Okay so what I have learned today is... blah, blah, blah
That is disappointing, OP.
That rules are in place to keep this from becoming the Wild Wild West. Although the WWW is fine for Clint Eastwood, I have it on good authority that he is not a member here and thus we need rules to maintain order.
I would have hoped that you learned that this is an IM forum, not the Red Cross.
That begging is not permissable.
That if you make a mistake, as we all do at times, you apologize and move forward without insulting people that are pointing you in the right direction.
That members like
W130SN and
Zwielicht, who know their way around this place pretty well, are people that you should take advice from in a lot of areas.
That the kind of help you would get here is not a hand out as much as it is a direction to make you self sufficient so you do not have to beg.
There is a lot that you can learn from this small experience but the negatives you spewed are not what you want to take away from this at all... that won't further your growth as a human being nor benefit you financially in any manner.
People help other people on this forum an awful lot... more than most places. They just don't give away their hard earned money when you can easily make some on your own with all that is shared.