Modern medicine is a boon as well a curse, I feel sorry to what happened to you, its unforntuate to say the least.
Also, I am not sure where you live and what are your beliefs, still I can suggest you Pranic Healing, please look for it online, and if it looks interesting, I would suggest you to find a healer nearby, i can connect you to one but he lives in Pune (India), fantastic guy.
This guy i mentioned above says that body has the capability of healing all problems/diseases on its own with minimal interefence of modern medicines and I believe in him.
God bless you, may the positive energy heal your body, mind and soul.
I am writing this while listening to
. as I suffer from (not yet clincally checked) anxiety...and such mantras help me to calm a little..
I swear to god, I have tears rn seeing how and what people are going through...