I am a hard loser

Alexion said:

games are going to fuck up your dopamine even more
literally do nothing

after a few hours, you'll explode
try it tomorrow
just do nothing, stay still

you'll soon start to go crazy and want to get shit done

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That is a golden tip.
Reset dopamine first and then you'll enjoy life more and be super productive.

kimy said:

That is a golden tip.
Reset dopamine first and then you'll enjoy life more and be super productive.

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How to reset dopamine everyday?

i can tell you from my side only, in simple words.. Nobody will help you except you, you must live and be friendly with your mind,you should be your best friend to yourself. Forget about other people(what they say and etc.), get rid off all grey, "infectional" people around you. Listen only those who reach a lot in life. Forget about small problems like at all, they doesnt exist in reality,they are so small, believe me, you gonna launch at yourself, when you gonna understand this. Dont be afraid nothing, there is nothing to loose in this life exept life itself. Find new friends, rich friends who dont drink. Make yourself strong discipline(this be must!!). Without discipline you gonna LOST, believe me. To take discipline is only one way-sport, sport and sport and wakeup at 4-5 every morning,and go to sleep at 22:00. With this discipline you can sleep like baby in 3-4 days.
Change your mind about humanity,world, start reading, listening books, high motivational speakers(not music), forget about tv music, games and all empty sh** at all for the and of the live. Keep active, buy vitamins, not supplements. Keep active here and outside, and take care about your health. Only after 6months, 1year you can feel how life is comming back. But dont stop, keep forward, more and more! i mean.. more books, more activity, more healthy food, more healthy friends, more information... this is not abiut miney at all. Money will come, trust me. Dont leave yourself any empty hour in a day. Always be bizzy. And this is my friend, discipline. You cant go far without it.
Lot of years, withdraw and happy.

Goodluck, faith in yourself
Oh and most important.. Dont be afraid loneliness... Loneliness its only for heroes, not for everyone

Start all over again, start on what you have and your good at! try to focus on that area, everything will follow.

Man, let's just focus on getting more drugs, sex and stories to tell before we die before we reach 50 yo...this bullshit about sleeping 8 hours a day, not even drinking coke, avoiding sex and becoming a meditation monk is perfect for a long and boring life

Life is hard bro, I myself going through depression for years now. Can't focus on anything, I also have anger issue.

I wish you luck.

This is it guys. There's no reason to think it's normal. My dad is taking medication to counteract exactly https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intermittent_explosive_disorder crap.

I destroyed a lot of stuff today due to this. And yesterday. And when I posted this thread.

It used to happen every 2 - 3 months, but now I burst in an uncontrollable fashion way more often.

I will not try to fight it using books and tricks from the internet. Time to go to a doctor.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intermittent_explosive_disorder

reaaski said:

I will not try to fight it using books and tricks from the internet. Time to go to a doctor.

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Good, do whatever it takes to make you feel good again, life should not be stressful.

reaaski said:

How to reset dopamine everyday?

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You should abstain from alcohol, tabacco, social media, violent and porn content for some weeks.
Engage in relaxing activities, try some meditation and breath technique. For more info google "how to reset dopamine receptors".

Also if you can do a medical check up for food intolerance and allergy, I know a few friends who struggled for years for depression only to found out they had an intolerance with certain food and once removed from their diet all the problems disappeared like magic.
There are tons of studies that are highlighting a strong connection between the gut microbiome and brain disorders.
We are what we eat.
Take care

You are still young. This gives you many options. Have you ever thought about enlisting?

reaaski said:

I was in the IM since 2014 and haven't done shit. Now today have been beaten up by my sibling due to my uncontrolled anger caused by frustration and me screaming on the balcony in the morning on someone mowing the lawn. Can't sleep more than 3 hours, they say I have to take this f*king psychotropic drugs to bear that shit. No way.

Can't deal with anyone other than hard drug addicts and alcoholics. This shit is getting hard again. I returned to hometown, but it appears I lose even more here, getting beaten up.

Shit can't deal with this life. Everyone is like "it's normal".

All my skills are useless because the only people I can deal with are drug addicts and alcoholics. Hence I can't deal with an employer and I'm pretending to be an entrepreur which I'm not cause I'm a loser and can't be one. My bank account is negative all the time and the only thing on my mind is hope constantly replaced by negative thoughts and negative events like police bust, loneliness and manipulators. And today beating.

