So guys, this is the only forum that helped me a tad so far, but I'm done. I just got notice I need to go back to the hospital, I have been drugged up for weeks while still grinding and have around 4k in hospital bills... The only thing that kept me going for the past 2 weeks was making money online. I started ewhoring and almost made 1k USD enough to pay for some bills and meds, so I was damn happy. Though all the methods I used got banned, paypals got limited, accounts got banned.. while I never scammed anyone, I always did reasonable prices and never scammed. However that doesn't seem to matter.. I moved on to CPA with tubecamgirl, made $50, got CPA set back a dollar for every action because I had chat traffic. I understand Now I find out they can't pay with paypal anymore, $50 gone. I started up an kik listings site, site worked good for a few hours, traffic died and ads aren't making ANY money despite having over 300 unique visitors and a whole NSFW page with cam ads. So money and time wasted on that too. My health is getting worse, I am drugged up with heavy meds, have a $+-500 bill due by the 11th, my parents are broke as fuck and the past week I've slept maybe like 5 hours because I was grinding on and on and on. I'm just done with my life, I can't take this anymore on top of everything I had to cancel my new school year due to health and finances which I was looking out for so bad.. I'm going to sleep now, angry at myself I guess I all am trying to do with this post is tell myself it's okay I failed.. It's not..