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Anyone suffer from Anxiety/Panic?

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  1. Adam718

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    Good evening, guys! Just a little something I'd like to share/get off my chest, and maybe hear from some other people that have felt what I have recently been through. Well, here's the story:

    First off, I've always been a very calm person. I never experienced any unusual anxiety and never had a panic attack in my life. I have never had any health problems or complications. I'm 23 years old and have always had a clean bill of health, thank god.

    It all started when I was supposed to be moving from New York to Florida. Basically, my main income is from providing SEO for clients, but I felt like I needed to make more money so I always kept an ear out for any type of office job that would allow me stay on top of my SEO work + earn an additional salary. This looked like it was going to happen when my best friend told me that New York was not working out for him and that he had to move to Florida to work with his brother that had a business down there.

    We always spoke about how many opportunity there is in Florida for us to make money and that I should consider moving there too. I go to Florida a few times a year to get away from the cold weather and I usually stay with him or my cousin, and I always loved it, so moving there didn't sound bad at all.

    About a week before my best friend was supposed to leave for Florida, he called me all excited and asked if I would want to drive down there with him, and that it would be really fun to road trip down there together since he needed his car there anyway (since he was moving permanently). I thought it would be really fun so I said yes. We left New York at around 8 PM and drove through the night. The sun came up and about 15 hours in, we were starting to feel like shit because we made the mistake of not sleeping for at least a few hours, but every time we tried to pull over at a rest station and sleep, it didn't work and we just couldn't fall asleep. We've had about 2 esspressos, 2 cups of coffee and a few energy drinks each at this point. I kept having to stop to go to the bathroom, and then it happened... I started to feel a bit sick, so I stopped at a gas station to use the bathroom and tried to puke, but I couldn't, and then my heart started racing. I was having a full blown panic attack and didn't know why. I never felt so bad in my life. I was pacing back and fourth for 2 full hours before he calmed me down enough to get back into the car and lay back in the seat while he drove. I started to calm down, but still felt sick and nauseous.

    I guess I was not built for a commute like this, and this resulted in my first panic attack. He drove the rest of the way, and we finally got there. I slept a full night and felt a bit better the next day, but not completely. It took me a few days to start feeling normal again, but I did feel normal again. I stayed in Florida for about 2 weeks and then flew back with my cousin. I was back in NY, and I was feeling alright (except for some girlfriend problems). A week later my friend (the one that moved) called me up and told me that I should come back and start looking for apartments because he wanted me to work with him and he offered me a job managine SEO and marketing for his new online electronics store. It seemed like a pretty good deal to me, I mean I could go to Florida and stay with him until I find a place, and Ill even be earning a whole nother salary on top of my SEO earnings which were pretty good as is.

    I booked a plane ticket for a week after he called and told me to come down. The morning of my flight was the first time I experienced real anxiety to the point where I was actually shakey on my way to the airport, but it went away once I got to the airport but I still didn't feel as optimistic as I usually do. One the plane I felt some mild anxiety because I kept thinking about if this is the right decision, to leave NY and everything and everyone I know. Once we landed I started feeling a lot better. Florida was fun, as usual. We went to the beach, pool, bars, casinos, etc. It was beach weather there while back in NY they were shoveling snow, so it felt pretty good. Until one day...

    Me, my buddy and his brother took a ride to one of his friends stores because his brother had to talk to him about something. We were all sitting in the car with the windows open and talking to his friend, which was standing right outside the car smoking a cigarette. Then all of a sudden I got extremely light headed, and I have no idea why. We had just eaten a little earlier so I wasn't malnourished or anything. I felt like if I didnt get out of the car and walk around, I would pass out. I got really scared because I never felt shit like this before. I thought I was having a stroke or something. I was always a healthy dude and now I feel as if im going to pass out, so panic started to kick in as I urged my friends to take me to a hospital.

    I got to the hospital and told them that I was light headed, dizzy and feel like im going to pass out. They took my blood pressure, which turned out to be perfect. They checked my blood sugar, which turned out to be perfect. They even gave me a cat scan, which turned out to be perfect. They found nothing wrong with me, so they just gave me something to calm me down and we went home. This whole ordeal scared me so much that I booked a ticket home for 2 days later.

    I got back to New York and went to my parents house. I felt fine for about 2 hours, then took a nap, woke up, and my head started to feel weird again as if im going to pass out. I got anxious again so my mom drove me to the emergency room where they gave me an EKG, did blood and urine work and checked my blood pressure again, but everything came out normal. They did the same thing the doctor in Florida did, prescribed me Xanex, but I hate drugs so I didn't take it. The idea of taking these drugs that calm you down and get you all groggy just freaks me out, and I don't want to depend on pills.