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Oh come on dude, you are smart... I see it through our interactions, you just don't put good goals...

You aim for 100k directly, it's wrong.

Just use what you learnt through the years, every day do a small task, nothing will happen magically. Kill your ego because it's making you think you "deserve" to be successful...

You have psychological issues (not to discredit you) but you are really not stupid, you know about CRO, automation, brand building... it all makes sense to you..

you just need to put your shit together and stop chasing knowledge, but creating your thing steo by step day after day.

It's not a problem of knowledge or intelligence, you have this. It's your psychological state which is messed up lately. But you have 100% chance of doing it right if you just accept that you need to process differently.

Willyfish said:

Oh come on dude, you are smart... I see it through our interactions, you just don't put good goals...

You aim for 100k directly, it's wrong.

Just use what you learnt through the years, every day do a small task, nothing will happen magically. Kill your ego because it's making you think you "deserve" to be successful...

You have psychological issues (not to discredit you) but you are really not stupid, you know about CRO, automation, brand building... it all makes sense to you..

you just need to put your shit together and stop chasing knowledge, but creating your thing steo by step day after day.

It's not a problem of knowledge or intelligence, you have this. It's your psychological state which is messed up lately. But you have 100% chance of doing it right if you just accept that you need to process differently.

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Shit is rough. I jumped on alcohol and weird relationships for the same reason I made this thread.

This wrecked my life. I can't say much more about it.

I used a certain medication for 3 months, but I stopped and I turned hostile again in 2 months of abstaining from it.

It actually helped, but it made me a little bit too sleepy and I had to exercise a lot which I didn't like.

I didn't have those goals in the past and I was still very rough at times.

When I go to sleep, I think that I'm actually dying and it didn't happen on that medication.

I feel like waking up from a clinical death and then I go to sleep again.

Does that sound like an issue with too high goals? To me it's something with head.

My grandpa has problems you wouldn't think are possible. He's been that way for over 20 years and nobody can diagnose him.

I turned hostile against every person I knew, every. Including you.

It's like people with schizophrenia and other mental illness, just not as severe. Once they're in, no matter how hard they try, they'll just have to give in to the experience. You cannot stop a mental attack, an epilepsy attack and so you can't stop an extreme anger burst. Unless you modify your brain chemistry using drugs.

K-One said:

I don't mean to mither at all but to point out the irony here, your av pic i'm seeing plastered across the forum everywhere I go is more or less all those things you highlighted rolled up in to an expression of outrageous blasphemy for some and deprave misrepresentation to others.

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Actually it's quite the opposite.
It rappresent Kali, an hindú Goddess who symbolise the destruction of the ego and the liberation of the soul from all those things mentioned above.
I'm not hindu but I like her story and symbology, which get often misunderstand by western people.

reaaski said:

Shit is rough. I jumped on alcohol and weird relationships for the same reason I made this thread.

This wrecked my life. I can't say much more about it.

I used a certain medication for 3 months, but I stopped and I turned hostile again in 2 months of abstaining from it.

It actually helped, but it made me a little bit too sleepy and I had to exercise a lot which I didn't like.

I didn't have those goals in the past and I was still very rough at times.

When I go to sleep, I think that I'm actually dying and it didn't happen on that medication.

I feel like waking up from a clinical death and then I go to sleep again.

Does that sound like an issue with too high goals? To me it's something with head.

My grandpa has problems you wouldn't think are possible. He's been that way for over 20 years and nobody can diagnose him.

I turned hostile against every person I knew, every. Including you.

It's like people with schizophrenia and other mental illness, just not as severe. Once they're in, no matter how hard they try, they'll just have to give in to the experience. You cannot stop a mental attack, an epilepsy attack and so you can't stop an extreme anger burst. Unless you modify your brain chemistry using drugs.

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Hey, I'm from the same country as you (Poland, if I'm correct). I will make it clear for you, in your language.

"Nie pomoże Ci już nikt, jeśli nie pomożesz sam sobie"

That's the best advice I could give.

reaaski said:

I'm a little bit obsessed about the fact I am not a millionaire at the age of 24.

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You’re setting yourself up for a whole lot of misery. Give yourself a break. Love yourself. Find ways to pay the bill and get your life on track.

