Totally overwhelmed

[Scorpion Ghost]

So im totally overwhelmed.

Im so overwhelmed that even writing why im overwhelmed just adds another thing for me to do, and so im not gonna so it.

But im totally overwhelmed.

Im almost depressed. Its like, you make the money and then people close to you want to take it, you know, the money doesnt matter lying hypocritical sons a bitches!

You buy a little place of your own and everything is a fucking problem. You fix one to create one, if youre lucky. If not then you fix one to create three.

I dont know...

Today a guy came to check my bathroom sink. You know, the water faucet. The water pressure was uneven. So he checks it and tells me the faucet is faulty and i need a new one. After he leaves i look around and find the cold water pipe thing is kinda folded in one place. But that cant be it right. Thats like elementary, the guy would have noticed. So i straighten it out, and voila, water pressure is good now.

But while the guy was checking things he was kinda aggressive with the faucet, and now water drips under it if it goes there. I tried tightening the screws but still it drips. But it wasnt dripping before. So now i have to call the guy to fix that.

So you make the money. You call a guy to fix somehing you have no business fixing. You pay the guy. Then the guy leaves, you fix the problem. But the guy created a new problem while here, so now you have to call the guy to fix that. And theres no guarantees.

Theres only guarantees if you fix it yourself. But i cant do everyrhing myself. Thats what the money is for. But the money wont do nothing when everyone is incompetent.

So whats the fucking point? I dont know. Maybe i should just spend all the money i made on drugs and whatever, and when it runs out go be a bum.

Id like AI to become... Take over. Everybody lose their jobs. Then maybe, just maybe i can call the robot guy and psy him and have peace of mind knowing he'll fix it and do it correctly.

This is unbearable.

I gotta get some dental work done at some point. But where? Everyone is completely incompetent. Maybe if i was super rich and i went to a super expensive dentist. But he/she is only human. Probably incompetent too. Its gonna be a failure no matter what or where i do. Im unlikely to be happy or even content.

Maybe its this stupid fucking country. Maybe i should just pack a bag and fuck off to wherever. Get a 9-5 job and play with my pusi lips all day long.

Ive proven to myself that hard work and sacrifice can pay off. Im sleeping in a king sized bed, really nice and comfy. I was sleeping on a couch that opens the past 8 years... And it probably wasnt much better before that either...

My parents are a fucking disappointment. Thats... disappoints me. Theyre one of the rest of you guys. Incompetent fucking parasites. Just like most of you.

Girlfriend? Fucking please. I am not socializing. Fuck you and fuck the herd mentality. Yeah yeah strength in numbers bla bla blow me. Whatever happened to me and you against the world? Meh.

At this point im just typing to type. I had a hell of a day, week, month, year... Shit, decade...

I meet a chick recently. She has like €3.000 credit card debt. But how can you spend money that you dont have? You degenerate fucking animal. You know what i did when i didnt have money? I did nothing. Nada. I didnt even get out of bed. I barely ate. But i didnt ask anyone for help and i certainly didnt borrow money like a fucking pathetic parasite cunt asshole!

Im sitting wih my 2 cousing and the husband of one of them recently. Close family right. I grew up with my cousins. So one of them starts talking about getting a loan. He's a doctor, has a decent salary. He doesnt make close to what i make, but makes good money. Hes gonna get a loan to redecorate the second floor of his parents house, because he and his soon-to-be-wife live there. I have no idea how you people do it. Id feel weird my parents being downstairs and me being upstairs fucking my soon-to-be-wife to death!

I dont mean to death literally. Im just saying, if you fuck right then theres earthquakes and thinders and noises and shit. What, you wait for your parents to leave the house and then you fuck? And they wait for you to leave in order to fuck? How do you do it? What a weird arrangement. You fucking weirdos

But so hes getting a loan. And im all against it. Why should you go to a bank and Beg? And then, pay it back with interest? Why? You have a good salary, just do things one by one. Why beg a bank for a loan that you gotta pay back with interest? Anyway, i tuned out of that conversation quickly because it offends me.

So then i say something to my cousins thats bothering me. It has to do with somebody i love very much asking me for a substantial amount of money, and me giving it. And my cousins basically tell me i shouldnt have said it. What? I cant say whats bothering me in a private environment with trusted family members? Is it because it involves money? But youre the money doesnt matter brigade. How come its an issue to talk about? You guys fuck me up. You are completely inconsistent. You cant have your cake and eat it too. You cant have these double standards. One standard will do just fine.

