I was a pussy but no more

Lately, I've became more aware about different stuff around me, and I can see that the world is not balanced, not at all. It seems that the luck factor represents the core of ourselves which dictates our life.

The luck to be beautiful, the luck to be wealthy, the luck to be born in a family which indoctrinates you a great mindset (if your parents would be some alcoholic and they'd beat your ass, I can imagine what kind of person you'd become).

I was lucky to be isolated. My parents gave me a weakling mindset(beta wanker). Being isolated forced me to read, to think, to use my brain. I managed to break the matrix to some extend, I know how world works in a big part.

I used to fap/get excited to every single photo on in the internet(like you'd see in the comments on instagram), but then I realized that it's a waste of time.

Even the luck to be on BHW. Holy shit. I've got the best dating tips by watching 2 threads here, I believe one was of @Leith( Good story bro).

I understand many shit, but what the fuck is the point? I can't earn money. I mean take a look at superstar or instagram models? Why are they popular and why do they earn money? Mostly because they are beautiful, if not the only reason, esp. the models. They show their hot body and they earn money from pussies like me(well like I used to be a long time ago). Now of course, maybe they don't understand the gravity of the situation.

They might not have the same "knowledge"(to me it seems it's only bloat anyway) like I do, yet they get money, attention, regular fuck, while I've stayed in my house like a wanker giving conceptions in my head about life and how intelligent I think I am.

IMO intelligence doesn't seem to even exist. To me it seems like it's a way to massage your ego, due to your insecurity. I mean anybody thinks deep inside that they are intelligent, but only a few actually truly are.

Then I had the fear to obliterate my competition. LOL. Does anybody even knows if there's a fancy term for that? I mean outranking people making them to lose a chunk amount of their income, like a legit way of saying that you nseo or reported them.

And I kept having imaginary scenarios where I'd argue with somebody about how important looks are, and how bad is for the ugly sob, blah blah...

I show mercy to every single insect, even mosquitos. When I feel like I'm stepping on an insect, I try to step elsewhere, even if that comes at the cost of me getting fucked up.

Then I'm thinking about starting a legit business. But then again, I'm thinking about those people who will have to work their asses for the rest of their life in a 9-5 job, or even worse, in a mine, even though they hate it.(Lol, I already think that I've succeded)

All the care and shit like this really crippled me and I've became a pussy, but I'm tired. Today I've watched a porn with a girl called Angela White(she's gorgeous btw), and I really have a desire to get a girl like that, to fuck something like that, I feel like I've really felt the animal inside me reactived.

But tell me what kind of girl of this level wouldn't have competition? Maybe the one who would live in the mom's basement like me, but then again nobody would know about her existence anyway lol.

So yeah. Now I kinda understood the concept of competition.

That's what I should be. A fucking hustler. What do you think?

P.S Sorry if I transitionated too rough from one paragraph to another.

TLDR : Angela White is a gorgeous pornstar

Everyone starts in a different place but everyone's journey is relative.

The guy that ends up working in McDonald's hasn't necessarily travelled any shorter a distance than the guy that's living in a new York penthouse.

So don't watch what anyone else is doing, just walk your own path.

Life is a very confusing experience, all I have to say.

you high?
there is something similar with my journey!

gman777 said:

if your parents would be some alcoholic and they'd beat your ass, I can imagine what kind of person you'd become

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That's how my biological father was. I think I turned out all right.

gman777 said:

Angela White(she's gorgeous btw), and I really have a desire to get a girl like that, to fuck something like that, I feel like I've really felt the animal inside me reactived.

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I don't believe objectification is appropriate here.

gman777 said:

Even the luck to be on BHW. Holy shit. I've got the best dating tips by watching 2 threads here, I believe one was of @Leith( Good story bro).

