Meeting the goddess within

[pewep]

Maybe I should try to get in touch with my masculine side.

Brb; gonna go scratch my crotch in public and fart loudly just to be obnoxious.

Don't forget to take your dick out for a worthy cause.

 

[Reaver]

Don't forget to take your dick out for a worthy cause.

Or compare it to other dudes silently while standing at the urinal.

 

[pewep]

Or compare it to other dudes silently while standing at the urinal.

I can promise you I have NEVER intentionally tried to look at another man's junk at the urinal or really anywhere else.

 

[Zwielicht]

You had lucid sex with yourself? Sounds like a narcissists wet dream.

It's interesting how you describe the pre-lucid dream vibrations as an electric current. I've always thought that it felt more like a phone vibration motor.

The mouth bit was strange. I stay away from that whole dream interpreting business, but missing facial features is a normal part of my everyday dreaming experience. In fact, I've only been able to dream other people's faces maybe once or twice in my life, though even when I see their faces, I can't see their eyes. Everybody looks like Commander Cobra in my dreams.

However, my situation has a simple explanation: I don't make eye contact nor do I even look at people's faces in the waking world, no naturally I wouldn't dream of features I rarely see.

 

[pewep]

You had lucid sex with yourself? Sounds like a narcissists wet dream.

It's interesting how you describe the pre-lucid dream vibrations as an electric current. I've always thought that it felt more like a phone vibration motor.

The mouth bit was strange. I stay away from that whole dream interpreting business, but missing facial features is a normal part of my everyday dreaming experience. In fact, I've only been able to dream other people's faces maybe once or twice in my life, though even when I see their faces, I can't see their eyes. Everybody looks like Commander Cobra in my dreams.

However, my situation has a simple explanation: I don't make eye contact in the waking world nor do I even look at people's faces, no naturally I wouldn't dream of features I rarely see.

Huh! That's interesting that you'd say you see missing facial features all the time. I guess I like looking at faces because it's actually incredibly rare for me to see some kind of "deformity" on a person's face when dreaming. I honestly can't remember the last time I saw something weird like that (in a lucid dream). In fact the interesting thing is that the woman's eyes were full of life and various expressions.

Anyway, good information. To be honest I honestly don't know very much about lucid dreaming and the mechanics behind it so it's good to learn from someone with more experience . Thanks man!

P.S. - Where do you feel the phone vibration sensations? Everywhere or specific locations? Can you control this to a degree?

P.P.S - WAAAHAH, "wet dream". Literally.

 

[Zwielicht]

Huh! That's interesting that you'd say you see missing facial features all the time. I guess I like looking at faces because it's actually incredibly rare for me to see some kind of "deformity" on a person's face when dreaming. I honestly can't remember the last time I saw something weird like that (in a lucid dream). In fact the interesting thing is that the woman's eyes were full of life and various expressions.

Anyway, good information. To be honest I honestly don't know very much about lucid dreaming and the mechanics behind it so it's good to learn from someone with more experience . Thanks man!

P.S. - Where do you feel the phone vibration sensations? Everywhere or specific locations? Can you control this to a degree?

P.P.S - WAAAHAH, "wet dream". Literally.

Yeah, no problem.

The vibration sensation starts at my head and works its way down pretty quickly, though there are times when the sensation just springs up across me out of nowhere without starting at a specific point. I can't control where the vibration sensation is, though I can control when it happens under specific circumstances. One example would be if I force myself awake from a lucid dream because I had one of those stupid ones where I'm just inside my home. In that case, I can start the vibration sensation at will as long as I remain hypnagogic. It's a bit like starting a car cold versus warm; cars usually have a much easier time starting if you start them back up a few minutes after shut down.

 

[pewep]

Yeah, no problem.

