Hey guys, I just wanted to air this out because BHW is like my personal catholic priest that I can tell my darkest, craziest shit to and get absolved. You heard that right, this is where I go to church. I never quit nicotine. It's the one drug I haven't been able to shake off. It's WAY fucking harder than even alcohol. I got into smoking actually kind of late - when I was 21. After finally being legally able to drink, I'd go to a hookah bar and just chill out. Those first months were bliss to be honest and like an idiot I thought I was immune to getting addicted. I don't remember when it was exactly, but I woke up one day and I just knew I needed to smoke. I've been hooked since. Eventually I quit smoking - even ecigs make my lungs hurt really badly and started dipping because it's actually less harmful to your overall health including tooth loss (yes, can source this fact). Also, dipping allowed me to successfully hide my habit from my parents and friends. This of course made the habit worse - because I was taking in a higher amount of nicotine. Finally, I quit that and now I'm on nicotine gum and have been for months. But I have absolutely no intention or willpower left to fight nicotine. Has anyone here successfully quit smoking? How long did it take before you could feel normal again? What really gets me is that I'm already genetically pre-disposed to anger issues (look at my dad lol), combine that with celibacy and a little bit of sleep deprivation when I'm doing projects and I can turn into a total, total asshole. But thanks to meditation, I can see when I'm going off the rails and really try to cool it...but it's like I keep fighting my thoughts 100X a minute trying to keep a cool head. It's exhausting. I hate feeling angry and just love being nice and peaceful. Nicotine sunk it's teeth DEEP into me and is refusing to let go...but I want to be free. Any tips please?