Thank you for all who advised me in this thread: hyyp://yyy.blackhatworld.com/blackhat-seo/blackhat-lounge/678276-guys-what-do-you-do-when-you-feel-down.html More than a month ago, I really lack motivation, my mind was rambled, I?ve no direction and I was just like wanted to stop and wait for nothing. I?ve failed several times, making wrong decisions and all that. Until I became aware of self-sabotage, research about it and found a way on how to solve it. Thanks to fellow BHW?s especially to Techxan. Thanks bro. Your advice really wakes me up. Looking back, I think I?ve been self-sabotaging myself several times without me knowing it. I always started something and then left it unfinished. Then finally I've pursued this one, I found the guts to present to the board and received praises from the President, himself, and to other members of the board as well. I also received a good scholarship for my studies and finance to continue the project. It?s nothing big, but it is another door for me. Compare to all the knowledge and experiences acquired by many BHW members here, I feel like a child. So to the big bros (in terms of age, knowledge, experience, money and well? ), have patience when I ask stupid questions again.