If you are going to take them, the easier way to find them is by going to a local meathead gym. Most sell them over the counter believe it or not. but whatever you do, go to the heroin addict clinic and ask them for needles (they'll give you the right ones plus give you a little lesson on how and where to inject).
Steroids aren't too bad. Your dick won't get smaller but your BALLS do. Mainly because your body will stop producing testosterone. On you first cycle do Test and dianabol (weeks 1 -6 250ml test, weeks 7-12 500ml test, 20mg dianabol per day weeks 1-4). That s what a pro told me.
Oh yeah, and be prepared to lose your family and your girlfriend if you have one. Dianabol can make you the happiest person alive when your on it but damn, you hate everything that doesn't go your way when your off.
sorry, just thought i'd give some real info!