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I'm done I hate my life.

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by BlackAndYellow, Aug 3, 2014.

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  1. BlackAndYellow

    BlackAndYellow Registered Member

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    So guys, this is the only forum that helped me a tad so far, but I'm done.
    I just got notice I need to go back to the hospital, I have been drugged up for weeks while still grinding and have around 4k in hospital bills...

    The only thing that kept me going for the past 2 weeks was making money online.
    I started ewhoring and almost made 1k USD enough to pay for some bills and meds, so I was damn happy.

    Though all the methods I used got banned, paypals got limited, accounts got banned.. while I never scammed anyone, I always did reasonable prices and never scammed.
    However that doesn't seem to matter..

    I moved on to CPA with tubecamgirl, made $50, got CPA set back a dollar for every action because I had chat traffic. I understand
    Now I find out they can't pay with paypal anymore, $50 gone.

    I started up an kik listings site, site worked good for a few hours, traffic died and ads aren't making ANY money despite having over 300 unique visitors and a whole NSFW page with cam ads.
    So money and time wasted on that too.

    My health is getting worse, I am drugged up with heavy meds, have a $+-500 bill due by the 11th, my parents are broke as fuck and the past week I've slept maybe like 5 hours because I was grinding on and on and on.
    I'm just done with my life, I can't take this anymore on top of everything I had to cancel my new school year due to health and finances which I was looking out for so bad..

    I'm going to sleep now, angry at myself I guess I all am trying to do with this post is tell myself it's okay I failed..
    It's not..
     
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  2. givensia

    givensia Regular Member

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    What did I just read
     
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  3. Battleaxewarriors

    Battleaxewarriors BANNED BANNED

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    Damn that sucks man, i hope you manage to solve your issues.

    Though you gotta remember that you're the only one who can solve your financial problems, no one here is gonna do that.

    But yeah i hope you get better, there's different ways you can get a fast buck.
     
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    CazuaL Jr. VIP Jr. VIP Premium Member

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    Failing is part of IM.. If we all just quit every time we failed this forum would be a pretty empty place.
    EVERYTHING takes time. You have made money, you know what works and what doesn't. Start again, scale it up and continue earning.

    "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work"
    Thomas A. Edison



     
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  5. lietuvis002

    lietuvis002 BANNED BANNED

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    Ewhoring is scamming. Case closed.

    Anyway, you should try paid ads if free traffic is not working for you.
     
  6. deedee1whoa

    deedee1whoa Power Member

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    Hey man/girl, I totally understand you. I'm not sick though,
    I've just been in a dark place lately. So, I'm bummed as well. :(
    My mom paid my college for next year though! Hopefully we'll get out of this cr*p.
     
  7. JoeMongan

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    Hang in there buddy! You just got started and already clocked down over 1K which is damn good
    compared to most people. Learn how to accept money through other methods and keep on rocking it.
    We all can get down and feel like things are just impossible, but after we are mad at ourselves long enough
    it's time to get back on the horse and continue.

    To your success!
    -RK
     
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  8. biznets2

    biznets2 Regular Member

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    Failing is not only a part of IM it's a part of life, you get up, dust yourself down and start again. I know it's painful but I and many others have been through this and have survived., so get your head UP!! and look after yourself.
     
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  9. sagarbest

    sagarbest Senior Member

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    I tell you... you have made money and you will again, just don't give up. You are too frustrated right now.. relax and start again. Money won't come in instantly. You gotta be very patience in IM.
     
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  10. trickeren

    trickeren Junior Member

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    Quit drugs - get real job - pay bills - Internet marketing in spare ting - sleep. Suffer this shitty schedule for a few years, and you will be back on track
     
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  11. babasss

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    you really need a brake
     
  12. indianfreak

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    First of all, get some sleep. Tomorrow would be another day. Believe me, I've gone through it. And I've bounced back. You can, too; if you want to. The only one that can limit yourself is you. Kick the negative thoughts out of your life and let the positive energy engulf you. Trust me, everything would be well.
     
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    Never give in..Never..Never... Never - Winston Churchill. Good luck dude hope it works out for you.
     
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    There is a saying that moving to some other place may result in income increase. Its the surrounding which makes effect of people's life and people tend to move to other places where the income level is high and they learn a lot of things from others. Here in my country in the area which I live in, if I tell people that I make $500-$1000 a month they would get a shock but if I move 10-15km into the posh area and I tell them that I earn $500 - $1000 a month they wouldn't even bother listening to me. Move to a better place and forget to contact your past friends and family members and move your family after wards.
     
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    I know what you mean thats the reason i am start reading on blackhatworld coz of my medical bills i have cancer i am 29 years old. I wish your strenght and power maybe your world is black now but you made more money than i ever did since i start to read here.. so sleep a little and maybe you feel a little bit better tomorrow
     
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  16. t0mmy

    t0mmy Moderator Staff Member Moderator Jr. VIP

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    Heh welcome to the real world! If you put all that effort and time into some sustainable long term projects rather than this scraping the bottom of the desperate barrel with ewhoring and such then you'd be likely sitting in a much better position right now...

    Step your game up, quit your negative thinking and get on with things.. Only you can make it happen!
     
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    There's a reason why something like 99% of people who get into Internet Marketing quit. Even some people who made money for half a year sometimes quit. The fact that you already made some money shows that you have gone further than most people. When I made my first $5 online back in 2012 - I was ecstatic. 14 hours of tedious work and I achieved something. It was an amazing feeling and motivated me to keep going. I made $220 that very month. All because of my stubbornness and refusal to give up. Even right now I am sitting here burning with desire to succeed.

    Remember this: No matter how much you think you fail all it takes is some determination and the failure cannot be used against you. Just GO with it! Besides, think about all the things you've learned through marketing that you never would have if you were stuck in your 9-5 stable income job. Bah, eventually you'll be able to put all those skills together and accomplish what you probably never even dreamed before.

    Most people simply fantasize, but you have the opportunity to LIVE your fantasy. Now get that chin up and work your ass off for SUCCESS!
     
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    You don't run away from Troubles, it keeps on chasing after you. Face it squarely in the face once and you'll know the sweet smell of Victory. Not everyone came online with a golden spoon already folk into their mouth. We all have stories to tell.

    I Once did a PTP where i was paid 0.01 - 0.02 per post for months and i did not give up. I faced challenges and with God on my side, i overcome all. Stand up and tell yourself you're bigger than your problems
     
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    Failure is the stepping stone to SUCCESS. Never give up.
     
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    Assuming you live in the states, for starters, it sounds like you need to sign up for Obamacare. Just locate your nearest ex convict transgender healthcare navigator. And no reason to cancel school because of health or finances - the student loan program is a joke - transfer to a low cost online school and max out - you will have some nice pocket cash left on top of tuition.
     
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