Hi Jon
First of all Jon, you need to get your head out of your arse! ( I mean that in a caring way, just touch the screen and "Heal"

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and be very thankfull for what you have! ( Millions more have to do the same with a lot lot less!)
you need to look at your kids and be thank full for their health !
and before you ask no I am not a bit religious !
It seems to me that you need your mind fixing or your mindset need re setting!
Start to think / focus on what you want and not on what you dont have ! thinking about what you dont have
just brings more of that into being! you just get more of wanting, because thats what your focusing on!
Basicly put " you get what you think about"
if you P.M me i can give you a person who can get your mind right so to speak, a bit like reformatting your hard drive removes all the crap so you can do a clean install of windows. and no I'm not affiliated to this person and I don't get any kick backs. you could check it out and you never know it may just help.
In the mean time try the below
Start to treat your business like a job, eg 9 to 5
Don't work from a room in your house ( if poss) try a garden
shed ( theres plenty of cheap ones around now)
providing you have a garden!
Take the money you make and invest in say, property !
this gives an income if you rent out plus the long term growth
towards retirement and takes the pressure off you having to always
be successful online.
you need to just pugg some money away
if you have some spare every month just stick an amount
away in a bank and forget about it
Hope these ideas help you Jon, and if not I'm doing a deal this week
on ropes, handguns, and on special offer is my exhaust to window Kit
and this deal is really smoking!
In the mean time keep smiling
Andy