Suicide is good for SEO though. Less competition.
A completely idiotic remark there. Whoever is developing all those suicide methods sites are not worth more than drug dealers or anyone who abuses people for money. Some people do not understand illness, and will never understand which is pretty normal having in mind that to fully understand anything at all you must first fully experience. I am happy for everyone who never have to understand illness of any kind but I cannot tolerate people who tend to criticize one's behavior or life in any way, without having ever experienced any kind of illness.
I can honestly say, after having suffered of a chronic illness for almost 12 years, with lots of hospitalizations involved, surgeries, mental breakdowns (thank you all bhw members who have supported me, any kind word matters) .. I can say that no matter how hard it gets, the sun always shines again.. I have gone through storm-rainbows cycles way too many times to not be sure of this. If anyone is suffering from a disease that has no cure, you sure do understand the stress alone the disease causes, and fully understand that failure can many times occur in our life because of the illness itself. It's not just about the surgeries, the pain, the struggle .. any illness throws an imbalance in your brain and soul which with time starts to balance and eventually the you have to embrace the illness as part of yourself, then it becomes easier. It puts you down, you get up and do whatever it takes to keep moving, never lay down in bed and believe things will change naturally, they will not.
From experience, having worked for the past 7 years in the IM field I can say it is not easy when you have a nasty disease, or more. But the feeling of success, the feeling that you have acomplished something is amazing, without the disease I might say I would not have experienced such great feelings. Even if you do come to a point where things look impossible there always is a way out of it. I am a believer, I have helped as many people as I could without ever asking for anything in return, but the lord has always allowed me to get back on track, at least not let me fall onto the the dark path of losing myself completely. I am far from feeling happy at this point, since bankrupcy hit me once again, due to several factors but I have the strenght to go on, no seeing any doctors, not taking any pills, just embracing the pain and working hard, continue to learn and keep moving is part of my daily routine. I live one day at a time, don't set big goals for now, I know when the time comes I feel it. Meanwhile I try my best to keep my illness under control with the resources I do have, such as a small amount of money few bucks a month for some supplements, keeping my diet under control, having a very low budget towards that, I still keep moving.
Yes one illness can steal a lot from you, opportunities, friends even, your well being and so on .. but the question is do you want to survive or just roll over and die?
I hope this helps everyone that suffers from any kind of disease in their IM journey and life in general.
Pain is just the necessary tool to improve our strenght and prepare for the next day, chapter of our lives. No negative comments towards people who are ill, not even judgemental ones, unless you can help them in any way you can, would make this place a better world !
I will with all modesty mention that I have had tremendous success the past 7 years (thanks to a few bhw memebers), mostly worked on my own on various projects in all kinds of niches. success that I myself have never seen it coming, a lot of failures, just ups and downs. Time to rewrite the story with the lords help, nothing can become real without believing, not believing is a sign the devil is playing tricks, time to ask the lord which path is right, the lord is within us, its part of our souls and we are part of him so basically pray/ask yourself follow your soul.
Message to the haters out there, and I will not be merciful and say it up front since I have figured out the case is most haters are richies who have forgotten the value of life but only learned to value the bills. This world was build out of love since nobody asked you for anything to live on this planet until the bill and power was installed, and then taxes came and so on. Well we have to accomodate with everything in the society we live in, but never forget to love and help those in need, if possible.
Great transition from NoHateWorld to BlackHatWorld. lol