So i dont really my cousins anymore. I dont really like anyone who would ever tell me haf i cant say something. Kiss my ass! Ill say whatever i want. You dont get to censor me. Shit, i dont get to censor me! I mean i censor, you know, in front of kids and old people and strangers, but... Ahh....

I believe this is my longest mindfuck all over the place post i made on this forum ever. But who cares. This forum is one of the rare things in life that gives me joy anymore, and one of the key reasons i put my life in order, at least to some degree.

Im gonna end it now. I dont really have anything to say anyway. Just random mambo jumbo.

Oh, i like this.

Okay, what do i want right now. I pray for sleep. Thats a lie, i dont pray, thats stupid. But fuck, if i knew i was gonna die in a minute i may sneak in a lil prayer, just in case, just to cover all the angles

Anyway, you can all go fuck yourselves. Love ya. Have a nice day night evening whatever

 

[thevideoguy]

So im totally overwhelmed.

Im so overwhelmed that even writing why im overwhelmed just adds another thing for me to do, and so im not gonna so it.

But im totally overwhelmed.

Im almost depressed. Its like, you make the money and then people close to you want to take it, you know, the money doesnt matter lying hypocritical sons a bitches!

You buy a little place of your own and everything is a fucking problem. You fix one to create one, if youre lucky. If not then you fix one to create three.

I dont know...

Today a guy came to check my bathroom sink. You know, the water faucet. The water pressure was uneven. So he checks it and tells me the faucet is faulty and i need a new one. After he leaves i look around and find the cold water pipe thing is kinda folded in one place. But that cant be it right. Thats like elementary, the guy would have noticed. So i straighten it out, and voila, water pressure is good now.

But while the guy was checking things he was kinda aggressive with the faucet, and now water drips under it if it goes there. I tried tightening the screws but still it drips. But it wasnt dripping before. So now i have to call the guy to fix that.

So you make the money. You call a guy to fix somehing you have no business fixing. You pay the guy. Then the guy leaves, you fix the problem. But the guy created a new problem while here, so now you have to call the guy to fix that. And theres no guarantees.

Theres only guarantees if you fix it yourself. But i cant do everyrhing myself. Thats what the money is for. But the money wont do nothing when everyone is incompetent.

So whats the fucking point? I dont know. Maybe i should just spend all the money i made on drugs and whatever, and when it runs out go be a bum.

Id like AI to become... Take over. Everybody lose their jobs. Then maybe, just maybe i can call the robot guy and psy him and have peace of mind knowing he'll fix it and do it correctly.

This is unbearable.

I gotta get some dental work done at some point. But where? Everyone is completely incompetent. Maybe if i was super rich and i went to a super expensive dentist. But he/she is only human. Probably incompetent too. Its gonna be a failure no matter what or where i do. Im unlikely to be happy or even content.

Maybe its this stupid fucking country. Maybe i should just pack a bag and fuck off to wherever. Get a 9-5 job and play with my pusi lips all day long.

Ive proven to myself that hard work and sacrifice can pay off. Im sleeping in a king sized bed, really nice and comfy. I was sleeping on a couch that opens the past 8 years... And it probably wasnt much better before that either...

My parents are a fucking disappointment. Thats... disappoints me. Theyre one of the rest of you guys. Incompetent fucking parasites. Just like most of you.

Girlfriend? Fucking please. I am not socializing. Fuck you and fuck the herd mentality. Yeah yeah strength in numbers bla bla blow me. Whatever happened to me and you against the world? Meh.

At this point im just typing to type. I had a hell of a day, week, month, year... Shit, decade...

I meet a chick recently. She has like €3.000 credit card debt. But how can you spend money that you dont have? You degenerate fucking animal. You know what i did when i didnt have money? I did nothing. Nada. I didnt even get out of bed. I barely ate. But i didnt ask anyone for help and i certainly didnt borrow money like a fucking pathetic parasite cunt asshole!

Im sitting wih my 2 cousing and the husband of one of them recently. Close family right. I grew up with my cousins. So one of them starts talking about getting a loan. He's a doctor, has a decent salary. He doesnt make close to what i make, but makes good money. Hes gonna get a loan to redecorate the second floor of his parents house, because he and his soon-to-be-wife live there. I have no idea how you people do it. Id feel weird my parents being downstairs and me being upstairs fucking my soon-to-be-wife to death!

