wriper
Supreme Member
- Jul 31, 2011
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Hi guys,
I am really desperate . My first relationship ended after 1,5 year .
Altough i read all these advice and i apply them it hurts. She was my first and she came to my life when i was 20 . First love first sex everything . Hormones and oxytocin exploding and i was in heaven . But few days ago she told me that its end . And she was in my hometown with my parents day before i feel horrible beacuse i was again negative on her because she was cold on me. We wanted to live together and she realized that she cant live with someone like me . But again there is that feeling where i ask myself why i wasnt better man why i didnt hugh her strong and asked her and told her that i love her even when she is cold .
I understand why and somehow my logic is telling me that it was right decision and she did the last best thing for me.
Problem was that i stopped working on myself and she and my work was everything . When i had some problems in bussines i came to her and told her she was always here for me . But i didnt know that there is limit that you cant go with every problem to someone you love and you need to solve problems also by yourself you need to work on yourself .
But it really hurt we travelled world together so many nice memories . Now i cant eat sleep and work. I tought that it is good i felt really positive yesterday but then again so many emotions. Everything in my house remind me the love i had . I cant even watch tv shows because we watched them togheter , she loved my dog and animals and now i cant take my dog for a walk , i took her to all important places for me and now i cant to go there myself.
I realize that i will find someone better and most important i will become someone better . Sorry for BS post but this place gave me big part of my life - my bussines and i feel that i need to tell someone
I am really desperate . My first relationship ended after 1,5 year .
Altough i read all these advice and i apply them it hurts. She was my first and she came to my life when i was 20 . First love first sex everything . Hormones and oxytocin exploding and i was in heaven . But few days ago she told me that its end . And she was in my hometown with my parents day before i feel horrible beacuse i was again negative on her because she was cold on me. We wanted to live together and she realized that she cant live with someone like me . But again there is that feeling where i ask myself why i wasnt better man why i didnt hugh her strong and asked her and told her that i love her even when she is cold .
I understand why and somehow my logic is telling me that it was right decision and she did the last best thing for me.
Problem was that i stopped working on myself and she and my work was everything . When i had some problems in bussines i came to her and told her she was always here for me . But i didnt know that there is limit that you cant go with every problem to someone you love and you need to solve problems also by yourself you need to work on yourself .
But it really hurt we travelled world together so many nice memories . Now i cant eat sleep and work. I tought that it is good i felt really positive yesterday but then again so many emotions. Everything in my house remind me the love i had . I cant even watch tv shows because we watched them togheter , she loved my dog and animals and now i cant take my dog for a walk , i took her to all important places for me and now i cant to go there myself.
I realize that i will find someone better and most important i will become someone better . Sorry for BS post but this place gave me big part of my life - my bussines and i feel that i need to tell someone
