Man right now you are stronger than ever but you don't realize still!
Check my short story, 5 years ago was a day in my life when I had nothing, 0, till that day I lost, father, mother, brother, house, job, friends, girlfriend!!!
I woked up and realize I have lost all, all combined, but after 6 hours in silence with me and my self and a pack of cigs with my last cash from pocket I have realized that I had lost all I can lose till that moment but I have nothing else to fucking lose anymore, and from that moment my hunt for changing my life started.
I don't wanna speak about numbers, but what I can tell you is, now I'm good, meanwhile married with the best women in the world, and we have a baby boy which illuminated my world since Jan 1 this year, managed to buy a little house, and we have all that we need, I'm still hustling cause this is my way now, to pursuit and fulfill dreams.
So take my word when you have nothing to lose anymore you are the most badass version of you in this life, raise your head up and start hustling, read and eat all info you can get about the projects you like and you wanna take part, life just began for you brother!