I dont mean to death literally. Im just saying, if you fuck right then theres earthquakes and thinders and noises and shit. What, you wait for your parents to leave the house and then you fuck? And they wait for you to leave in order to fuck? How do you do it? What a weird arrangement. You fucking weirdos

But so hes getting a loan. And im all against it. Why should you go to a bank and Beg? And then, pay it back with interest? Why? You have a good salary, just do things one by one. Why beg a bank for a loan that you gotta pay back with interest? Anyway, i tuned out of that conversation quickly because it offends me.

So then i say something to my cousins thats bothering me. It has to do with somebody i love very much asking me for a substantial amount of money, and me giving it. And my cousins basically tell me i shouldnt have said it. What? I cant say whats bothering me in a private environment with trusted family members? Is it because it involves money? But youre the money doesnt matter brigade. How come its an issue to talk about? You guys fuck me up. You are completely inconsistent. You cant have your cake and eat it too. You cant have these double standards. One standard will do just fine.

So i dont really my cousins anymore. I dont really like anyone who would ever tell me haf i cant say something. Kiss my ass! Ill say whatever i want. You dont get to censor me. Shit, i dont get to censor me! I mean i censor, you know, in front of kids and old people and strangers, but... Ahh....

I believe this is my longest mindfuck all over the place post i made on this forum ever. But who cares. This forum is one of the rare things in life that gives me joy anymore, and one of the key reasons i put my life in order, at least to some degree.

Im gonna end it now. I dont really have anything to say anyway. Just random mambo jumbo.

Oh, i like this.

Okay, what do i want right now. I pray for sleep. Thats a lie, i dont pray, thats stupid. But fuck, if i knew i was gonna die in a minute i may sneak in a lil prayer, just in case, just to cover all the angles

Anyway, you can all go fuck yourselves. Love ya. Have a nice day night evening whatever

I hope this doesn't come across poorly because I know it's annoying when people answer people talking about their problems with this, plus you've probably heard it before. But I read most of your post and some of the other posts you've made in the past about life problems and it really seems like you would benefit from talking to a good psychotherapist. I'm not sure if you can afford it or if they are available where you're form but worth looking into. Ideally in person but online is an option. Did me and many others wonders my friend.

Fuck you to bby and good luck <3

 

[andyframpton]

Calm down.
Take a deep breath and a night off doing stuff. Watch a film or football (not if you are a Man U fan at the moment.)
Everything can be sorted.
A leaking sink is a not a problem. You will find life throws lots of stuff at you. It’s just dealing with it one problem at a time.
Break things down into little problems to solve if you find you get overwhelmed with things.

 

[thescrrr]

Why do you give a fuck when it's not your turn to give a fuck?

 

[Willyfish]

life is a puzzle, incomplete, where you put things in places, the problem is that pieces can sometimes be mixed in a way which makes the puzzle absolutely a mess to complete... and some pieces are in another room so you try to find them and use other pieces instead but the fucking puzzle cannot be completed because you don't have the GOOD pieces and try to force them, but it's not possible because you need to go to the other room and find those missing pieces, but you DON'T know it yet and it's absolutely frustrating.

Just try to complete the puzzle slowly and at one point you realise that you need a thing that you don't have, it will eventually come if you search at the good place, that's the principle of life: exploration and try to build this fucking puzzle even if it's very... very... frustrating.

PS: take care of yourself, and don't mutilate your soul with what is missing or not in order, you will slowly resolve this, even if other shits come along the way.

 

[BassTrackerBoats]

That is a bunch of muddle.

#1 - you hired the wrong plumber.

#2 etc, you need to lay out line items so we can offer community help.

 

[Scorpion Ghost]

I hope this doesn't come across poorly because I know it's annoying when people answer people talking about their problems with this, plus you've probably heard it before. But I read most of your post and some of the other posts you've made in the past about life problems and it really seems like you would benefit from talking to a good psychotherapist. I'm not sure if you can afford it or if they are available where you're form but worth looking into. Ideally in person but online is an option. Did me and many others wonders my friend.

Fuck you to bby and good luck <3

Haha love how you ended that

Yes, i can afford it. Yes, they are available. But theyre surely just as incompetent as the next college graduate, so it would be a waste of time and money. And i need my money, i have no other safety net.