    The next few days I felt like shit. All I could think about is "wtf is wrong with me"? I was praying every day to just feel normal again. Everyone was telling me that this is just stress and anxiety, but I have NOTHING to be stressed or anxious about, so it just didn't make sense to me, and that's what was scaring me the most lol. My job is not that stressful, I must say that I probably undergo way less stress than the average person.

    Anyway, I did feel anxious and some chest pain that went along with anxiety, but thankfully it subsided a lot. It's been about 2 and a half weeks since I got back to NY and I'm feeling a lot better. I'm not 100% because I still have some trouble sleeping and sometimes I wake up feeling nauseous or feel my heart racing a bit. I am happy to say that I'm feeling better by the day, though.

    Other than the first panic attack at the gas station and the one in the car, I never get anxious to the point where I shake or show any physical symptoms of being anxious. Nor am I afraid of anything, and I have no problem leaving my house and going anywhere (most people with an anxiety disorder have problems going about their day to day lives, so I don't think I have a disorder), but I do feel light headed every once and a while which is still a mystery. I'm just hoping that this shit blows over and I get fully back to normal again.

    Sorry for such a big wall of text, but I wanted to get that out, and I also want to know if anyone here ever experienced panic attacks, whether it was one time or even if you get them frequently. I also want to know if anyone here ever suffered some anxiety, whether it was temporary and went away, or if you have GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) and if you can share you story about how it started and hopefully ended.
     
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    Yeah buddy! I take Zanax all the time. Works for me... It's a shitty way of life but sometimes those receptors in the brain just don't fire right haha
     
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    Dude, you could try changing you eating habits as well. Exercise is huge too.
     
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    dude, you need to cut out the energy drinks and only have coffee in the morning. an occasional xanax won't hurt you. its awesome stuff. i take one every time i board a plane. i cut back on energy drinks for the same things you describe.
     
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    I think your dealing with a lot of issues, money, stress, and caffeine maybe also causing your panic attacks. If you want I have some free time we can chat.
     
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    I had the worst panic attack / anxiety last saturday due to smoking weed. I'm a medical patient and need it for my stomach issues. I've never dealt with it before and i've been smoking daily since around 16 years old. I didn't smoke anything the next day in fear of feeling the same thing but than I got the courage the day after and tried a different strain. Took a couple hits and got the same feeling but just not as intense and only lasted around 30 minutes.

    The panic attacks make me feel like I'm dying... Heart beating like some damn club music, knot in my throat could barely swallow, and very heavy breathing for around 2 hours. I searched online to see if it has happened to others and I felt a lot more relieved knowing I'm not the only one that gets it from smoking.

    I tried again today to see if I had just been bugging the past days but once again ....3 hits of the weed and i got the anxiety for about an hour. I feel fine when not smoking so mine really is from the damn thc :(

    I feel your pain, it's one of the most horrible things i've ever experienced besides appendicitis and getting attacked by a pitbull.

    Good luck and hope everything is okay for you.
     
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    I don't drink coffee or energy drinks ever lol. I used to take some workout supplements that had a bunch of caffeine in it, but not anymore. Im trying to maintain a healthier lifestyle now though.
     
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    Wow man. The weed must be the cause for you feeling that way, so you pretty much just have to cut that out of your life. I know it can be hard because you built up the habit, so just stay strong so you don't gotta go through that shit any more man.

    Thanks a lot by the way. I feel fine right now, hoping to be back to 100% very soon.
     
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    I had the same issues, actually my first panic attack was in Miami, I went to therapy and never felt better in my life, it's been a long time since I got better and never felt it again, if you ever feel like that again the best medicine is therapy, and sleep, if you don't sleep that problem is going to be there
     
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    i suffer with anxiety and aggression issues
    they prescribed me anti depressants
    do they help ......not sure ....
     
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    That's what I'm being told, but as I said in my post, I'm not too stressed about anything. I guess maybe this is all in my head. Also, I only paniced twice, and I hope it never happens again.

    I honestly think I just wasn't ready to move to a different state and leave my life in NY behind at the drop of a hat like that. Im going to stay in New York until I'm sure that I would be ready to leave, because the thought of moving did give me some stress, but I'm sure that's pretty normal. I mean who wouldn't be stressed about moving to a new place?
     
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    I didn't sleep very well for 2 weeks after this happened, but the passed 2 nights I actually slept fairly well. I usually wake up an hour or 2 after falling asleep and toss and turn for a while. The last 2 nights I still woke up, but went right back to sleep for at least 6 or 7 hours, which is pretty good.

    Also, what kind of therapy did you undergo? Did you see a Psychologist? Psychiatrist? Or some sort of anxiety specialist?
     
