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You're 20 years old, very young

Start working now and try to distance yourself from all the BS that you have told us about, it's not going to help your mental state.

Pick a method on BHW and stick to it until you see results

Earn enough to get yourself out of there and help your sisters and your mom with your new money
 
Blackhatworld is a SEO forum. If you suffer from your past it would be much better to talk to a doctor or joining a therapy group. Eventually joining a forum on this topic could also help.

My honest opinion: Stop blaming other people, you are 100% charge of yourself. Stop relying on your dad, step sisters or whatever. Don't even think about them. Why would you waste your time thinking of them, if they don't give a fuck about you? Take responsibility of yourself or no one else will.
 
Welcome to the forum for learners and earners buddy. Hope you have a nice stay here.
Read a lot, literally A LOT.
See the journey like your own.
Commit to what you find interesting and finally JUST DO IT :)
 
Hi .

I suffer from anxiety and depression I see that I have no future the problem starts when I came into this world 20 years ago I don't remember how did I come nor why I came they told me that my dad maried my mom when his first wife died and left him with 3 girls ( yes they are my step sisters ) .

I don't really now why but the relation between my parents as I remember never been good always yelling and domestic violence ( whenever my dad is in home he sometimes go for months and months without hearing anything from him ).

He travels a lot and work a lot and also get paid a lot but never gave me any money or spending any quality time with me when he is in our city there is three ways that he spends time sleeping or yelling and being angry ( even when he is sleeping ) or being outside .

I don't remember too much about my enface but I think my brain chosen to forget .

Two of my step sisters are somehow have a good relation with me the third one and the oldest one the relation isn't that good I have three other sisters from my dad and mom and one brother .
My dad 5 years ago retired from his work but still the same person no emotions no money no help but the only thing he stopped doing for 3 years now is hiting my mom I clearly remember the last time he did I found blood near the door when I came back from school I was very angry and scince then I stoped talking with him ( I was always trying to communicate with him and he always makes me feel bad alone and unwanted ) .
Later I found out that she got hitted in her left eye without any action from her side she didn't even try to suing him I didn't had a lot of money but I gave her everything I had .
He wasn't give us a lot of food even if he is living in the same house he have a lote of free time but his choice is to doesn't use his head and give xx thousand dollars into a gang.

I don't remember a lot and that a good think for and I'm too cool I don't cause trouble even if everyone is bullying me till now and sometimes I go two days with no food but the think that made me feel so bad is that my younger sister started to work in the agriculture field ( this field is known for non working conditions no guarantiees and the payment is low as 6 dollars a day + a lot of people die and get raped )
I don't care about me and how I live I always been like that I've been thought a lot of injuries and conditions that makes me hate this life but it is okay .
I never felt this bad I just don't want my mom,brother and sister to live like that I don't want them to have no future .
I didn't write everything here but just to make you as close as possible to give advise because the full story is much worst and my English is not that good to describe the details .


I only want to have future for my family I want them to live better
You need professional help not a marketing forum with random strangers
 
Honestly, no one else is responsible for the things you are telling us here. On the end, this is about you weaking up and do something with your life. Get a job, work hard and move out. Writing about your issues here on BlackHatWorld won’t bring you any further.

On a side note, I would consult professional help in your case as well.

Oh, and sport is the best thing against depression imo.

Good luck!
 
Welcome to the real world. When it comes to a fucked up past I'm a veteran, you can look up some of my posts.

No one here can help you except yourself. I've written several guides for beginners but at the end of the day it's you that need to take action! Nothing is easy or fast in IM and more people fail than succeed so not sure if you want to go there.

All I know after being homeless multiple times, incarcerated, dealing with many depressions, addictions and trauma, you can turn it around. I did it after 20 years, shit, you are 20, so man the fuck up! If I can do it in my late 30's you sure as hell can at your age!

Now stop being a pussy and grab the world by the balls! Drowning in sorrow, whining how bad life is will bring you nothing!

Take action!
 
hi bro we all from the 3rd countries suffer from unstable family and ++ poverty i barely can afford 200$ laptop and 10 mb internet connection but to be honest the more problems and obstacles you have the more motivation you will get just focus on ONE domain that you like and stick your self 14 hours a day and its gonna pay off forget about your past your are 20 yrs old your life its just getting started !!
 
This advice is probably going to hurt like a mother..., but stop defining yourself by how others have treated you. It is tough and you did have a really difficult upbringing. You could dwell on it, wondering why it happened to you and it will just spiral you into a worse depression.
The fact is, life is unfair.
Bad things happen for no reason. If you are defined by the bad things that happened to you, you won't get anywhere in life.
Take your future into your own hands, because you are the only one responsible for it.
Want a better life for your family? All the info you need is in this forum. Learn, learn and test everything. At first, you will fail a lot. But if you stick with it, you can push through and provide a better life for your sisters and mom.

You are in charge of your future, no one else

Hope this helps.
 
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