I like

    Does anybody know how's this called?

    Is this the introvert/extrovert stuff?
     
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    This happened i think when you do not go outside your room.
    You can PM me if you want to make it more clean or may be want to correct me.
     
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    I would consult with pewep - he can fill you in on the witchdoctor he consults with.
     
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    I don't see anything abnormal there. Lots of people (including me) don't like noise while working. And millions of people watch porn, spend time on facebook, instagram..whats wrong there.
     
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    So it's something that you actually do, right? Do you feel the same way?
     
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    Yep, felt like that since I was ~14 years old. As the years pass, the entertainment mode starts to fade away when you start to realize the true value of your work and have people and things to pay for and care for.
     
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    Nothing wrong. It's just that it kills my productivity, and completely sucks me in.
     
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    I remember someone pming me about something like this, I'll have to dig it up, but the basic gist is that:

    Do what comes naturally. We all have upcycles and downcycles - sometimes they can last for years at a time. Embrace yourself, san.
     
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  11. Tove

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    Yeah that's really similar to me. But for me 1 mode lasts for 4-6 days then second mode activates
    For me, key is getting into 'flow', basically just force yourself to work for some time, to start complete some easier tasks and you get into flow where nothing can distract you.
     
  12. Elin Dotsya

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    When I was a kid I hated work. I didn't know that working for myself and not "for teh billz" would have such a positive impact on my psyche.

    I used to live a life of doing anything I wanted whenever I wanted, but I felt unfulfilled (yes, even lower class people have this, within reason). I've since accepted the fact that we were designed by nature to move around and to use our brain for productive activities. It's not about showing off or working for materialistic desires. Taking action keeps your brain from restlessness and boredom. Eventually, your boredom will lead to a constant state of emptiness; perpetual negativity.

    There was a time when I would get so depressed that I would just lay there and stare at the ceiling, wishing for God to take me away to the 'Promised Land'. We are responsible for our state of mind. A healthy mind, body and spirit can achieve things beyond that of what a layabout could conceive.

    Everyday, I make it a habit to post 1 video on Youtube. Even something as minimal as editing a video for a couple of hours will make you feel like you accomplished something for the day.