I cannot work like I used to, oncall an crazy hours.
I don't get what you say about me being a "hacker". That was ages ago...
Anyway, I knew making a thread like this could be looked at this way but I don't really mind, look, I'd rather actually speak up and explain my situation... the alternative, to stay quiet and crawl back under my rock, not an option anymore.
And my request for help is honest, I stated I'm willing to work and learn.
Anyway, I'm not sure what I am doing wrong here.
Would providing some proofs really help me here?
I get it, this is the internet and often things are not what they appear, but one can usually tell if a story is genuine.