Bro if it's a life long thing, it's deeply rooted within your identity. You see yourself as an angry person, and you've acted out that role throughout your life, so you probably need to seek professional help to realign that. But also remember that you're ultimately responsible for how you behave, no one can force you to do it. If being a tough guy is your priority in life, you're never going to behave intelligently (as someone accurately pointed out is lacking in the way you're living your life currently). You're not a victim, robot or a monkey, so start reading up on self improvement, watch some Tim Ferriss or Joe Rogan, and try to find others that enjoy the positives in life.