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I know that many will seem a lie, because that's why I want to start. My story sometimes has parts that look like science fiction, or others will seem like a fairy tale compared to their personal stories or what they've heard before.
I can say that my life is very stressful right now, starting with that I will tell you a little about my story. I am 15 years old, I live in Venezuela, a country that, as many will know, is in crisis, but I am going through something worse. I live with a person completely toxic to me. That is my mother, she is 42 years old and still does not stop stressing my life. Normally when I set goals I do my best to ruin them either with their negative comments that they do with the sense of discouraging me or with their actions that go directly to negative things that lower my performance.
I can say that despite being 15 years old and being young I have a little more maturity than my age. (If you see that I write poorly it is because everything is translated) Since I was a child I did not like toys but simply computers and computer science.
Today I know things that many of my age are complicated. I'm interested in things that seem boring to them, for example, reading or math. But sometimes I feel that my life is completely empty.
Following what I was saying, my father abandoned me 2 years ago. Although it is difficult to believe it, it seems I can't stand my mother's negative attitudes. He endured it a lot. But that woman every day I see her worse because every day she tries to make me feel worse.
It goes from manipulation with his shit phrases "Family is first" "Remember that I am your mother, you only damn friend" and when she is upset she comes out with things that are difficult to expect.
Seriously, all this could be demonstrable. Although it is hard to believe I am an existing person behind the screen. I feel overwhelmed, from time to time there is no eating as usual, so I am actively looking for work while I study. But the work here in Venezuela does not exceed 4 or 5 $ right now and you can see for yourself.
Previously I worked on pages for which I have "experience" in jobs, but most gave miseries to my mind. Having to write several hours to earn a dollar is something that stresses me as is the case of "2captcha"
Personally I like to write, I like design and I am interested in programming. I have had strong depressions because sometimes I see no way out at all. I have only one friend to tell you the truth, I don't feel bad about it, but sometimes I feel I should have more.
He is the one who has supported me in this situation of sometimes surviving without food, with fights and discussions. As expected, I tried to take my own life only once. But then I realized that I possibly had a better future. So thank God until today I am here. I have big goals I can tell you, I hope to achieve many things that today may not even go through my head.
I know that everything is difficult, and I know that although many who are worse than me have reached great places. At least this time I would like a pleasant advice from people who want to help me with support. Believe it or not, 20 minutes ago I just fought my mother in a terrible way, the pot of rice crashed on my head. It hurts too much and I feel like crying. But good; That has been what inspired me to write this post.
I understand that we all go through difficult situations but I would like to know who wants to be my friend, even if the question is very stupid, crazy or weird. I can assure you that there is no hidden interest under my friendship, I am only looking for someone with whom I can let off steam and besides that person let off steam with me. So together we could create a friendship that drives us to get ahead.
And if we talk about work, I can do jobs as they wish. Perhaps much better if it is to write; Tips from any page. Or simply, your support with an answer about what I could do with my mother's situation. I really need your help. Thank you very much to everyone who took the time to read. And I regret that this is the situation for which I made my first post. I didn't want to start like this.
I can say that my life is very stressful right now, starting with that I will tell you a little about my story. I am 15 years old, I live in Venezuela, a country that, as many will know, is in crisis, but I am going through something worse. I live with a person completely toxic to me. That is my mother, she is 42 years old and still does not stop stressing my life. Normally when I set goals I do my best to ruin them either with their negative comments that they do with the sense of discouraging me or with their actions that go directly to negative things that lower my performance.
I can say that despite being 15 years old and being young I have a little more maturity than my age. (If you see that I write poorly it is because everything is translated) Since I was a child I did not like toys but simply computers and computer science.
Today I know things that many of my age are complicated. I'm interested in things that seem boring to them, for example, reading or math. But sometimes I feel that my life is completely empty.
Following what I was saying, my father abandoned me 2 years ago. Although it is difficult to believe it, it seems I can't stand my mother's negative attitudes. He endured it a lot. But that woman every day I see her worse because every day she tries to make me feel worse.
It goes from manipulation with his shit phrases "Family is first" "Remember that I am your mother, you only damn friend" and when she is upset she comes out with things that are difficult to expect.
Seriously, all this could be demonstrable. Although it is hard to believe I am an existing person behind the screen. I feel overwhelmed, from time to time there is no eating as usual, so I am actively looking for work while I study. But the work here in Venezuela does not exceed 4 or 5 $ right now and you can see for yourself.
Previously I worked on pages for which I have "experience" in jobs, but most gave miseries to my mind. Having to write several hours to earn a dollar is something that stresses me as is the case of "2captcha"
Personally I like to write, I like design and I am interested in programming. I have had strong depressions because sometimes I see no way out at all. I have only one friend to tell you the truth, I don't feel bad about it, but sometimes I feel I should have more.
He is the one who has supported me in this situation of sometimes surviving without food, with fights and discussions. As expected, I tried to take my own life only once. But then I realized that I possibly had a better future. So thank God until today I am here. I have big goals I can tell you, I hope to achieve many things that today may not even go through my head.
I know that everything is difficult, and I know that although many who are worse than me have reached great places. At least this time I would like a pleasant advice from people who want to help me with support. Believe it or not, 20 minutes ago I just fought my mother in a terrible way, the pot of rice crashed on my head. It hurts too much and I feel like crying. But good; That has been what inspired me to write this post.
I understand that we all go through difficult situations but I would like to know who wants to be my friend, even if the question is very stupid, crazy or weird. I can assure you that there is no hidden interest under my friendship, I am only looking for someone with whom I can let off steam and besides that person let off steam with me. So together we could create a friendship that drives us to get ahead.
And if we talk about work, I can do jobs as they wish. Perhaps much better if it is to write; Tips from any page. Or simply, your support with an answer about what I could do with my mother's situation. I really need your help. Thank you very much to everyone who took the time to read. And I regret that this is the situation for which I made my first post. I didn't want to start like this.