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    I've not read the whole thread but try meditation. If you stick to it, it will help you. Forget pills and bullshit like that.
     
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    I don't take any pills, I hate drugs, but I honestly have no idea where to start with meditation lol
     
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    If it happens again try and notice if you are breathing in too heavily. Whenever it happens to me, I notice that I'm almost hyperventilating. I tell myself that it's just a panic attack and I watch my breathing and slow it down. If you breath in like that it will make you feel faint. Once you've had one panic attack, it's like you're terrified of another one and that itself can send you into another panic attack.

    Everything that you've described sounds exactly like what I have experienced. I finally figured out that I'm kind of a hypochondriac and that causes mine. I've become better at controlling mine because I know now that its just a panic attack and it cant hurt me. Just remember to watch your breathing and know that it will pass. It's very important to know that it will go away and nothing is wrong. A panic attack can be scary and can make you feel like you're dying but it can't hurt you. It's very possible that all of that caffeine plus the stress got yours started. Go do some google searches on "how to stop a panic attack" and you will find some other techniques on ways to calm yourself. That's how I learned about the breathing thing and it helped so much. Oh and I've never taken Xanax or anything because mine are usually gone within minutes.
     
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    So weird because the same thing happened to me, I used to smoke weed daily for a few months (stopped in January) Untill out of no where this really weird paranoia came about when i would smoke and my heart would start beating out of my chest and would get very anxious. Which the only fear i had was of the panic attack itself arising. Had to put that shit down. It turned from something i did for a good time to something i just couldn't handle anymore. Really weird.
     
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    Hey bro. You made the right choice with not taking xanax. That shit is so bad for you and is only a bandaid fix at best. I suffered from anxiety too and the only thing that got rid of it completely was yoga and meditation. Its a real miracle.
    Don't ever take pills bro, download some yoga and meditation stuff or watch it on youtube. Better yet, get to a yoga class. Your anxiety will be gone in 2 weeks max.

    Also, it sounds like your anxiety is caused by the uncertainty of moving to Florida. I say this cause the first two times it happened when you were about to go there. In no shrink so just my 2 cents.

    Sent from my Samsung Galaxy S3 (iPhone killa)
     
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    I have GAD.... was prescribed a whole bunch of pills like Ativan, BP medication and beta blockers to keep my heart rate low...but you can calm yourself without all of that stuff. :) I learned how to meditate and do progressive muscle relaxation from a therapist back in college and have only had one panic attack since. Meditation and exercise have really helped me keep it under control! :) The important thing to realize is when you're about to have one or feel a bit anxious- STOP whatever you are doing and BREATHE you have to re-program your brain to chill-out. ;) And try this book, it's' VERY helpful:
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    Oh yeah... I don't smoke weed or do any drugs..... It is probably not those things setting you off.
     
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    Psychological, I had only like 7 sessions in 3 months, you don't need a psychiatrist to deal with anxiety, unless you have chemical issues like drugs and that stuff, which is not your case, anxiety disorder is just irrational fear, with therapy you learn how to deal with it and resolve whats going on, don't take pills you really don't need them, I had anxiety/depresion for months and the best decision I could do is ask for help, if you can't sleep well try natural meds nothing addictive, if you can't sleep at all try a pill to sleep but don't become dependent,relax it helped me a lot in the beginning, I tell you this because I went through the exact same thing and no one understands unless they live it, you'll be okay it's very normal
     
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    I could have written the OP myself. Absolutely zero stress, making a shit ton of money with nothing to worry about. Here are some things that really help, Im still getting over it. Please listen to this advice, it took me a long time to realize I needed to make significant changes if I wanted to get over this. Don't be like me.

    1. You will not have this forever and you will not feel this way forever. Repeat this to yourself. I had an extreme fear of having to suffer from this but it just isn't the case. You WILL get over it
    2. Exercise. Go to the gym, get physically exhausted. This will help you sleep
    3. Sleep a solid 8-10 hours a day. Your brain has experienced a traumatic event and your body needs to recover
    4. Eat right. Cut the crap, processed foods. Eat veggies, fruits, etc. Stop drinking alcohol/smoking weed/etc, it only will slow your recovery
    5. Consider supplements: Magnesium taurate (or citrate), multivitamin, fish oil, probiotic. Personally, these haven't been a cure but do seem to help

    Just remember, most people who have stories like ours have no specific cause. I would obsessively look on the internet for some disease, vitamin deficiency, etc that would be responsible for this. Sometimes the stars align and your body gets thrown out of whack. Here are a few things that are known to cause anxiety:

    GERD/IBS, diabetes, magnesium deficiency
     
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