The vibration sensation starts at my head and works its way down pretty quickly, though there are times when the sensation just springs up across me out of nowhere without starting at a specific point. I can't control where the vibration sensation is, though I can control when it happens under specific circumstances. One example would be if I force myself awake from a lucid dream because I had one of those stupid ones where I'm just inside my home. In that case, I can start the vibration sensation at will as long as I remain hypnagogic. It's a bit like starting a car cold versus warm; cars usually have a much easier time starting if you start them back up a few minutes after shut down.

I see, that is actually very interesting. I definitely agree that the hypnagogic state (right at the border of sleep) is a very special state of mind. Very cool man. I've probably asked you this before but do you meditate at all? If not, consider trying to meditate when you're stuck in your "dream" home . You might be very surprised. Dream yoga is a very real path to realization, in fact my teacher is a huge proponent of that. And the progress you make there carries on to your waking life.

 

[Zwielicht]

I see, that is actually very interesting. I definitely agree that the hypnagogic state (right at the border of sleep) is a very special state of mind. Very cool man. I've probably asked you this before but do you meditate at all? If not, consider trying to meditate when you're stuck in your "dream" home . You might be very surprised. Dream yoga is a very real path to realization, in fact my teacher is a huge proponent of that. And the progress you make there carries on to your waking life.

No, I don't meditate.

The stuck-at-home dreams usually happen when I don't try to form a dream scene before a lucid dream. For some reason, I can't change the dream scene from inside of a stuck-at-home dream. That's actually the whole reason I force myself awake: so that I can create a dream scene. Interestingly enough, once I've formed a real dream scene, I can change, expand, contract, and do everything else to it from within the dream.

 

[Reaver]

I can promise you I have NEVER intentionally tried to look at another man's junk at the urinal or really anywhere else.

Neither have I.

 

[umerjutt00]

How long since you are celibate @pewep.

 

[AviLSD]

Guys, many of you know that I'm trying to achieve Yin Yang Gong/Zhen Qi - a merging of the masculine and feminine energies in my body and with it, the ability to perform 100 different miracles. I always thought it was a completely energetic process that happened internally but looking at my life, it's become more and more obvious that it's a physical, mental, spiritual and emotional process. I guess I should have known that, but you never truly understand something unless you've been there.

I had a chance encounter with my feminine side today. Literally. Here's the journal entry that I wrote down:


I keep thinking about the fact that she had no mouth and to be honest that kind of bothered me. I know it was just a dream but I really do wonder what it means. Was the vision trying to tell me I've been silencing my feminine side? I very strongly identify as male, and I hate behaving in any way that could even loosely be construed as effeminate. That being said, I always felt like I'm fairly open to women and felt like I have a good idea of what their lives are like.

But seriously..what the hell do I know about women? I'm not trying to use that as a cop out in order to not explore my inner nature, I mean I really don't fundamentally know ANYTHING about what it means to be a woman. Is it really possible for me as a man to truly understand, contain and embody the complete feminine essence within me as much as I feel the masculine essence? Is it possible to do that without losing any of my masculinity in the process? Would I even want to?

I'll keep meditating.

This is actually really good, where did you learn to write like this. Also, do you offer consulting of any sorts, I would love to get my soul cleaned for once. What about the feminine essence , how can I find that within myself, I'm hungry to know more about your masculinity process. Where do you actually find that now a days? So many questions so little answers. Cheers dude good luck!

 

[Gurjarr]

Maybe it signifies that you were a woman in your previous life@pewep

 

[pewep]

This is actually really good, where did you learn to write like this. Also, do you offer consulting of any sorts, I would love to get my soul cleaned for once. What about the feminine essence , how can I find that within myself, I'm hungry to know more about your masculinity process. Where do you actually find that now a days? So many questions so little answers. Cheers dude good luck!

Thank you mate, I appreciate the kind feedback. Well, keep in mind I'm not a master at all and there are many, many things in the spiritual process that I don't understand so I'd strongly advise you to find someone that you resonate with who will guide you on your path. For the record, I practice Vajrayana buddhism - specifically Mahamudra and it healed my soul. The very first step though is learning to relax and meditate within your body - especially in your central channel and your lower dan tian. For that, I strongly recommend the 10 points practice + earth breathing. You can find these on dharma ocean (as well as much, much more). Reggie Ray is a wonderful teacher.