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There was a funny one posted by @BreaknBrix called "The Granny Method". It reminds me a lot of when I was volunteering at this place 9 years ago and I talked to this older woman. At the end of the day, she was trying to set me up with her granddaughter and I was like:


https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/i-cant-talk-to-girls.750415/page-2#post-7769884

BreaknBrix said:

OP YOU'RE IN LUCK CAUSE I DISCOVERED A SHOCKING WAY TO TALK TO GIRLS!

It's called, "The Granny Method".

Approach elderly women and have conversations with them. Just start off asking directions to a random place. If you're shopping, stop and ask them about a recipe. OR, if you really want something effective just go volunteer at a senior center (not a home). It's mostly women who go to senior centers to play bingo, take computer lessons, do ceramics, watch movies, etc. In the seduction community this was something we use to do and it HELPS A LOT.

Older women are much easier to talk to. There's no sexual tension which makes it easier to be yourself, have small talk and learn about people.

You can pick your own hours and go in whenever you want. It's more like getting free coaching than doing volunteer work.

And if you do that for a few months you'll notice it becoming incredibly easier to approach women your own age. At first I was going in twice a week for a few hours. Then once a week. Twice a month... once a month etc. My first couple weeks I didn't say much of anything but after a short time the women start talking to you. If you're a nice dude with even a little bit of personality you'll notice something very strange. These women will start pulling out pictures of their family. They will SHOW YOU their daughters, granddaughters, etc and say shit like, "you remind me of my grand daughter. you know she's single? you should meet her" yada yada.

You realize that old vagina has access to lots of young vagina.

There are other things you can do too. Go volunteer at a breast cancer awareness group. Go to NA meetings. AA. Sex addicts anonymous. Anorexia and bulimia support groups. Rape survivor groups. You get the drift...

-BB

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shoe on head or still puss

javabro said:

TLDR : Angela White is a gorgeous pornstar

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thanks, now i know what i read.

Beauty has little to do with money, if you don't beileve me, the top richest people on earth are old as fuck.

My grandfather was alcolohc and my mom is such a lovely person.

rafark said:

Beauty has little to do with money, if you don't beileve me, the top richest people on earth are old as fuck.

My grandfather was alcolohc and my mom is such a lovely person.

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Oprah Winfrey is very rich and she is stunning.

We are all competition in a capitalist economy. Ain't everyone trying to bank?

I don't see any problem in your past, you are like most of Young People nowadays. Parents forgot to educate their children and now " MEDIA" Is educating them In a bad way.
Everyone watches porn, almost everyone is in depression ( this is also due to GMO ) just some show it and some don't.

My rules for good life are:
Work for yourself.
Stay relaxed
Get married ( hell yeah the only way you can become Real MAN and then you know value of everything )
Smoke weed sometimes,
And eat real food ( say no to GMO food, fried chickens, red meat ).

Hi @gman777 . I'm about to write a big wall of text here. i'm probably older than you, and i have vast experience with every kind of human beings. Very diverse groups of people. Academics, businessmen, artists, refugees, rich spoiled kids, teenagers, regular common people with all types of flaws, criminals, jet-set, everything you can think of. All types of behavior, successful and unsuccessful. I'm aware of every possible lie that people tell themselves to cope with harsh reality.
To the point here: everybody cope, rationalize, mold reality, change perspective in order to preserve sanity and positive self-image. Default sane human has belief system that must be congruent. We all have streams of emotions/chemical processes that have predefined amounts, and default behavior is avoiding discomfort. Once your life loses balance, and you feel emptiness in certain areas, two things can happen: you will either change world around you and fill the emptiness, or brain makes subconscious decision you can't do it, or it would cost too much energy. This is where brain plays it dirty, for the greater cause. Brain won't tell you you aren't good or strong enough, but tell you that you don't want those things in the first place. When you don't want original goal, it doesn't matter if you are good enough or not, sparing you from the pain. Defensive mechanisms are 1st class debate teams. They can make everything sound OK. Whenever you are NOT doing something, and it could be non-consequentially tied to a good trait, oh boy we all jump to claim that good trait.
I'll give some examples here, dating domain because OP cares about that:

Lets say you want to date beautiful girls, but those girls reject you because they consider you lower life form. After few failed attempts, you will LIE to yourself: " im not that shallow to look if girl is beautiful, i am after more important deeper traits" See? Instead of brain being frank, and telling you u are fucking boring ugly broke loser, it tells you u are sophisticated!?! individual. All that to avoid pain.

