look at the refrigerator box tucked under the freeway
overpass with garbage strewn next to it and a cigarette
lighter as a stove, and imagine it had the words
on it "home sweet home"
here this exercise might help you out, bend over all the way
until your balls are in your mouth, crunch down real hard with your
back teeth, and then have someone slamm a car door on you
at the same time while saying "I LOVE IT", OK...feel better now??
then realize your marketing methods "ain't that bad afterall"
I went through the same thing you did, except I
had major cognitive dissonance when bills were piling
up and life was at a "brink" I suddenly "overcame"
that "moral" "inherent" propensity to that core
feeling you have right now
I went through my period about 2 1/2 years ago. as
I was someone who would never cheat (still won't in real life)
I mean I was seriously torn in half, I remember arriving at a
point where I finally got passed it and thinking to myself or rather
reflecting on the change,
but on the net I need to "skirt the rules" for now......:bling:
yeah I had a big problem with it, now I'm immune in a sense
at the time I was SOOOOOOO against doing what I had started doing
I may "blackhat" and if someone lays down a CC and feels slightly like
they got something other than what they bargained for :rip: , at least
they got something and I just didn't ripp them off
EDIT) and here's the thing you should work towards, do your blackhat
then at the same time work on a whitehat plan and alternative
"mainstream solutions and methods" then once your whitehat methods
and all that start to work for you and make you bank, then drop the blackhat
and go on forums like this and help others to learn your whitehat ways
as your "penance" so have a plan so that you will "atone"
and "redeem" yourself ..........
hali~!
