What do I do with my life?. I am a man but i am not able to carry out my responsibilities. While my brother is the man and he can do everything. I want to be like my brother. I want to be as strong and as useful as him. What do i do to become a man?
It's like i was born into a family of warriors and i can never be one like my brothers. In times of battle, they would often leave me behind because i am weak. I try to be good at things but i am never manly enough for them.
What do I do with my life?
You can start do or work in area you like the most.
I am a man but i am not able to carry out my responsibilities.
I understand what you mean, but you are a conciousness first ( in Man body ). You forget of who you are and play a game with yourself like we all do. Who decides what are your responsibilities.... Who says what are mans resposibillities... Who is deciding that...
While my brother is the man and he can do everything.
I doubt he can do EVERYTHING...he can do everything from your point of view.
I want to be like my brother
You can try to be like your brother. But even if you do everything in your power to be like him and you maybe "become him" you will still be fake and you will still not be enough ( at least from your point of view ). Because this act is coming from a state that you are NOT Enough. So what do you think will be outcome...
I want to be as strong and as useful as him.
Really? Is it not rather that you want to have that acceptance and "popularity" he is having? Or what you thing he have from others?
What do i do to become a man?
What is it to be a man? What is your authority? Who decided what is it to be a man? People accept so many things because they hear them somewhere. Or because they have some authority that they believe or just listen to. Who told you what it is to be a man?
It's like i was born into a family of warriors and i can never be one like my brothers.
There are so many reasons for this...You know why you were born to this family. You just forget. If you really want to discover that you will know it sooner or later...Maybe it seems like it's something bad...but maybe you are here to show then some other side they need to see. If you wanted to be the same as them you would be, but you did not.
In times of battle, they would often leave me behind because i am weak.
You can decide right now that all of the weakness you have ( you think you have ) is now your strenght. Only allow everything to give you strenght. Even if you don't know how this can be benefitical for you. You are deciding what effect has ANY situation in your life on you.
I try to be good at things but i am never manly enough for them.
If they would truly love you they would never want you to become anything. They would support you and help you. Also understand that they can only give you what THEY ARE. If they need to constantly remind you you are not enough then they definitely don't feel enough in themself. Is this what you want to become?? And maybe this can be a reason for you to be in this family, to reflect them what they need. But first you have to be YOURSELF FIRST.
Don't try to be good for them. Love and accept yourself. And if you can't. At least be honest with yourself. Mabye it will take a time but eventually you will realize the reasons.