"Girls like bad boys, nice guys finish last". Dangerous one! Do you know why our brain assimilates this one into belief system so easily? Coz it rubs us in a good way. Guilt free card, fortifying positive self-image that we are nice guys, when reality is you aren't even trying to avoid embarrassment.

Busting your own defensive shields is a painful process. Our thought process evolves, and complements our endocrine system. As we grow older, we are guaranteed to fail everyone's expectations to some extent. Remember how we wanted to be astronauts and pilots at age of 5, scientists at age of 10, good at something at age of 15, survive at age 20+ . You see, bar starts high, and life begins in a perfect manner, decaying bit by bit. All i want to say its way our reality is, and don't be too harsh on yourself for being a pussy. We are all pussies, only difference is when our discomfort is significant to act upon it.

Think about how we all postpone dentist visit. Once certain pain threshold is reached, we all go. But how many of us go before that?

Earning money: we are all picky about our jobs, but when hunger steps in, nobody is picky.

Diet: so many eat what is tasty, until they get sick and doctor prescribe their meals.

Every revolution in life is about thresholds, pain tolerance, and discomfort avoidance. Hedonism is our greatest enemy. Objectively speaking, life is filled with difficulties and crap, and brain is only trying to balance out chemicals comforting us, and convincing us everything is ok. If everything was perfect, brain would start making up bad imaginary things, just to spend surplus milligrams of negative hormones.

As hard as it may sound. The best chances are that you are having an existential crisis. What can you do about it?

You should stop sluring around the web. It happens to me all the time in a cycle of several months. I start reading posts here, on other sites... then after a time, I start feeling depressed overwhelmed by all information and other peoples lives.

I've learnt that training helps me out a lot in this case (go have a jog or gym) ... I will too, tomorrow ;-)

The problem is, that it seems as soon I'm stopping being on the web, my progess seems to be stagnating.

The key is acribic discipline. I do web development and I very carefully monitor myself. How many hrs? What did I do? Think of yourself as an Organization.

When an organization is not healthy (bad nutrition, bad training habits, unbalanced work/life, little social relationships) it becomes corrupt. This state of corruption becomes a depression for us individuals. So what do organizations do to prevent this?

They introduce controlling mechanisms. I guarantee you. If you make a plan with Excel (every hour planned) and stick to it for 2 weeks straight you could stick to it forever. In the beginning it will be easy to stick to the plan. Then the second week is the difficult one. Training will aid you in keeping disciplined. You may cry, it's ok. Just DO NOT QUIT.

After all you might ignore this post, but believe me if you listen to this, YOU WILL FEEL BETTER.

mickyfu said:

Oprah Winfrey is very rich and she is stunning.

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She's #1 on my entitled list "Black and rich BBWs I will f*ck in the butt"

Becoming a male pornstar will solve most of your problems.

Dad said life is all about the $.
well, I personally added after many years: its $ & fckn bitches.

Sounds like you need to check out Gary Vaynerchuck. He just replied to someone who had a similar case scenario three days ago. The point is to focus on your own life, because who will care about your success other than yourself ? I don't think you need to be a bad person.

What I do think is your simply a sensitive person and you need to gain a strong confidence in yourself. Your smart, you got the potential bro just unleash it. Take all those bad negative thoughts and use it as a fuel to tap harder into your dreams and hapiness.

And break throught any of your fears, their blocking you. Hope that helped, good luck

javabro said:

TLDR : Angela White is a gorgeous pornstar

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Isn't she the one wanted by the police for banging in a library? She (or her PR person) is active on Reddit.