Sup

Just poppin in to say hey. Haven't been on BHW in a minute. Mixed feelings on all the drama and whatnot; seems a different place at times to me. But I think it just may be me at the moment. I suffer from anxiety and ADD which don't mix well so it's been frustrating to deal with as of late. My girlfriend annoys me, people online annoy me, life annoys me; I have no patience anymore. My gf b/c she just uses me for the money anyhow, people online because I'm tired of the fakes, and life because I keep falling for the fakes. =] I want to be like my sister: stone cold! Having a heart doesn't really work well in this industry AT TIMES. I know I always seem to ramble when I am high, but I know ya'll understand what I am saying. At least I typed it slow enough to make sense and not spelled wrong. But that's it too; I need to cut back on that too so I don't be activating my add even more; getting high is not good for it I tell ya. Or is it not good for my mind; something like that. I think it's the add though. Anyhow, I don't know how to gain willpower anymore. Maybe I'm just too bored. I need to do more things in the day. I don't know.

K so I started this to say hey and it turned out to be a stream of consciousness, but whatever. I have to be to bed in a few. My friend is getting married tonight. Maybe that's it for me too; I want a family--all my friends having kids; I want kids. :/ I'm thinking about moving again.....idk. Eh anyhow; this is the lounge, right?

Haven't seen a post so personal on this site before...interesting to read and I hope you don't feel like this often.
Hit me up if you want to talk sometime..

if your looking to chat, instead of making threads come to the official bhw chat: http://widget.mibbit.com/?settings=cc123ee35413a5958f44af04ce7a2fe6&server=irc.makecash.org&channel=%23makecash

you appear to be too confused.
just calm down a bit bro.
let the emotions sinkin.