How long since you are celibate @pewep.

I've had slipups, etc... the total time is over a year. I haven't kept track to be honest.

Maybe it signifies that you were a woman in your previous life@pewep

That wouldn't surprise me at all man.

 

[AviLSD]

Thank you mate, I appreciate the kind feedback. Well, keep in mind I'm not a master at all and there are many, many things in the spiritual process that I don't understand so I'd strongly advise you to find someone that you resonate with who will guide you on your path. For the record, I practice Vajrayana buddhism - specifically Mahamudra and it healed my soul. The very first step though is learning to relax and meditate within your body - especially in your central channel and your lower dan tian. For that, I strongly recommend the 10 points practice + earth breathing. You can find these on dharma ocean (as well as much, much more). Reggie Ray is a wonderful teacher.

I've had slipups, etc... the total time is over a year. I haven't kept track to be honest.

That wouldn't surprise me at all man.

You mean thank you dudette, get it right next time buddy. Anyways, let me go look into Reggie Ray.

 

[umerjutt00]

I've had slipups, etc... the total time is over a year. I haven't kept track to be honest.
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Wow that's really impressive man. A year is not a short duration... How hard was it? What do you feel after being celibate for so long?

 

[tymillz]

Wow a Pewep thread that every post I read in it was more or less serious. Signs of the end of times.

 

[pewep]

You mean thank you dudette, get it right next time buddy. Anyways, let me go look into Reggie Ray.

Hahah, I wasn't sure if you were a girl or a guy so I said mate (androgynous term here..?), hoping it would cover all my bases. Just saw you're female .

Wow that's really impressive man. A year is not a short duration... How hard was it? What do you feel after being celibate for so long?

Well, so basically despite the slipups I really can't even adequately explain in words how beneficial it has been. You feel like a completely different, younger person after conserving your generative fluid and storing it in your lower dan tian. Some of the issues I used to worry about physically naturally cleared up - as well as all the different phenomena that take place. And I still get carded when buying stuff like lottery tickets, etc... even though I'm a decade older than the legal age.

That being said, it isn't easy by any stretch of the word. And it's painful. Please don't mix meditation with celibacy unless you 100% FOR SURE know what you're doing or have guidance. It can be a disaster. These energies have the very real possibility of killing you.

 

[tymillz]

Hahah, I wasn't sure if you were a girl or a guy so I said mate (androgynous term here..?), hoping it would cover all my bases. Just saw you're female .

Well, so basically despite the slipups I really can't even adequately explain in words how beneficial it has been. You feel like a completely different, younger person after conserving your generative fluid and storing it in your lower dan tian. Some of the issues I used to worry about physically naturally cleared up - as well as all the different phenomena that take place. And I still get carded when buying stuff like lottery tickets, etc... even though I'm a decade older than the legal age.

That being said, it isn't easy by any stretch of the word. And it's painful. Please don't mix meditation with celibacy unless you 100% FOR SURE know what you're doing or have guidance. It can be a disaster. These energies have the very real possibility of killing you.

The only time I've ever been celibate was in prison. But keep doing whatever works for you. I've actually always been a fan of meditation and lucid dreaming. I used to use things like binary beats to assist me with getting to my desired wave length. I have been giving serious thought into trying meditation again. If so, Ill let you know.

 

[pewep]

The only time I've ever been celibate was in prison. But keep doing whatever works for you. I've actually always been a fan of meditation and lucid dreaming. I used to use things like binary beats to assist me with getting to my desired wave length. I have been giving serious thought into trying meditation again. If so, Ill let you know.

Haha, people wonder why guys in prison looked so jacked. A lot of times it's something just as simple as not releasing the pressure all the time. Thanks man, yeah you should definitely check it out. Even something like mindfulness will increase the quality of your life by a ton.

Cheers!

 

[WizGizmo]

I tried to call my Goddess Within, but the line was busy.