Was my mind hijacked?

Scorpion Ghost said:

You make nice HTML site. No problems

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reaaski said:

I feel uncomfortable writing in WordPress or CMS or some other editor.

But when I go to Reddit or BHW everything is fine.

Like wtf? So if I write there, I can just copy my input and post it on my website.

Free content? Can I hijack the hijackers?

I've been sober for 5 months.

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reaaski said:

I think it's cause I have too low prices. I worked for 2 years as a WP dev and messed myself up. It's not the only problem. I worked for people who didn't respect what I did, at all and made me think development and engineering is not a good pathway.

I had about 3 toxic people around me manipulating me into this shit for over 6 years. Yesterday my sibling revealed to me he was doing whatever other people told him in relation to me.

He told me his friend makes $10k per month selling copy. Then he revealed he only makes $600 per month moving bricks. Made me feel like an idiot missing out on something and it was all lies, like 98% of the stuff I had been exposed to in these circles. On another day my brother beat me up cause someone told him I'm worth only this.

I write a blog about this phony shit now. I hope I will let someone know what kind of mental wrecks are living on this planet.

Honestly, I haven't seen so much mess ever in my life. And I'm living in solitude observing what these morons I was hanging out with are doing to each other. They can't remember their own stories and have a different set of fairytales for everyone they encounter.

I have 15 pages (3k words) of demotivational mental stuff that these people managed to stuff into my head throughout years. I wrote it down in 3 hours. Extremely sarcastic, cinic and derisory bs. Professionally they are drug dealers, thieves and probably sociopaths.

Literally the only thing they were doing while hanging out with me was finding some spots to hit, so it would destroy me. That's sick.

I should take a shotgun but that's exactly what they want me to do. Their greatest idea is to destroy and sabotage. My mind is shattered since years. In consequence I make these threads.

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Vk316 said:

Be proud of yourself for cutting toxic folks out of your life. Everyone is not strong enough to do that. People say that it's better to stay alone than to be with toxic people but don't actually follow through because they are afraid of being alone. But you did it.

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Gogol said:

WP feels like a mine field to be honest. I also feel tensed even logging into that sht.

Since you like posting on other platforms, try making a private repo on github, and write the contents there, in markdown. Github's editor is actually pretty decent.

Then have a static build generator to fetch those contents periodically from the github repo and build your site with that. Problem solved

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Vergacip said:

This is a great advice. I have never used GitHub editor.

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Gogol said:

Just fyi, there are multiple markdown plugins for vs code as well, if you want to do it locally (and then push it to the remote repo). Those are very nice also. Github editor is more for quick stuffs or when I am feeling too lazy to push from local codebase.

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