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kimy said:

Actually it's quite the opposite.
It rappresent Kali, an hindú Goddess who symbolise the destruction of the ego and the liberation of the soul from all those things mentioned above.
I'm not hindu but I like her story and symbology, which get often misunderstand by western people.

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Oh sorry, I thought it was a deliberate use of imagery from that film 'Kaali' where Kali's depiction is a mockery and warping of such sacred thing as you just highlighted. Agree with what you said though and my bad

Yes said:

You’re setting yourself up for a whole lot of misery. Give yourself a break. Love yourself. Find ways to pay the bill and get your life on track.

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What's tragic is that they have been pushing this garbage with lambos for years now.

As marketers instead of looking at perfect instagram photos, we're looking at 7 and 8 figure entrepreneurs.

It doesn't take much these days to start thinking you're going to make it with your next SaaS idea or another engineering blog with a cosmic CPC.

It's a pitfall that emerged in the past decade. The internet has changed drastically and so the amount of those illusions increased.

Back in the days (dating back to 2013) it was 3 or 4 guys bragging about their money.

Now it's half of youtube marketing, programming, money making scenes.

It doesn't take much time to feel jealous and envious as you look at those banners saying "I make xyz (and you make 1% of xyz) doing nothing (and you do hard work)", "I did this in 3 days (and you would do in 5 years)".

Even when I went to a job, there was a guy who soon will become a millionaire. And another guy. I had never witnessed so many millionaires in my life. And I'm not even close to having $100k in my bank account.

But that doesn't matter and it's not a problem. The problem is my head.

reaaski said:

What's tragic is that they have been pushing this garbage with lambos for years now.

As marketers instead of looking at perfect instagram photos, we're looking at 7 and 8 figure entrepreneurs.

It doesn't take much these days to start thinking you're going to make it with your next SaaS idea or another engineering blog with a cosmic CPC.

It's a pitfall that emerged in the past decade. The internet has changed drastically and so the amount of those illusions increased.

Back in the days (dating back to 2013) it was 3 or 4 guys bragging about their money.

Now it's half of youtube marketing, programming, money making scenes.

It doesn't take much time to feel jealous and envious as you look at those banners saying "I make xyz (and you make 1% of xyz) doing nothing (and you do hard work)", "I did this in 3 days (and you would do in 5 years)".

Even when I went to a job, there was a guy who soon will become a millionaire. And another guy. I had never witnessed so many millionaires in my life. And I'm not even close to having $100k in my bank account.

But that doesn't matter and it's not a problem. The problem is my head.

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What I said stands. You’re spending far too much time comparing yourself with the next guy. Don’t! Compare yourself with who you were yesterday and focus on becoming better every day.

reaaski said:

What's tragic is that they have been pushing this garbage with lambos for years now.

As marketers instead of looking at perfect instagram photos, we're looking at 7 and 8 figure entrepreneurs.

It doesn't take much these days to start thinking you're going to make it with your next SaaS idea or another engineering blog with a cosmic CPC.

It's a pitfall that emerged in the past decade. The internet has changed drastically and so the amount of those illusions increased.

Back in the days (dating back to 2013) it was 3 or 4 guys bragging about their money.

Now it's half of youtube marketing, programming, money making scenes.

It doesn't take much time to feel jealous and envious as you look at those banners saying "I make xyz (and you make 1% of xyz) doing nothing (and you do hard work)", "I did this in 3 days (and you would do in 5 years)".

Even when I went to a job, there was a guy who soon will become a millionaire. And another guy. I had never witnessed so many millionaires in my life. And I'm not even close to having $100k in my bank account.

But that doesn't matter and it's not a problem. The problem is my head.

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Maybe, did you just ask yourself if digital marketing is really your thing? Do you enjoy it really?

Most people think they must do that to become rich, but it's not the only option...

And if you don't enjoy the process, maybe choose what you really feel is for you.

OP how do you feel about helping other people? Lot's of 'ME' in all your posts. Do you just think about yourself and you high flyer dreams all the time?
Maybe take a little time out for some voluntary work. Plant trees and help clean up forests to help the Wildlife. Work at charities for some time. Nothing like the look on a strangers face in having their faith in humanity restored even if just for a moment. Even little deeds may help more than you might think. I do this from time to time when I need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture and help me change my perspective sometimes. Also the fresh air might do you good too.