Dillusion
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- Apr 17, 2009
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As some of you may already know, I've been a member of this forum for a couple of months now, when I first signed up here, I was already vaguely aware of the most basic aspects of the world of internet marketing, I understood the most known concepts of how the money online was being made. Obviously when I came across this forum, I soon realize that my understanding about this market was indeed very limited, in other hand I also understood that despite of my surface knowledge of this whole business, I probably was better informed than 90% to 95% of the entirety of internet users who at some point aspired or thought about making money online.
It was at this point that I allowed emotion to corrupt my thought process, I quit my job as assistant manager at a bicycle store because I was convinced I could make an equivalent income working in the internet, as a result, I rapidly found myself in a situation where everything and everyone was against me, my wife was continuously tormenting me about finding a new job, my parents and my mother-in-law decided to have a conversation with me trying to find out what was going wrong with me (as I later found out they were assuming that I was on drugs, something which I have never did in my life), the longer I tried to explain that I was working in an online business, the longer they all thought I was hiding something and lying to them all, in a few weeks time, my wife and my 2 kids left me.
At this point I started to realize certain things about the nature of everything around me, the falsehoods of the closest people, the weak bond of family, friendship, love and blood, which seems to break so easily under the most fragile circumstances.
I realized there was nothing more to it, I was alone, still, at first, all I wanted was to prove them wrong, to show them all that the reasons I decided to quit my job was nothing more than the truth and that I could make that same truth my new way of living, later on, nothing and nobody seemed to matter to me anymore, my sole objective was to be left alone, it was around here that depression started to take the hold of me, I spend hours in a row watching movies, eating in front of the TV and the rest you can imagine, the money that I had started to vanish, I started to look myself in the mirror and I perceived that I had to make a change in my life, in my perception I had failed in internet marketing, so I started looking for a job once again, I began handing out CV's and sometime later I received a few interview requests, it was on one of these days that my life drastically changed, as I was driving to an interview to an electronics component factory, a drunk guy was speeding in the opposite lane and bumped against my car at over 100 Km/h, I was in a comma for 2 weeks and the other guy was projected out of the window having and instant dead, at least that was what I was told, when I woke from the coma I had 2 broken ribs and my left knee cap completely shattered, I was told that I had to go through at least 3 different surgeries to be able to move my leg again and even then I could very well need a walking stick through the rest of my life.
I'm aware I could have been paralyzed or even dead, but the mere fact that this happened to me, made me thought about everything, I've currently have gone through the first surgery only, still have other two to go, and although the insurance is paying all the medical expenses, I still need to pay my debts, and this is where my questions start, I've realized that I've made everything wrong the first time I even tried internet marketing, I was euphoric and irrationally blind, the sheer number or posts on this forum of people claiming to be making $100-$500 a day with such an ease completely overwhelmed me, as I later realized, most of these posts are of wannabe kids (yes, this forum is full of those) that post everything to gain some recognition, I've become aware that even though some of these kids are making money, it's only a handful of them, and that the real money is being made by those who say nothing about it, those who brainstorm all day long, instead of making fake claims or posting overused obsolete methods.
It is this persons that I would respectfully ask their opinion and advice about my current situation, I currently have to spend 5 hours a day in physiotherapy sessions, the rest of my time is mostly spent here, I would like, if possible the advice in the following matters.
Thanks
Dillusion
It was at this point that I allowed emotion to corrupt my thought process, I quit my job as assistant manager at a bicycle store because I was convinced I could make an equivalent income working in the internet, as a result, I rapidly found myself in a situation where everything and everyone was against me, my wife was continuously tormenting me about finding a new job, my parents and my mother-in-law decided to have a conversation with me trying to find out what was going wrong with me (as I later found out they were assuming that I was on drugs, something which I have never did in my life), the longer I tried to explain that I was working in an online business, the longer they all thought I was hiding something and lying to them all, in a few weeks time, my wife and my 2 kids left me.
At this point I started to realize certain things about the nature of everything around me, the falsehoods of the closest people, the weak bond of family, friendship, love and blood, which seems to break so easily under the most fragile circumstances.
I realized there was nothing more to it, I was alone, still, at first, all I wanted was to prove them wrong, to show them all that the reasons I decided to quit my job was nothing more than the truth and that I could make that same truth my new way of living, later on, nothing and nobody seemed to matter to me anymore, my sole objective was to be left alone, it was around here that depression started to take the hold of me, I spend hours in a row watching movies, eating in front of the TV and the rest you can imagine, the money that I had started to vanish, I started to look myself in the mirror and I perceived that I had to make a change in my life, in my perception I had failed in internet marketing, so I started looking for a job once again, I began handing out CV's and sometime later I received a few interview requests, it was on one of these days that my life drastically changed, as I was driving to an interview to an electronics component factory, a drunk guy was speeding in the opposite lane and bumped against my car at over 100 Km/h, I was in a comma for 2 weeks and the other guy was projected out of the window having and instant dead, at least that was what I was told, when I woke from the coma I had 2 broken ribs and my left knee cap completely shattered, I was told that I had to go through at least 3 different surgeries to be able to move my leg again and even then I could very well need a walking stick through the rest of my life.
I'm aware I could have been paralyzed or even dead, but the mere fact that this happened to me, made me thought about everything, I've currently have gone through the first surgery only, still have other two to go, and although the insurance is paying all the medical expenses, I still need to pay my debts, and this is where my questions start, I've realized that I've made everything wrong the first time I even tried internet marketing, I was euphoric and irrationally blind, the sheer number or posts on this forum of people claiming to be making $100-$500 a day with such an ease completely overwhelmed me, as I later realized, most of these posts are of wannabe kids (yes, this forum is full of those) that post everything to gain some recognition, I've become aware that even though some of these kids are making money, it's only a handful of them, and that the real money is being made by those who say nothing about it, those who brainstorm all day long, instead of making fake claims or posting overused obsolete methods.
It is this persons that I would respectfully ask their opinion and advice about my current situation, I currently have to spend 5 hours a day in physiotherapy sessions, the rest of my time is mostly spent here, I would like, if possible the advice in the following matters.
Sorry for the long post and thanks for anyone who reads it and is either able or willing to answer me these questions.
Thanks
Dillusion
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