ShadeDream
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About a week before my best friend was supposed to leave for Florida, he called me all excited and asked if I would want to drive down there with him, and that it would be really fun to road trip down there together since he needed his car there anyway (since he was moving permanently). I thought it would be really fun so I said yes.
Road trips can be awesome! Love them myself.
but every time we tried to pull over at a rest station and sleep, it didn't work and we just couldn't fall asleep.
I've had that happen too, you get back on the road and you feel sleepy again.
We've had about 2 esspressos, 2 cups of coffee and a few energy drinks each at this point.
You were exhausted from not sleeping and you had all these stimulants? Not a good sign.
I kept having to stop to go to the bathroom, and then it happened... I started to feel a bit sick, so I stopped at a gas station to use the bathroom and tried to puke, but I couldn't, and then my heart started racing. I was having a full blown panic attack and didn't know why. I never felt so bad in my life. I was pacing back and fourth for 2 full hours before he calmed me down enough to get back into the car and lay back in the seat while he drove. I started to calm down, but still felt sick and nauseous.
The exhaustion and stimulants could have caused the panic attack. That's not to say you didn't have anything on your subconscious. Panic attacks can be caused subconsciously.
I guess I was not built for a commute like this, and this resulted in my first panic attack.
I wouldn't really put it that way.
It took me a few days to start feeling normal again, but I did feel normal again.
Yes, that can happen. A panic attack is no fun and can leave you feeling iffy for some time afterwards.
The morning of my flight was the first time I experienced real anxiety to the point where I was actually shakey on my way to the airport, but it went away once I got to the airport but I still didn't feel as optimistic as I usually do. One the plane I felt some mild anxiety because I kept thinking about if this is the right decision, to leave NY and everything and everyone I know. Once we landed I started feeling a lot better.
That can most definitely happen to anyone when making life changing decisions. Although you had somewhat of an idea what you'd be doing you were pretty much heading into the unknown and therefore the anxiety. At least that's what I think. Also, subconsciously you could have looked back at your previous journey which made you a little nervous about this one.
We were all sitting in the car with the windows open and talking to his friend, which was standing right outside the car smoking a cigarette. Then all of a sudden I got extremely light headed, and I have no idea why. We had just eaten a little earlier so I wasn't malnourished or anything. I felt like if I didnt get out of the car and walk around, I would pass out. I got really scared because I never felt shit like this before. I thought I was having a stroke or something. I was always a healthy dude and now I feel as if im going to pass out, so panic started to kick in as I urged my friends to take me to a hospital.
You were in the car with the same people. Subconsciously you probably wondered into your previous experience which caused you to feel this.
I got to the hospital and told them that I was light headed, dizzy and feel like im going to pass out. They took my blood pressure, which turned out to be perfect. They checked my blood sugar, which turned out to be perfect. They even gave me a cat scan, which turned out to be perfect. They found nothing wrong with me, so they just gave me something to calm me down and we went home.
I got back to New York and went to my parents house. I felt fine for about 2 hours, then took a nap, woke up, and my head started to feel weird again as if im going to pass out. I got anxious again so my mom drove me to the emergency room where they gave me an EKG, did blood and urine work and checked my blood pressure again, but everything came out normal. They did the same thing the doctor in Florida did, prescribed me Xanex, but I hate drugs so I didn't take it. The idea of taking these drugs that calm you down and get you all groggy just freaks me out, and I don't want to depend on pills.
It's a mental thing that sits in your subconscious. It's a good thing you decided not to take Xanex. They like to prescribe things rather than get to the root cause of the problem because it is easier and cheaper, plus they make money from the production of Xanex.
Sorry for such a big wall of text, but I wanted to get that out, and I also want to know if anyone here ever experienced panic attacks, whether it was one time or even if you get them frequently. I also want to know if anyone here ever suffered some anxiety, whether it was temporary and went away, or if you have GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) and if you can share you story about how it started and hopefully ended.
There's nothing to be sorry for. It's great to express yourself as you can learn new things that you previously did not know. People will offer you their perspectives and in return everyone will learn a bit about something.
From the looks of it this doesn't sound like anything serious, there are various things that could have caused you to feel this way but from what you've written I can only assume it had to do with the changes in your life. After all moving to a completely different place and leaving loved ones behind is a big decision. It frightens some even if they don't know it.
I'm sure you'll be fine if you stop focusing on your experience. By focusing and thinking about the experience you're creating resistance towards it and by doing so you're only making things worse. You have to let go of it and you'll be fine. It's important that you don't drag the issue with you.
If you're still worried watch this video, it'll make a few things clear:
I don't take any pills, I hate drugs, but I honestly have no idea where to start with meditation lol
Meditation isn't hard but it will take a lot of practice and patience. In the beginning you will need to force yourself to do it.
Meditation is much more than you may think it is, but it takes time to understand it. It can be very beneficial to all.
If you Google around you'll find more information, YouTube videos can be very helpful.
In fact I just found a really good video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rAKMLHjFxQ
Check it out, it's worth it.
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