i’m fucked

[bbrokeaf]

My life has gone to complete shit in the last year. I got neurodegenerative disease (ruined my life), lost my job, got bad credit, have nothing to my name and to top it off i’m being psychologically tortured by government federal agents.

The lengths they go through to extract information makes me question my faith in humanity.

They bullied me when i tried to go to mental health facility for my depression, they didn’t allow me to take my supplements i take for my disease, and they made it clear i was a worthless piece of shit to them by making fun of me and my story and mistakes daily and laughing at me like i’m some joke to the point of me breaking down in tears… and they only went harder.

The bullying got so bad i tried to hang myself with a shirt in the bathroom of the facility.

I’ve already had a failed suicide attempt this year and i’m just done with life. It’s just pain and suffering.

I left after 4 days and i will never trust any american health system again because they allow federal agents to operate these inhumane actions without any accountability and they basically got free reign.

I’m tired of the bullying and I want to move to my home country but i’m scared they will use their powers to keep me stuck here so they can keep me under their mercy.

I’m also on a lot of medications for my mental health and i’m worried about getting enough refills to cover the move.

Any advice is appreciated. Thanks for reading.

 

[PrimeCove]

Here’s my plan:

When everything is over, I’ll leave myself alone on an island with just an axe and a saw. I don’t care about my illness; it only takes one bullet.

 

[bbrokeaf]

Here’s my plan:

When everything is over, I’ll leave myself alone on an island with just an axe and a saw. I don’t care about my illness; it only takes one bullet.

Yea after what happened to me at the mental health facility i’m never trusting humans again.

I learned that day the world is a wicked place

 

[RichMedusa]

You are a Jr Vip member, start selling and offer your services here, make some money and leave this country. Not saying it's easy, but it's a plan to considere and think about

 

[PrimeCove]

You are a Jr Vip member, start selling and offer your services here, make some money and leave this country. Not saying it's easy, but it's a plan to considere and think about

Believing is half the journey.

 

[RoboTech]

Sorry to hear that.

Stay strong—every problem has a solution.

But why are federal agents after you?

 

[bbrokeaf]

You are a Jr Vip member, start selling and offer your services here, make some money and leave this country. Not saying it's easy, but it's a plan to considere and think about

I tried brother made a marketplace thread and everything but still was negative didn’t make my money back, and i don’t have enough money to afford the $30 thread cost

 

[PrimeCove]

 

[billythebilly]

I feel you bro
I myself have tons of debts in my country, I don't give a shit, I've already left it, if they start bullying me I will answer ''whatever,if you cry louder, I will make more debts, especially hiring your mother as my personal whore and I won't pay her as well'', lmao

I also have depression, severe anxiety issues, I'm taking medicine for some years, but you need to change part of your mindset, it seems you care too much for what they say or think, they are just robots programmed to bully people to recover money, their opinion or words should be irrelevant for you

 

[bbrokeaf]

Sorry to hear that.

Stay strong—every problem has a solution.

But why are federal agents after you?

I suspect they think i’m a criminal, but i’m really innocent and i’m just trying to rebuild my life but they don’t care.

They will just throw me in jail eventually and i’ll get raped because i’m already partially disabled due to my disease and i can’t defend myself in jail

 

[back2form]

Trust that the pain you're going through is temporary. If you move forward with the trust in mind,

You will find better solutions & those pains are just like your warriors, and they are only fight for you for the best of future.

All is well, Good Luck!

 

[bbrokeaf]

I’m going to kill myself before that happens so at least i choose my way out, i’m just too scared to die

 

[indianmojojojo]

Sorry to hear what you are going through. My prayers are with you

What i would suggest is find a support group of people going through a similar ailment or go to something that is similar/has something common.

Take care. Once again i am really sorry.

 

[RichMedusa]

I tried brother made a marketplace thread and everything but still was negative didn’t make my money back, and i don’t have enough money to afford the $30 thread cost

Apply for some HAF and WTB threads to make some quick money without need to pay for the BST fee.

If you have a marketplace BST, I didn't see it yet, you need to bump it regularly, answer questions, offer discounts, etc.

 

[bbrokeaf]

Apply for some HAF and WTB threads to make some quick money without need to pay for the BST fee.

If you have a marketplace BST, I didn't see it yet, you need to bump it regularly, answer questions, offer discounts, etc.

I tried a lot of people there unfortunately are time wasters looking for free work or sub pay work. Never got not 1 job in my dozens of dms these past few months

I closed my marketplace thread prematurely unfortunately due to depression of low sales.

 

[UrbanSnake]

What kind of debt do you have? In most cases you can't be arrested for it, you don't need to be afraid of jail

 

[deppo]

Trust that the pain you're going through is temporary. If you move forward with the trust in mind,

You will find better solutions & those pains are just like your warriors, and they are only fight for you for the best of future.

Unfortunately this is not the case. It is a good sounding advice that is why people like to throw it around a lot.

You need some consistent positive action over time to overcome difficult situations like the one described on here.

Sitting down and wishing will do nothing if not making things worse.

 

[SocialManager]

I don't know if you are joking or being serious, but it's important people continue to tell you that you are NOT being psychologically tortured by government federal agents. This is not happening.

 

[bbrokeaf]

I forgive the people that are torturing me and i genuinely wish the best for them because i don’t want to spread hate, but it’s been so bad since my recent traumatic experience with them i keep having ptsd flashbacks or paranoia or nightmares where i break down crying thinking there going to get me.

 

[bbrokeaf]

I don't know if you are joking or being serious, but it's important people continue to tell you that you are NOT being psychologically tortured by government federal agents. This is not happening.

It is true i swear on my life, it is true it’s not just in my head.