And even if i did, it wouldnt belong to me, so id rather fall on the ground and break all the bones in my body.

I have a theory about college actually. I think this "everybody has to go to college" trip is a Hitler thing. Like had Hitler been accepted in the university for arts or painting or whatever gay shit he wanted to do, maybe he wouldnt have become the Hitler we all know.

And so after WWII, they figured send everyone to college and give everyone a degree. That way theyre way too busy becoming professional incompetent wankers, and they have no time to become, well, Hitler

And as they did that, now i have to suffer incompetent fucking animals who think they know something, destroying everything they touch.

Its a vicious circle.

But, thats just a theory, and i could be wrong.

Calm down.
Take a deep breath and a night off doing stuff. Watch a film or football (not if you are a Man U fan at the moment.)
Everything can be sorted.
A leaking sink is a not a problem. You will find life throws lots of stuff at you. It’s just dealing with it one problem at a time.
Break things down into little problems to solve if you find you get overwhelmed with things.

Life doesnt really throw much at you when you sit and work from home and do it alone, like i do. I mean it does but... I pick up that sword every morning and i do my thing, and my wins and losses are solely mine, and no one has any power or control over it other than myself, and then... Even the problems are not problems... Theres no problems.

But then you get out in the world and then theres people, and then theres problems... Unnecessary problems...

Oh, im a Liverpool fan. But i dont follow sports anymore. Here:

The problem is that i break it into little things to solve. Then i realize theres a million of them to solve. And i cant solve half of them myself. And the experts who i should pay to solve them are mostly incompetent or they just dont give a shit. And where do we go from here? Life's too short for me to solve them all myself. Shit, i wish i could.

 

[Dopious]

Thats the cost of being on top, hope you have a better day tomorrow .. =)

 

[Jason2021]

Nonsense he doesn’t need a therapist!
OP believe me lots of guys on BHW are or have been where you are. I know it sounds stupid but you must have balance in life, you must have all those little simple things. Can’t work 24/7 without hq sleep, exercise, good diet, sex, socializing...
make some changes and it will slowly get better. Everyone are incompetent I think the same, but why does it upset you when it could be a funny story?

 

[andyframpton]

The problem is that i break it into little things to solve. Then i realize theres a million of them to solve. And i cant solve half of them myself. And the experts who i should pay to solve them are mostly incompetent or they just dont give a shit. And where do we go from here? Life's too short for me to solve them all myself. Shit, i wish i could

Yes but they are simple quick to solve problems. It’s less daunting that one massive problem.
If you can’t do them then pay someone to do it.

 

[duckduckgoo]

For you new partner, you wrong for think she degenerate. People in very much deep credit and loan because corona. 3000 euro is probably money for food or clothes, rent and study fees, so it normal.

Degenerate is plumber, he smell you money and do on purpose. Replace with new good plumber with good review or friend recommends.

Be happy you no have credit or rent to be pay and you have nice job all ready, who not all other as you say even doctor can not have. For doctor it real pain during corona.

Your doctor cousin he deserve to live as he work hard expose to risk patient and death. Mentality tell him live, afford, like it is last day.

Express negative opinion for the bad plumber, find new one, drink a bit votka and some joint - relax.

People starved all over world, you not, you should feel good friend

 

[16237]

Put a bowl under the sink and go to bed.

Life at times is one problem after another and generally when there are no problems we don’t appreciate those times enough. Luckily you have the cash to sort the problems.

Appreciate the good/simple/nothing going on times.

 

[Sardi]

I understand you brother, you are a STRONG mf
I was kinda like you (I have anger issues) I fuck things up pretty easily
the things that you need to do are
1: Focus on yourself
2:Know your Priorities
3: Don't give a fuck about anyone (literally) it will fuck you up mentally
4:Call another plumber or learn to do the things yourself, there are a shit ton of tutorial online, you can basically do anything around the house
5: You worry too much about other people's problems, DONT do it, it will consume you
work on these and you will be better

 

[RottenApple]

Believe it or not, we all go through the same shit every day.

That's how the world is, full of idiots that are just good to feed the system. Don't worry about other's life choices, without them your choices wouldn't be so impactful in your life. I don't care how ugly this reality might appeal to some but the truth is that we need the dumb's blood in our hands to succeed.

