- Mar 22, 2013
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We go 7 years back. Im sleeping well dressed and well covered cuz its cold and i dont wanna turn on heating so as to not spend unnecessary money on electricity. Every time i exhale some steam comes out of my mouth. Maybe its not called steam... You know, smoke-like thing...
Today, in about 3 months i should be movong in my 55 2m / $55.000 apartment. I have enough savings to stop working today and give myself $600/mo, and live like that for 5 years without making a cent. The average salary in my country is like $300/mo, just to get some perspective. I got a nice car, about $3.000 worth, and i got a coupla computers and lap tops, about $3.000 worth. I have my business that makes me money every month, and i have a shit ton of digital assets (websites, domains, social pages, emails), which if i decided to sell would probably bank me... I dont know... Lets say at least $10.000+
On the other hand, i have no friends, no social life, my social skills are super suspect, and i havent had sex in like a year. I dont wanna go to a prostitute, and tinder and badoo are not working out for me anymore for some reason. And im getting older, closing 31 in a month.
So... why am i telling you all this? I dont know...
I feel like im almost done. Im secure. My apartment is almost ready, and barring and unpredictable fuck ups, ive secured shelter for myself for life. Yay
But then, like, now what. I dont have the same motivation to work like i once did. I do my work and i go through the motions and everything, but its not the same, im not hungry anymore.
But on the other hand, my existance has been so focused and revolving around money for a very very long time, that i cant really spend any money because im fucking terrified of losing it. Because it goes fast, and shit runs downhill. I can literally have a slow week and i find myself losing the motivation to eat, do anything costly. Its weird.
So i dont know. Just one of those days.
Today, in about 3 months i should be movong in my 55 2m / $55.000 apartment. I have enough savings to stop working today and give myself $600/mo, and live like that for 5 years without making a cent. The average salary in my country is like $300/mo, just to get some perspective. I got a nice car, about $3.000 worth, and i got a coupla computers and lap tops, about $3.000 worth. I have my business that makes me money every month, and i have a shit ton of digital assets (websites, domains, social pages, emails), which if i decided to sell would probably bank me... I dont know... Lets say at least $10.000+
On the other hand, i have no friends, no social life, my social skills are super suspect, and i havent had sex in like a year. I dont wanna go to a prostitute, and tinder and badoo are not working out for me anymore for some reason. And im getting older, closing 31 in a month.
So... why am i telling you all this? I dont know...
I feel like im almost done. Im secure. My apartment is almost ready, and barring and unpredictable fuck ups, ive secured shelter for myself for life. Yay
But then, like, now what. I dont have the same motivation to work like i once did. I do my work and i go through the motions and everything, but its not the same, im not hungry anymore.
But on the other hand, my existance has been so focused and revolving around money for a very very long time, that i cant really spend any money because im fucking terrified of losing it. Because it goes fast, and shit runs downhill. I can literally have a slow week and i find myself losing the motivation to eat, do anything costly. Its weird.
So i dont know. Just one of those days.