Just poppin in to say hey. Haven't been on BHW in a minute. Mixed feelings on all the drama and whatnot; seems a different place at times to me. But I think it just may be me at the moment. I suffer from anxiety and ADD which don't mix well so it's been frustrating to deal with as of late. My girlfriend annoys me, people online annoy me, life annoys me; I have no patience anymore. My gf b/c she just uses me for the money anyhow, people online because I'm tired of the fakes, and life because I keep falling for the fakes. =] I want to be like my sister: stone cold! Having a heart doesn't really work well in this industry AT TIMES. I know I always seem to ramble when I am high, but I know ya'll understand what I am saying. At least I typed it slow enough to make sense and not spelled wrong. But that's it too; I need to cut back on that too so I don't be activating my add even more; getting high is not good for it I tell ya. Or is it not good for my mind; something like that. I think it's the add though. Anyhow, I don't know how to gain willpower anymore. Maybe I'm just too bored. I need to do more things in the day. I don't know. K so I started this to say hey and it turned out to be a stream of consciousness, but whatever. I have to be to bed in a few. My friend is getting married tonight. Maybe that's it for me too; I want a family--all my friends having kids; I want kids. :/ I'm thinking about moving again.....idk. Eh anyhow; this is the lounge, right?