Without that stupid plumber, the real best ultra efficient plumber would be charging an outrageous price for his service so just try to get a better one next time.

I created a habit that everytime I see stupidity and mediocrity I face the other way and keep minding my business. That gives me peace of mind.

 

[Scorpion Ghost]

That is a bunch of muddle.

#1 - you hired the wrong plumber.

#2 etc, you need to lay out line items so we can offer community help.

#1 theyre all wrong everythings...

#2 im not really looking for help here. Theres no greasemonkey automation script that can take care of all this haha

Thats the cost of being on top, hope you have a better day tomorrow .. =)

I dont know whats being on top.

But i do know whats being on the bottom. A dreadful place.

Nonsense he doesn’t need a therapist!
OP believe me lots of guys on BHW are or have been where you are. I know it sounds stupid but you must have balance in life, you must have all those little simple things. Can’t work 24/7 without hq sleep, exercise, good diet, sex, socializing...
make some changes and it will slowly get better. Everyone are incompetent I think the same, but why does it upset you when it could be a funny story?

It upsets me because, like, heres a problem that needs to be solved. When should it be solved? Fucking yesterday godsamnit.

Ok, not possible, so then right now goddamnit! But i cant, i dont have the skills/time/brainpower.

Call a guy. Then you do. And he comes. And its still not solved!

We're in a lose-lose-lose situation here. Thats some scary shit. Overwhelming. Fuck...

Yes but they are simple quick to solve problems. It’s less daunting that one massive problem.
If you can’t do them then pay someone to do it.

Pay someone to do it, he says.

Chances are slim the person i pay will actually do it the way its supposed to be done.

You know, people love to say find a competent or a good [insert profession here]

What i want to know is, where can i buy the competency measuring tool to measure the competence level of the person im hiring do to [inserr job here]

And dont tell me online reviews. Ive done sold reviews online. I see right through all of that. Like maybe in the US or the first world there is some level of accountability and professionalism, i dont know. But theres certainly very little to none here. And i wont hold my breath for the first world either, because people are people. We're all the same right? Muslims, blacks, whites, christians, all the same right? Ok, im PC bro, im game. So youre all shit and its the same no matter where you go. Great

 

[andyframpton]

Pay someone to do it, he says.

Chances are slim the person i pay will actually do it the way its supposed to be done.

You know, people love to say find a competent or a good [insert profession here]

What i want to know is, where can i buy the competency measuring tool to measure the competence level of the person im hiring do to [inserr job here]

And dont tell me online reviews. Ive done sold reviews online. I see right through all of that. Like maybe in the US or the first world there is some level of accountability and professionalism, i dont know. But theres certainly very little to none here. And i wont hold my breath for the first world either, because people are people. We're all the same right? Muslims, blacks, whites, christians, all the same right? Ok, im PC bro, im game. So youre all shit and its the same no matter where you go. Great

Well don’t find anyone to try and help you then. Keep putting yourself under pressure like you are doing. Never trust anyone about anything in life.
Let me know how that works out for you. Because frankly it don’t seem to sound like it is at the moment.

Do you think Bezos does it all himself? Buys the products, Packs the boxes, does the deliveries?

 

[duran1]

Yeah, it is really difficult to get a good craftsman - there are only kind of - cheap and medium (shitty shit) - and high end.

If you pay cheap/medium you have to accept the shit. - or you are lucky and get a good one.. but thats mostly not the case..

Forget about all people around you.. they all sucked.. and also the employees.. most of them sucks too man. i do not expect that my employees work as hard as me.. because they earn there money for a living.. i would do the same.. work 9-5 and go home.. so what you do.. pay incentives? doesnt work.. some will work harder, the rest will blame because the otherone get his bonus.. its rediculous..

You have hire stupid "cheap" workers who do the same stuffs several years. and you hire experts "high salary".. who manage the stupids..

the same here.. there is no "middle".. stupid or pro.. no middle.

 

[Songhort]

Seems like you should change something about your life. Maybe move abroad and start fresh.

 

[duckduckgoo]

Seems like you should change something about your life. Maybe move abroad and start fresh.

But he buy new apartment it is not from new era apartment that you be move from earth to mars

 

[Songhort]

But he buy new apartment it is not from new era apartment that you be move from earth to mars

I am not sure what you are saying, but he can sell or rent out his apartment.